The Dream State

Comfort in an old Friend

You look around and see Loki, naked on the bed passed out with a woman underneath him.

Loki begins stirring, doesn't see you and proceeds to tell the girl laying under him....

Loki: Hmmm, you have go to go before my pet arrives. She cannot see you here.

Girl: Your pet is standing right there.

As you stand there, taking in all that has happened Loki jumps up from the bed and walks towards you.

Loki: I'm sorry my pet this is not as it seems.

You: Are you fucking kidding me? Do you think I'm stupid? Oh, that's it huh? You think I'm stupid and don't know what the hell is going on?

Loki: Please, let me put something on and we will talk. I'm sorry it was unexpected. I didn't mean for it to go this far....

Girl: Hey if it makes you feel better, he was screaming your name the whole time he was with me. Ha

You: Bitch, you better get the fuck out of my site before I tear you into such tiny pieces that even the vultures won't find them!

You turn your hands facing up and the green fury flames arise from your hands. The girl freaks out and runs off.

Loki: My pet please calm down. I was a bit drunk, I asked her to help me up, I couldn't even walk straight and next thing I knew....

You: Ugh spare me the details alright. You knew exactly what you were doing! Why else would you have told her to leave before I saw her!! You are unbelievable! First, we have a fight, and then I don't hear from you for a month, & you turn up out of the blue like nothing happened and expect me to cook for your homecoming party and talk to me like there was never anything wrong and now this!!! What the hell is wrong with you. I thought you were ready to apologize and explain to me what happened. But now I see that your over me. Did you even love me at all? Or did you just want to fuck me and keep me as your toy until you saw fit to use me up and throw me away like a piece of trash!? How could you?

Loki: I'm sorry my darling, it'll never happen again. I swear it upon my own father's grave.

You: Swear all you want Loki, it'll never make up for the greatest mistake you just made! I could've forgave you for wallowing in self-pity and barely having the courage to not talk to me for a month, but this.....I will never forgive you.

You walk out the door, angry and in tears. You begin to walk down the corridor and you see Bucky getting a drink of water outside of his room. You head straight for him.

You: James!

Bucky: Hey, you ok? Why are you crying?

You reach out and grab him and plant a huge kiss on him. He reaches around and picks you up and takes you into his arms. You feel an instant sense of security as he holds you. He kisses you so deeply and passionately.

You: Take me inside James. Make me yours?

Bucky: I don't know....are you sure about this....

You: Shhhh, No more words.

Bucky leads you inside and shuts the door behind you.

Bucky grabs your face and wipes away your tears. He looks deep into your eyes and kisses you ever so gently on your forehead. He pulls you in closer and tighter. He wraps his bulging arms around you on and you melt into his arms.

Bucky: My God, I've waited for this day for so long. Just to hold you like this, and to tell you that I love you.

You look up at him, tears still in your eyes. Shaking and crying, Bucky suddenly stops.

Bucky: It's him, isn't it? This isn't what you want. I'm not who you want. He slowly releases his grip around you and takes two steps back. Breathing heavily, you start to cry.

You: Oh James, how could he do this to me. He promised he wouldn't hurt me. You're were right, I never should've never gotten involved with him. I should've seen it. I'm so sorry James. It should've been you and me, I.....

Bucky: Shhhh shhhh shhh, come here.

Bucky holds you so tight.

Bucky: Its alright, (his voice begins to break) I'm here. What are friends for.

A single tear falls down his face.

As Bucky is holding you, you feel him quietly sobbing. Holding you tighter and tighter. You can feel his tears soaking your hair.

You: James, (wiping his tears away) What's going on? I'm sorry that I brought this to you. I'm so sorry for.....

Bucky: Hey, (grabbing your chin & looks into your eyes.) Don't be sorry.

Bucky begins to breath heavily. He can't help but stare into your eyes and he reviews your face with his fingers running alongside your cheek, up into your hair and down to your shoulder and finally to your hands.

Bucky: I know it's not the time to talk about this or ask you anything, but do you think, I mean maybe we could try this....us?

Your body starts to tighten up, you become breathless, and he slowly bends forward and leans in. He rubs his cheek across your face. Leaving a path of small, light kisses. He pulls your chin up to look into your eyes.

Bucky: (Whispers) How can I show you, how much I love you. How much I want you?

You look up towards him and meet him eye to eye.

You: Show me, just like you did at the night of the party. I need you.

Taken aback, Bucky looks at you. No tears, he can see that your serious. Looking into each other's eyes so lovingly, he grabs your chin with his finger and thumb, & says:

Bucky: I love you

You pull him towards you and kiss him. He lays you down on the white, shaggy rug, in front of a roaring fireplace. There he slowly undresses you and kisses every part of your body he exposes. Long, deep, wet kisses. He presses his body against yours and kisses your pouty lips. An embrace, as he slowly enters you. He caresses every part of your quivering body, as he holds your face and looking into your eyes. He slowly raises your arms up and runs his hands down then to your breast. Just then you have a flash back of when Loki did the same thing in the shower.

You: Stop

Bucky: What?

You: Stop, please Stop.

Bucky: What's wrong?

You open your eyes and realize where you are and who you are with.

You: James...I'm sorry.

Bucky: Baby, tell me what's wrong. You're shaking.

You pull Bucky back to your chest.

You: Look at me James. Really look at me, tell me why do you want me? Why would you love a total screw up like me?

Bucky smiles and places his body in between your legs and caresses your face.

Bucky: You're not a screw up. I want you because I love you, & I love you because you are my perfect match. Because you are you. You are my everything.

With that you run your fingers through his hair.

You: Yes

Bucky: Yes what?

You: We can try......us.

Bucky: I'm going to make you so happy. I love you.

You: I love you too.

Bucky lowers his face to yours and you kiss him ever so gently & for the first time, you make love to him.