A lost star

A Talk

Y/n's Pov:
I quickly rushed to my room closing the door, I pulled off my sweater noticing my sleeve soaked through making me annoyed tossing another blood stained shirt onto my bed. I sat on my bed and unwrapped my bandage, grate because how deep it was it caused blood to soak my bandage. I tossed the bandages in the trash and stood up, might as well go clean this up in the bathroom sense dinner isn't for a while still.

Snapes Pov:

I begin to walk to L/n's room to collect them for dinner, I hope they are doing better...I thought as I knocked on their door. No one answered which made me nervous so I knocked again "L/n!? It's me.." I said but still no reply I decided to walk in to see if L/n was alright, hopefully they are more dressed this time..I thought as I slowly opened the door. "Y/n l/n!?" I said again to no reply, strange, I thought as I walked in. I looked down noticing their sweater on the floor, so they are here, I thought picking it up and walking over to her bed placing it down. My heart skipped a beat when I noticed multiple bloodstained button ups on her bed. Fuck, I picked them up noticing they where stained in the same spot..on her wrist area. I heard a door creak making my head snap up, it was L/n walking out of their bathroom only in a bra for her top once again making me clutch her shirts tight in my hand. She stopped and looked at me, she looked shocked and rushed over to me making me stumble at her sudden burst at me while..anyways, "What are you doing!?" She said shocked as she grabbed her shirts holding them, that's when I noticed her arm was bandaged making me now know for sure they where hurting themselves. "Why was there blood on your shirt and what the hell happened to your arm Y/n!!??" I snapped at her, she stopped and looked at me for a bit, I could feel myself grow redder at her sight, then I realized, shit I just called her by her first name, "s-sorry..I mean L/n.." I said as I clear my throat and look away to calm down, "it's ok..you can call me Y/n..." she said making me look back at her, I had that strange feeling again and I didn't like it, I noticed she had a small smile and I couldn't help but feel one take over me, "You can call me Severus then..when we're alone of course." I said as she gave me a honest smile making me feel..warm. I shook my head remembering what I just saw. I rubbed my mouth examining her..body, but I noticed at least her arm was the only part of her body that had a wound. I cleared my throat trying to change the subject back to the serious conversation we were just having, "anyways..what happened to your arm Y/n?" I asked nervously, she looked down grabbing it as she pulled her arms closer against her frail body, "um..I just needed a distraction from something.." she said not making eye contact with me, I sighed, I looked on the ground and noticed a shirt laying there, her room was quite messy...either way it worked so I picked up the shirt handing it to her, "put this on" I said, she glanced at me with her soft eyes and grabbed the shirt. I didn't even realize I was watching her put on the shirt but damn..her body was beautiful but definitely more on the malnourished side... I rubbed my face to focus back on the seriousness in front of me, once she got the shirt on I sat on her bed patting the spot near me, "sit, we can talk here" I said trying to offer her more comfort, she nodded and carefully sat down clearly scared about opening up as she sat very closed off. I cleared my throat, "you can trust me Y/n..I'm hear to listen anytime you need." I said giving her a small reassuring smile, she smiled back which was small but real, she looked down at her lap as she was clutching the shirts close to her lap, "well..last year I didn't have the best..experience with a certain student..and I didn't know we had a class together and I couldn't focus as I was worry all about him..and..yah" she said glancing back at me, I thought for a moment a bit worried, what student bothered her!? I'd do anything for her even if that means hurting a student! Then I thought, I looked back at Y/n, "is..he in my class?" I asked she looked at me with clearly a look of fear in her eyes then back down at her lap trying to calm herself down, fuck he is. I took a deep breath in and placed my hand on top of her hand giving it a small squeeze. "It's ok, I can help if you tell me who h-" and before I could finish she cut me off, "No! I mean.." she said looking away in embarrassment for a bit then glanced at me, "it never helps when someone gets involved.." she said looking at me small, god I wish I could do more to help her, I leaned closer to her "Y/n, I won't talk to the student, if you tell me his name we could possibly get him out of the school and away from you." I said calmly trying not to upset her, she just looked at me with tears building up, "even if he left what good what that do!? He'd still be here ever single day for the rest of my life!" She said standing up and turning away from me, what did she just say? I rubbed my face trying to understand this better, what had he done to her that even if he wasn't physically here he'd still bother her... he must have hurt her badly. I stood up and walked over to Y/n, I carefully and slowly placed a hand on her shoulder I didn't know what to say to her at this point, I was doing more harm then good.. "it's going to be ok Y/n, I'm always going to be here for you even if you need a ear to talk off." I said calmly to her, she turned to face me and I noticed her face was already soaked with tears, I didn't mean to make her cry... she then hugged me digging her face into my chest making me gasp at the suddenly embrace. I could feel my face grow a bit red again, I carefully wrapped my arms around her tiny body holding her as she tried holding onto me tight. I placed my hand on the back of her head, then I remembered she was one of my students and I need to calm down, I took a deep breath in, "we should probably head to dinner now" I said wishing we could stay like this forever, she pulled away rubbing her face, "ok Severus" she said giving me a small smile, I felt myself grow warm at her speaking my name, why was it even if she just spoke my name I felt weak around her? I shook it off and walked over to the door letting her put on the rest of her clothes. I opened the door and she followed close, very close, next to me as we walked to the dinning hall again. I liked begging able to know where she was and I was the one being able to keep a eye on her. As we approached the entrance I stopped and she looked at me confused, she looked so cute...stop focus! I thought, I cleared my throat, "if you need anything Y/n..don't hesitate to come find me." I said as she gave me a smile, a real one which made me smile. I watched as she walked in and walk over to the Hufflepuff table, she was clearly much smaller then everyone at the table..and much more beautiful..fuck why do I keep thinking that!? I shook my head to focus and I walked straight over to my seat not looking at Y/n, I couldn't help but glance at her a couple times to make sure she was eating but either she'd be eating, very small bites, zoning out, or looking at me which when we made eye contact I couldn't help but grow warm at her smile, it was soft but genuine. I quickly focused on my meal not trying to focus too much on Y/n more then I should. I couldn't help but think about what if they kept this up? What if she doesn't except my help? Would I even be enough to help them? I couldn't help but think as I watched the small Hufflepuff sitting at the table in the same room as me.