Playboy Mouth (Queen Bee/RaStro)

Hashtag Sucker for Pain

CHAPTER ELEVEN

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#KaiRiBreakUpDrama

Isa lang 'yan sa mga trending topics ngayon sa Red. Wala na kami ni Yuri. I finally had the strength to let go. It's not that I have someone to catch me, but I did this for myself. Ako naman ang nasa relasyon na 'yun at hindi sila.

Frankie is pissed. Mason, on the other hand, gave me some advice. Carly was also there to be my crying shoulders. Taylor wanted me home. Jackie became my drinking buddy. Ricci opens up the door for me when I get home, wasted. But above all these, I still get high grades. Fantastic, right?

#KaiCheatedOnYuri

First of all, I did not cheat on her. I repeat, I did not. Yes, I get attracted to other people, but at the end of the day, I know who my heart belongs to. I love Yuri. I still love her. But the pain, the pain she's giving me, the guilt she makes me feel, the punches, slaps, and painful words she throws at me, are the things that are killing the love. The fire is almost out. She's losing me. She lost me.

#KaiSlutSoleil

I've been called a lot of names. My pictures have been edited and spread inside the Crimson Walls. Teachers look at me like I'm a shameful little girl. Angry students look at me like I'm fresh meat that they haven't eaten in decades. Strangers whistles at me like I'm a dog. Boys stare at me like I'm already naked. Guys touch my bum on purpose and act as nothing happened. The Jocks who adore Yuri looks like they wanted to take me down and kill me. People throw flour bombs at me inside the campus. I get pushed around against the wall as they steal a kiss from me. Can my college life be any better?

#YuriKah

How nice naman na may kombinasyon na pala ang pangalan nila. The girl I was talking about in the club with Yuri is Rebekah Gonzales. Matagal na raw niyang gusto si Yuri, kaso hindi raw siya napapansin nito.

Accurate ang mga tsismis na aking nakakalap dahil kay Jackie at sa mga usiserang IT students galing ang mga ito. Kaya rin siguro pumayag si Yuri na makipaghiwalay sa akin dahil sa babaeng natukoy. Minsan kasi, kaya lang naman matapang makipaghiwalay ang isang tao dahil alam niyang may susunod, alam niyag may sasalo sa kanya. Kayang-kaya na raw niya dahil alam niyang hindi siya mag-iisa dahil may reserba ang letse.

#WhereIsTheIceQueen

That's the most trending topic at Red. It never fails to be at the top. Bigla na lang nawala si Ice nang may mangyari sa amin. Wait, scratch that. Okay, don't, leave it there.

Yes, people, I'm a slut. Maybe they were right.

I fucking did the nasty with my ex-girlfriend's twin. So, technically, the hashtag Kai cheated on Yuri was true. Sort of. Break na kasi kami noong mga panahon iyon, pero 'yun ang ipinagpipilitan nila, eh, di sige, sila na 'tong naglaro ng hubad-hubaran kasama si Ice. They can hate me all they want but I didn't want this to happen.

Our breakup created chaos and ruined my life. I'm regretting the decision I made for leaving that small town, where I flee to escape my family and came back to the city where I'm from. Even I am asking where did Ice go. Why did she leave? Why did she leave me?

Come back to me, darling. I miss you.

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