A Broken Blank

Chapter Five: Band Practice

Chapter Five: Band Practice

{Lukes p.o.v}

*two days later*

My alarm rings at 5pm. I had got home at three and did lots of work. I felt extremely sleepy thus resulting in me taking a nap. I throw off my warm covers letting out a groggy groan expressing my feeling of not wanting to get up. I grab a pair of black skinny jeans and my black and red flannel. Walking down the empty hall and turning into the unoccupied bathroom. I slip of my current clothes and turn on the hot water. Stepping into the warm shower made up for leaving the warm covers. I do my usual shower scrub down and hop out turning off the water. A chilly gust of wind greets my naked body causing me to shiver and quickly dry off. I put on my fresh clothes and blow-dry my hair to its quiffiest perfection. I grab my mint green and white toothbrush and brush my teeth. I spit into the sink and turn on the faucet and watch it wash away. I grab a piece of toilet paper to wipe the water that splattered the sink. When I go to throw away the seeping paper I notice bloody bandages in the trashcan. I pray one of the girls tripped and fell and caused these bloody bandages but the back of my brain knows better.

Finally dressed I grab my guitar, jacket, and a house key. I figured I should bring my acoustic because we were probably just writing lyrics and simple strumming. Nothing loud. Locking the door leaves me in the windy and surprisingly chilly Australian air. I start the car and begin the short five-minute or so drive to Ashton's house. 

When I arrive I knock three times before Calum answers the door and lets me in. As I step inside I feel the warm comforting pizza smelling air Aston's house contains. I follow Cal to the basement where I see a happy Ashton and a not so happy Michael. The frown on Michael's face is probably caused by the fact we are practicing on a Wednesday and not on the Thursday as he wished.

I set my guitar down and begin eating a piece of cheese pizza offered to me by Ashton. Michael tell us of some places we can book gigs and get a chance to play for an actual audience that doesn't just consist of our friends. Calum begins discussing his new song ideas and thus the lyric writing begins.

At the end of practice we wrote and composed one new song and practiced a few of our others. Then we discussed the party at Ashton's parents cabin. Everyone was really excited for the party (even Michael) because it would be our chance to establish a name at our new school. We all had high set hopes for finally fitting in. I say goodbye and hop in the car.

When I get home Bella is making a cup of tea while Ren is sitting on the couch eating popcorn. They were both watching Parks and Rec another one of our favorite shows. I join Renny on the couch and we are both then joined with Bella. We all cuddle up on the couch and continue watching. When the episode finishes I turn off the T.V.

"Hey what was that for" Ren and Bella both say scarily in sync.

"I wanted to know how your days were" I tell them watching the glares wipe off their faces.

"Okay so how about you go first" Bella says telling me to say my high low {a usually dinner game where we say the best part; the high of our day, and the worst part; the low}.

"Well my high was band practice and the fact that we finished writing and composing a song" I say

"Really! Good for you. I can't wait to hear it." Ren says enthusiastic as always.

"And my low is I have a shit ton of homework, what about you Ren, High low?" I say turning the floor to Ren.

"My high was ummmmm....chilling with Bella and my low is that I was teased some more today. But it's getting easier to come up with comebacks so you could say my retalliation game is on fleek." She says smiling even though I know her feelings are hurt.

"Okay Bella, what about you" I say turning and looking at her. There is a moment of silence before she speaks.

"I guess my high is watching Parks and Rec with Ren" she says very slowly "and my low is...Alexa is dead." With that she scurries to her room.

This had been her low for almost a year. There were a few good days when it wasn't that and towards the start of school it was rarely that but I could tell Bella was missing her again. And with missing her came Bella's self-blaming logic. I couldn't ever seem to stop her from seeing a situation as no ones fault but hers. I looked over and saw Ren crying. I rush to her embracing her in a tight protective hug.

"Hey it's okay, Alexa wouldn't wanna see those tears now would she?" I say trying to comfort her. Alexa had been Bella and Renny's best friend. I never knew her that well.

"I'm not upset because of Alexa" She says through tears and unsteady breathes "it's that I don't want to see Bella sad agian. She hasn't mentioned Alexa in two weeks. I don't want to see her hurting"

I feel my own eyes become watery. Ren had a point Bella was doing really well and it would hurt all of us to see her hurt again. I snap back into comforting Renny.

"Shhh. It's gonna be okay. Were gonna keep Bella safer this time. Okay? I'm sure she's just having a tough week."

"Okay, Promise?" she says

"Ren I don't like to make promises I can't garentee but for your sake" I say pausing "I promise."

With that she releases me and walks to her room still breathing unsteadly and letting out aftermath of sobbing hiccups.

After cleaning up the kitchen a bit I knock on Bella's door. I knew she was awake.

"Bells, I know you're awake" I pause "Okay I'm coming in on the count of three" at the end of my words I hear a "no wait" from the previously silent door.

"Okay I won't come in, but I will be in my room waiting." I say not intruding. Bella had always been weird about people in her room. She hated it. I guess it was her space. But whenever there was a situation I would always invite her to mine.

About ten minutes later a figure approaches my door way. "Come in" I say. As Bella pushes the doors open and enters my room. As if a set in stone routine she walks over to my bed. I lift the covers and allow her to immerse herself under the warm overs. She curls up against me resting her head on my chest and her hand on my left rib cage and I wrap my arm around her. She makes long inhale and exhales trying to control her breath. Although every now and then you would hear her fail to do so and she would swiftly breath in. I feel her heart beating what felt like a 1,000 miles per hour. I knew she was having a mild panic attack. I pull her closer to me and she doesn't resist. I feel spots on my shirt become wet with tears. She pulls away and sits up.

"I'm sorry you shouldn't have to see me like this" she says pushing the covers off and beginning to leave the bed.

"No it's okay I'm here for you when you need me, and it looks like you need me." I say grabbing her wrist pulling her back to the bed.

"Are you sure? Because its completely okay if you want me to leave." she says

"Yes. I am sure Bella" and with that we curl back up this time breathing smoothly. Having short whisper conversations to fill the silence. We continue this until the early a.m's in which we both pass out a little more light heartedly then earlier. Thank goodness.

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so yep chapter five. Im really excited to post I have so many more ideas for this story and it only gets better from here. thanks for reading :).