I wasn't satisfied with the last chapter. So I decided to give you guys a short chapter. Two updates in one day...!
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Where am I?
Am I dead?
No, that's impossible. If I were then there wouldn't be darkness all around me.
I see nothing. Hear nothing. Feel nothing.
Just empty and cold.
What happened?
Oh yeah, I killed myself.
I couldn't stop her from leaving me. She's gone now. In California, with her aunt and her new life. Was it wrong that I was hurt? Was it wrong to rebel to someone who broke your heart? Was it my fault that I couldn't bring myself to love her again?
I think it is.
It's my fault that she hurt herself. Her hair, her beautiful long hair, she cut them off. It's my fault she almost got raped twice because I wasn't there for her.
It is all on me.
I thought that avoiding her and letting her move on was the best. But I screwed up, I told her I still loved her. I was leading her on, and she got sick of it.
I'm horrible. I always will be.
Everyone I care about leaves me.
My mother did and my father did. I was weak and incompetent in their eyes and it was true.
If only I was strong enough to pull my mother out of the debris that fell on her, then maybe I won't be this devastated.
If only I could please my father then maybe he wouldn't have left for another woman.
I'm a worthless piece of shit that managed to have a reason to continue living.
And now, that reason is gone... and so was everything else.
I've downed at least a full bottle of pills. I don't think I can survive that, which brings me back to my question.
Where am I?
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This is Akashi's Point of view by the way.
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Fanfiction"What are you talking about? Of course I'm not leaving you." He hugged me as he rubbed my back in comfort. I nodded at him, I know he will never lie. "Are you scared that I will leave you?" he looked into my eyes sincerely. "No, I'm scared that if y...
