Tainted Red (Akashi Seijuro X OC)

-Chapter 19-

Since 'she' asked me.

Here is Aseni.

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Aseni's POV

I never know love. I never felt it.

Not from my parents.

Not from the person I treated as a brother.

Not from my best friend.

They say that it's a good feeling.

Butterflies in your tummy.

An overwhelming feeling in the heart.

I searched for it.

I once wondered if I was the problem.

That I just naturally can't feel love.

Is there such a thing?

The first time that I blushed, the first time that I stuttered, it was with Akashi. I really thought that I've found out what love was when I met him.

I craved that feeling. I grew more aloof than before. He occupied my thoughts, and I really believe that I love him because of what I'm feeling.

I never was one of those people that makes friends.

I thought that through bonding with others, I can feel love.

So I befriended Kise, but the empty feeling remained so I made a new friend. I thought that having more friends can I only feel love.

But even though I spent most of my time with Yameshi and Kise, I still felt empty.

Being with Akashi filled that empty feeling and to lose him to another girl is unacceptable.

So I left...

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I met David in America. He was my classmate in first year.

He kept on pestering me. He would always do stupid things just to catch my attention. He would annoy me and follow me everywhere. He walks me home, he walks me to school.

I really didn't get it. I was a loner and I didn't mind it. I was the daughter of a famous businessman. I was a top student in school. I excelled in my academics and extra curriculars.