A lost star

Drunken fight

Snapes Pov:
I was worried about Y/n & constantly worrying what she was doing & if she was ok or not. But the more days that passed worried me when she still didn't talk to me. I was even more concerned when she came stumbling into my class today, she seemed more upset then usual, I noticed immediately she couldn't concentrate & for the whole time was staring at her book. She even kept staring at the same spot after I dismissed everyone, it's almost like she couldn't hear anyone? I tried to get her attention but the more I kept saying her name the more irritated I got with her. She ended up running out of my classroom after our chat, I felt awful, I shouldn't have pushed her but I was just concerned for her. I sighed at my poor attempt & went back to grading, later the nurse came by, I've asked her to inform me anything that comes up with Y/n. "What happened?" I asked feeling a little nervous that my comment possibly upset her but the nurse reassured me it was nothing bad, Y/n had just came by to get a refill of pain meds. "Also.." I raised my eyebrow at her knowing there was more she had to say. "She looked really rough today, it seemed from how she was acting she was possibly hungover. Also she shouldn't have finished all the pain medication we've given her so quickly..." she said nervously, I stood up from my chair now more worried. "What do you mean? Do you think she's abusing the medication?" I asked, she didn't say anything but nod. "And mixing medication with alcohol can have negative side effects." She said, she was right & knowing Y/n she didn't care. I thanked the lady & she nodded walking away leaving me alone with my thoughts. What the hell was I going to do with Y/n? She clearly was a danger to herself & she needs help, she needs to talk to someone. Fuck.

Y/n's Pov:
I walked back to my room to get ready for tonight's party, its common for me to go to get waisted but Lucy was going to I actually wanted to try & have fun with a friend. I put on my black skirt with a lose sleeveless shirt & wore a small jacket, I tired my hair back & sprayed my light perfume on & I was ready. I walked over to the party feeling a bit better, maybe I won't get as drunk & actually have fun? I thought but knowing me probably not. I walked in grabbing a drink first as I tried looking for Lucy. She eventually finds me & we start chatting, we eventually started laughing which felt nice, god when was the last time I genuinely laughed? I eventually was on my 3rd drink so I was a little drunk but for me it was still the beginning. "Do you normally drink this much?" Lucy asks, I gulped my drink setting it down to get another. "Yah why?" I ask, she just raises a eyebrow at me & then noticed me pouring another drink. "Why don't you get some water? Drinking that much isn't a good idea Y/n." As I start drinking my 4th cup I couldn't help but think how she was right but I also didn't want my brain to think more then I knew she was right. "It just helps me not overthink." I said sipping on my drink again. She looked at me concerning. "Alcohol shouldn't be a way to help you Y/n.." she said, I looked into my cup watching the liquids swirl around from my movements. "I'll be right back..." I said as I down it. I needed to not think, I know Lucy's concerned but I just want my pain to stop & the alcohol is the only thing that makes me feel good. Right as I thought that the feeling of calmness hit me making me smile. Not many things make me feel happy anymore, not after all the painful things I've been through, only alcohol...and him...what? No my brain needs to stop. I look around & found a couple bottles on another table, I poured another cup & chugged it & poured another. I begin walking around, well trying, I was stumbling at this point again.  I need to find Lucy, I left her alone & she's all I haveee. As I was sipping on my drink I ran into someone causing me to fall on my ass & spill the rest of my drink on myself, grate. I looked up to see a boy scoffing at me. "Ugh it's that Hufflepuff slut who got one of our own expelled." The person said making me suddenly very sober at the sudden memories. Then someone comes running up to me as soon as more Slytherin boys come over, I'm sure to try & bother me for what they think I did. I look at the person who was helping me up & it was Lucy, thank god. "Lucyyy" I say hugging her, she just looked at me horrified. "Common Y/n...I know who can help you." She says, i nods smiling. "Ok Lucyyy~" I say as she helps me away from those Slytherin boys, I couldn't tell where we were going but I felt giggly as we walked. She knocks on the door in front of us. "Please help her..." Lucy says, I was confused at what she was saying but when I noticed a big warm hand wrap around my waist I instantly felt warm. I couldn't help but snuggle into the warm embrace making the alcohol feeling stronger. The person walked me further into the room, I don't know where I was going but for some reason whoever I was with I didn't care what happen, I felt happy. The darkness took me over quickly after that. I woke up to a bright light causing me to moan in annoyance, I sat up rubbing my eyes into my palms. I looked down realizing I was wearing someone else's oversized shirt that hung low on me thankfully because I wasn't wearing pants, oh fuck wait what happened at the party!? I quickly looked around in a panic but slowly calmed down realizing where I was, wait fuck...I was in Sevs room...shit. And speaking of the devil he walks in with a cup of tea, I looked down at my legs trying to avoid eye contact. "Here drink this." He says. "What is it?" I asked still not looking at him. "You should already know Y/n?" He said making me more frustrated so I just grabbed the cup from him & drank it. "So you going to tell me what you where doing last night?" He asked raising a eyebrow at me. "No." I said annoyed, I heard him sigh. "Y/n, are you mad at me for taking you to the nurse when you clearly needed medical attention?" He just asked blatantly causing me to stop drinking the tea, then I remembered why I was so angry, it wasn't at Severus.. I was angry at myself, all I could do was shake my head. "Then what's wrong darling?" Fuck, with how sweet he is it makes it harder not to tell the truth, he's the only person I feel like I can't lie to, I'm not sure why. I set the cup down in the stand. "Can you turn around please?" I asked, he looks at me confused but does so, I turn around too leaning my back against him, I don't know why but I feel like if I don't see his face I can admit my feelings. "We'll..when I woke up I didn't know who I was going to wake up to & I started panicking when I noticed you weren't there..." I said, I felt Severus snake a hand over to squeeze mine making me smile softly. "I at first wanted to see you, so badly, but then I thought about all the pain I probably caused you & that hurt me more then not seeing you." I finally admit to partially how I was feeling feeling a small tear fall from my face. "But why I was so mad...I was mad at myself. I didn't want you to pity me or think little of me so I avoided you so I wouldn't have to think about that being a possibility.." I finally admit, I pulled my knees up to my face still holding Sevs hand on my face. He turns around wrapping his whole body around mine pulling me into a deep embrace making me feel warm again. "I would never be upset with you if I needed to take care of you, I'd prefer to take care of you anyways so I know you're ok & safe." He said making me tear up. " & I would NEVER pity or think less of you, I care for you so much Y/n...you're the braves person I know." He said as he kissed the top of my head making more tears fall from my face, I turned around shoving my face into Sevs chest as I started sobbing. "