𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐌𝐄➞Benny Rodriguez 2 ✓

A FRIENDSHIP AGO

"in any version of reality;"

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Benny

Ever since we got back LA, I watched Phillips and Jackie get closer than ever. They've hung out almost ever second they can. I can't help but feel useless. unworthy. I've lost someone who doesn't even know who I am.

The rest of the grade was sitting in the cafeteria. I decided to sit outside alone, knowing the boys were still running around getting food.

I looked up to see her holding a tray, looking around confused not knowing where to go.

Look for me. Please see me.

I zoned out for a solid second before coming back into reality to realise she did actually see me and she's...smiling...WALKING OVER HERE?
I started to freak out so I just put my head down. I saw under the table she was sitting in front of me. I looked up, she had a concerned look on her face.

"Hi Benjamin," she softly said to me. I realised how much of an amazing person she was, as much as i push her away, she's still nice to me and smiles. I looked up and she was giggling about something. I looked to my tray and pushed around my food with my fork. 

"Hey Jacks- Jackie.." I replied to her. She grabbed an apple slice off of her plate and started propping it up with her finger before flicking it at me. It hit my hand and i looked up to her partly smiling at me.

"I like when people look at me when i'm talking to them," She joked before laughing. She was always so sassy. Hearing her saying my full name hurt, it was cute when she called me benny, the way it rolled off her tongue.

"Do you even know who i am?" I said getting slightly annoyed but i know it's not her fault.

She made a sarcastic face, scrunching her nose up then laughing.

"I know your a friend, Jordan told me," I zoned put at the word 'Phillips'. I still can't believe she's friends with him. But...he told her that we were friends.
He knew we were more than that...and he told her we were just friends. Fucking Phillips...

But at the same time I don't blame him, I wouldn't want to put so much on her right now.

"Oh right..you and Phillips are friends?" I said looking to her. Her smile fading a bit, she looked confused.

"Yea, He's alright," she stopped before eating her food. I had to talk, I can't just let this be awkward. We just sat there staring at our food.

"Do you remember anything between us?"
I got the confidence to finally speak up after what seemed like a long time of silence. She looked up and smiled.

"We're friends I guess, as I was told. Um I know you're friends with Wendy, Phillips told me abt you and the sandlot boys, You play baseball?" I was shocked to believe Phillips would tell her about us. I'd assume he would only talk shit about us to keep her for himself.

"Let me guess, he said that we're shit of a team and there's no use in talking to us?" She frowned at my question.

"Uh no. Don't tell him I said this to you, you knowhow he doesn't like to wreck his reputation of being the cool guy but He said you guys are actually good at playing, that he'd rather play with you then his team. I'm guessing you's have had a rough past and you don't like each other?" She asked me giggling at my face.

Phillips...actually thinks we're good?! I don't believe it. He has the perfect team of assholes like him...why would he want to be with us?

"Uh yeah, we Uh don't get along with him, he always said shit about us, Mostly about me, I know he knew i could play good, he said it himself but I dont believe he would rather play with the boys," I started to fiddle with my fingers.

Memories of me and Jordan when we were little, playing baseball all the time, Hanging at each other's house. We spent all our time together. Jackie came into our lives when we were 8. The 3 of us would play all day long. Until we got to middle school.

FLASHBACK

"CAN YOU BELIEVE SHE THREW THE BALL AT ME?! SHE DID THAT ON PURPOSE! THAT BITCH!"  Jordan screamed as he held a icepack on his eye, bringing it down to reveal his black eye. He was crying.

"Look Phillips it's over, I don't think she meant to do it, You should've moved or swung the bat, man," I tried reasoning with him.

He calmed down a bit and sunk in his chair.

"I know, I'm just mad I couldn't swing in time," He confessed.

"you might want to apologise to her at school tomorrow, "  I said to calm him more. I looked at the time and it was almost 7.

"You gonna head back?" he looked at the clock and nodded. he gave me the icepack to put back and walked home.

At school, I walked in as usual, going to my locker to put my books away.

I looked over to Jackie and she stuffed all her books in before slamming her locker shut and stomping down the hall. I ran up to her, stopping her where she was.

"Jackie, You okay?" I asked looking at her upset look. She grabbed my hand dragged me to the cafeteria, then pointing at the baseball team.

I was confused until I looked closely. There he was. Jordan sitting with the baseball team. He even had the uniform getup on. He looked over to us and rolled his eyes. I was so confused.

"Jordan, what are you doing man?"  He just rolled eyes again and started laughing.

"Benny. Benny. Benny. Man you like the uniform?" He spun around. I was confused.

"Sure whatever, what are you doing in it?" He laughed again. The team getting up and standing behind him.

"You see benny...when you're actually good at baseball, You join the team, Reason why we got Phillips here. You know, we could use a player like you on the team? That girl tho...Aren't you supposed to be at home making me food?" Dylan laughed at Jackie, causing the rest of them to laugh at his sexist joke. I clenched my fists, i looked to Phillips to see if he was gonna say anything. Only he pretended to laugh before putting his head down.

"FUCK YOURSELVES!" I screamed at them before punching them. This is the fight that would end mine and Jordan's friendship. He took their side and he never came back.

FLASHBACK END

I could never believe Phillips would take back everything he did to us. I don't want to believe that he is all of a sudden nicer now. But recently he's been weird. I never see him with the team anymore. He's always by himself or with Jackie. Maybe he's going through something.

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