Sweet Emotion

Chapter 43

Y/n's POV

Its been a week.

After everything that had happened, this seemed to shift.

I expected it to happen but not in the way it did.

Rafe made every attempt to pamper me and takes every opportunity to find ways to make it up to me.

But if I'm being honest it's getting annoying. He doesn't realize that things can't just go back to normal now. I still need time. And maybe it's my fault for caving so quickly, but I didn't know what else to do.

Everyone else seemed hesitant around us and word had obviously got around the island so now, it's like we were when we first started talking but worse.

Everyone saying they told me so and that they tried to warn me. Then calling me stupid for even allowing him in my house.

I had been so overwhelmed these past couple of weeks I was praying that my birthday would be something to look forward to.

Rafe said he was taking me out to dinner and that he was having his dad set up the projector so we could watch a movie out on the boat.

I expected other activities to happen that night. But I wasn't sure. We haven't had sex since everything. Since he relapsed.

He also wasn't off the drugs. He took a bump like every other hour just to get enough of a fix to get him through the next couple of hour till he took another one.

I mean of course I didn't like it. But I wanted to think positive so... it's a start I guess.

And Adrian was angry. He thinks I should dump him. Not only that but he's just as bad as everyone else when it comes to that stuff.

I just wish they'd leave me alone. They don't know Rafe like I do. Rafe when he's not on drugs is and completely different person when he is.

Maybe I'm being delusional. Maybe all it is, is highschool love that won't last. Maybe everyone was right and I just played myself.

But also maybe I'm right. Maybe this is just a rough patch. A test in our relationship.

Maybe I'm just crazy...

"Babe? You ok?" Rafe asked putting his hand on my thigh.

"Huh? Oh yea I'm ok." I told him.

"Ok. I love you." He said.

"I love you to." I said looking out the window.

Right now we were going to his house because Sarah wanted to throw me a pre-game birthday party since I'd be with the Pogues or Rafe for my actual birthday.

It was only 5pm but it was like a sleepover thing. Rose was cool enough to buy us wine coolers, even if we could get them ourselves, I could see her attempt to get Sarah on her side finally so I didn't say anything.

Ward also cleaned out the boat so we could sleep in it tonight. Sarah apparently set up a whole snack bar just for the two of us and she sent me a picture of her very first pre roll that she bought just for me.

She's to sweet.

As we pulled up I heard Rafe snort a bump once we park. I got out with out saying anything and grabbed my bag from the trunk.

"I can get it." Rafe came around.

"It's fine I got it." I told him with a fake smile which I instantly felt guilty with the happy genuine smile he gave back.

I swallowed before walking ahead of him towards the back yard.

Rose had the chef make us Cajun pasta(That shit is sooo good) which we'd be eating by the fire that I seen was already started.