The One I Needed

Regrets (Summerz)

Requested by ckmzone
Genre: Angst
This is inspired by the song Never Let You Go by Keenan Te go listen to it cause its <3 sorry this took a while too hehe but finally finished it since i was in the mood for angst today :)
Didn't proofread this btw too lazy to do it but hope you enjoy it

3rd Person

Kazuha was on the rooftop of her apartment building staring at the empty sky above, she sighed to herself as she once again felt empty. It was another night where she couldn't see the stars but at this point, she was already so used to it, used to not seeing the stars that brought her comfort, used to the feeling of emptiness swirling inside her, used to the feeling of nothing. It was absolutely freezing in Seoul yet she was out here wearing nothing but a thin shirt and pants, she didn't seem to mind it though she honestly couldn't even feel the freezing weather, even when she already noticed the fog that was forming every time she breathed out. She didn't feel cold, the only thing she felt at the moment was the emptiness she felt without the person who usually accompanied her, the sadness, the pain that never left her heart.

It's been weeks now since that happened yet nothing had changed, the wound in her heart was still fresh and still hurt like hell and she wanted nothing but for it to go away. She didn't want this, it was like being constantly tortured without a break but no matter how much she wanted it to stop it was like the world had other plans for her. Every day felt the same and it was so goddamn hard, everything she did felt wrong and no matter how much she tried to forget about it, Kazuha just couldn't seem to do it. The guilt was eating her up every day and it only seemed to get much, much worse as more time passed.

"I'm so stupid for doing those things" she mumbled under her breath as she once again remembered the events that happened that day. She couldn't help but cry again just from that as much as she wanted to stop the tears that were just freely flowing down, she couldn't. The memory was too painful for her not to cry about, how could she not cry after the things she did that day? How could she not cry after remembering how much she hurt the girl without even realizing it? How could she not cry after hurting the love of her life...

Flashback

"Kazuha we need to talk" someone calls out as they entered the said girl's apartment, the person roamed their eyes around, as usual, the apartment was spotless Kazuha did always make sure to keep her apartment clean and tidy. That's something they always liked about the girl, despite being so busy with work and other things she would always manage to keep her place clean.

The Japanese who was sitting on the couch watching TV immediately jumped up with sparkling eyes upon hearing her favorite person's voice, turning off the TV in the process "What is it Chae?" she asks innocently, not expecting to turn around to find the older girl with her arms crossed. She had a glare on her face and no it wasn't the cute tiger cub-like glare that the younger absolutely adored, this was different and it frightened her.

"What the hell?!" Chaewon yells at her, catching her off guard Chaewon doesn't yell at her, she never does so why was Chaewon yelling at her? Had she done something wrong?

"Chae did I do something again? Whatever it is I'm so-"

"SORRY ISN'T GONNA CUT IT NAKAMURA KAZUHA!" Chaewon cuts her off and this makes the girl bite her lip in nervousness, what exactly did she do to make her this mad?

"I can't believe you of all people! I can't believe you could be so immature just what the fuck Kazuha?!"

"Ok...before we go into the cursing...what did I do? I don't understand what you're trying to say Chae" Kazuha hesitantly said, she knows Chaewon is mad, furious even but the Japanese wasn't gonna be able to understand why she was mad in the first place if she doesn't even have a clue about what the Korean girl is talking about.