From a Leader to a fighter (Lexa x Oc)

Chapter nine

(TW: I cried while making this chapter, so grab some tissue, also I describe Lincoln's death: TW)

(Italics means memories. I will be going in and out of memories without a heads up so pay attention.)

When we made it to the cave we notice Indra and Bellamy inside. 

"What is he doing here?" I asked Indra. 

"Octavia." Is all she replied. 

"If you weren't Octavia's brother I would kill you right here right now." I said to him. He didn't really pay attention to me. 

"Hey, Indra" Belle said walking from behind me. "Mommy finally let me come with her." She said smiling. 

"Hey, little warrior." Indra smiled at her. 

"You have a daughter?" Bellamy asked me. "Aren't you 19?" 

"I don't see how that concerns you." I say. 

We sat there for about an hour in silence. 

"Look, Rocky I'm-" He got cut off by the sound of a horn. 

I stood up quickly. 

"Heda... No..." Indra whispers. She looks over to me. Silent tears starts to fall from my face. 

"What is it?" Bellamy asked. 

"A new commander has risen." Indra responded. Indra gets up and starts to leave. I look over to Belle. She looks lost in thought. 

"And you go running? Just like Mount Weather, huh? Maybe this time Octavia will get it. Your loyalty will always be with your people." Bellamy said trying to justify his actions. 

"Our commander just died could you have a little fucking respect." I snapped. I looked towards my daughter. "Isabelle," She looked towards me. "I'll be right back, okay? Stay here I'll be right back." She nods her head. I know I probably shouldn't leave her because she just lost her mother for a second time but It feels like I can't breathe. Like the only thing giving me oxygen is gone.

I went outside the cave and got on my horse. I just needed to go on a quick ride. Doing that turned out to be a mistake, because I saw something I wish I didn't.   

I saw my brother on his knee's, Pike holding a gun to his head. I saw him push the trigger. I saw the bullet go through Lincoln's head. I saw his blood go on the ground. I saw my brother's body hit the floor. 

"NOOO!" I screamed.  That was the second person I lost in just one hour. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to think. I go to the only place I feel safe at. The secret bunker Lincoln made for me. 

I go inside and sit on the bed. I look around the room. All the memories start to hit me like a brick. 

"Lincoln why do I need to be blindfolded?" I asked my brother . He was leading me down a ladder. 

"Because it's a surprise." He said. He made me stand in what felt like the middle of the floor before taking off my blindfold. "Surprise!" He yelled. I looked around the bunker we were in. It was decorated just the way I liked it. 

"Oh, Lincoln I love it." I said jumping into his arms. 

"Now you don't have to stay in my bunker and eat all my food." He joked. 

"Let's be serious Lincoln." I said staring at him. "I'm still going to eat all of your food." He smiled and ruffled my hair. "No not the hair." 

Hot tears run down my face blurring my vision. I stand up quickly. 

 I grabbed Lexa face and kissed her. "You have no idea how long I've wanted to do this." I said before kissing her again.

"Why haven't you?" She asked pulling away from the kiss. She sat on my bed and looked up at me. I sat down next to her and looked into her beautiful green eyes.

"I don't know, I just thought you would always view me as a sister." I said honestly. "Wait how long have you had a crush on me?" I asked with a smile.

"Since the day you escaped Azgeda. How long have you had a crush on me?" She questioned.

"Since you held a knife to my throat" I said laughing

"Which time I remember doing it more than once." She said smiling

"From the very first time." I said with a big smile on my face.  

I screamed. There are so many emotions inside of me and I don't know how to let them out so I screamed. I grabbed some things off the selves and smashed them to the ground. I need the pain to stop. I am in so much pain right now. 

"Happy birthday"  Lincoln and Lexa yelled in unison. I looked at them and smiled. I had been staying with Lincoln for a little more than five years now. I just turned sixteen. I told them I didn't want a celebration. So the three of us are siting in Lincoln's bunker drinking some old rum that we had found. 

Lexa is the commander, and Lincoln was in training to be a warrior, yet they still made the time for me on my birthday. I love them both so much. 

Lexa has been so serious lately. I'm glad to see her finally let loose and be a teenager. For the first time in awhile we finally had a real conversation. One that wasn't just Lexa complaining about how irritating Azgeda was. 

I ripped  some of the things of the shelf, still yelling. More tears are falling downing. There was a picture of Me, Luna, and Lexa, from when Lexa was 14 and me and Luna were 15. Both of their faces seem annoyed, but their eyes showed that they were happy to be there. 

"We should go get a painting done." I said out of nowhere. 

"I don't have enough time. I have to practice with Titus and the other Night bloods." Lexa replied. We were both in the night blood's room lying in her bed. 

"Can't you make time?" I asked. "For me? I want to have something to look at for when we are apart." 

"I don't think-" I cut Lexa off.  

"Please, please, please, please, please" I begged 

"Fine" She rolled her eyes. I smiled. We both got up and started heading out of the room. 

"Where are you too going?" Luna asks. 

"To get a painting of us done, you should come." I replied. Luna is another one of the night bloods. The three of us, including Lexa, are close. 

"I have to train-" Before she could finish her sentence I grabbed both of their hands and ran towards one of the painters. 

Luna is apart of Floukru, she ran away from the conclave once she found out that she had to fight Lexa. Lexa was good, but Luna was better. We all knew that. Everyone in Floukru made a promise to turn away from violence. To turn to peace. I think that's what I need. A little bit of peace. 

I took one last look at the now destroyed bunker before getting on my horse and going to get Belle.