A lost star

Eyes Everywhere

Y/n's Pov:

I heard a muffled knock causing me to wake up, I heard it again making me get out of bed and walk over to my door. I opened it looking up to see Severus, his face was red as he looks around then walks in closing the door. I froze worried what he was going to say, I look up to see him smirking, I tilted my head. "So..can't sleep without my clothes?" He said making me remember what I was wearing, I held my arms turning away feeling my face beat up. "N-no! I..just grabbed the first thing closest to me.." I said, I could feel his smirk grow bigger. "Which so happened to be my shirt you took from my room?" He said stepping closer, I slowly looked up blushing realizing how close our faces are. He kissed my forehead and walked over to my bed sitting down. "You should go get dressed." He said, I nodded walking into the bathroom to change, I left a small crack in the door to be open to be able to see Severus while I changed. I swear a couple times I saw him look at me through the door and looked away immediately, I could tell he was thinking about something but I didn't know what but thankfully he wasn't looking through my stuff, I wasn't sure if he would or not because of what happened. I started buttoning up my top and walked back out to my closet by my bed to grab my sweater. I felt Severus graze his hand over my collarbone making me blush, I looked up at him confused, he looked at my shoulder then at me. "It's healing nicely." He said, I gulped remembering my injuries, "yah.." I said looking down, he kneeled down next to me placing his hand on my back. "can I check your arm?" He said, I nervously looked down then back at him nodding. I move my arm over to him as he carefully rolled up my sleeve, he did it so gently it didn't even hurt. I looked up at him and he was trying to fully focus on my arm making me feel warm again. He then carefully unraveled my bandages and removing the gauze wrapped on my arm to get to my cuts. "Does it hurt?" He asked, I shook my head, "no, you're really good at this.." I said, as he nods. "I just don't want to accidentally hurt you." He said, I looked at him confused. "You could never hurt me Severus." I said trying to give him a smile, he looks at me smiling then back down at my arm. He carefully runs a finger down my arm near my cuts but not over them. "Looks like there healing nicely to." He said as I turn away nodding,  he wraps up my arm again rolling my sleeve back down. He placed a hand on my face making me look at him, I could feel my anxiety begin to build up. "Y/n..you'll be ok." He said, I tried looking down but he wouldn't let me. "Tell me what your thinking Y/n." He said, I bit my bottom lip trying to keep myself calm but he moved his thump over to my lip loosening my grip onto my lip. "You can trust me Y/n." He said, I closed my eyes taking a deep breath, I moved my hands to his grabbing them and moving them from my face, I looked down closing my eyes as I take a deep breath. "I-.." I froze worried what he'd say, he gripped onto my hands comforting me making me feel better. "I don't want you to think I'm ugly." I said as quietly as I could, he quickly pulled me into a tight hug. "You are not ugly Y/n, and there's not anything you can do that'll make me think that." He said, I could feel tears begin to fall from my eyes, I hugged Severus back. "T-thank you Severus." I said, he pulled us apart and kissed me, he stood up reaching a hand out. "Why don't we go get something to eat." He said, I smiled and nodded grabbing his hand as he helps me up. As I stand up he pulls me close to him kissing me again, he always knew how to make me feel warm. I kissed him back as he holds me lovingly, we pulled apart to breath after kissing for a long time. We both smiled, he grabbed my hand as he leads me out of my room, like always I walked closely next to him so we could hold hands when passing others. We stopped at the door and he turned to me. "Come to me if you need anything." He said, I nodded and tried to give him a small smile. I sadly let go of his hand and walked in and sat down quietly trying not to draw to much attention to myself. I grabbed some fruit, I looked up seeing Severus walked in which caught my attention, seeing him walk past everyone, the way he made people tensed when they walked by. I looked down smiling to myself, how could someone like him like someone like me, I felt so lucky that he even wants to be near me. The whole breakfast time I saw Severus glance at me every now and then, I'm sure to see if I was eating or not. After breakfast I left to my classes and went on with the day of being bullied in each classes, I wanted to just walk out and go to Severus room and plop onto Severus bed. I was so tired and sore by my last class, potions, I sat in the back like I always do trying not to let my body give up. The bell finally rang and I quickly got up and left, I got in my room tossing my stuff to the ground and throwing my top off to let my bandages breath. Soon darkness took over letting me rest. I woke up to some dark figure next to me, I jumped up ready to scream but fell off my bed. I yelped, and it was Severus who was in my room, Severus rushed over to me and placed me back on my bed, I couldn't help but blush realizing I only had my bra on as a top and quickly grabbed a blanket to cover me. "I-I'm..sorry" I said quietly, he placed his hand on my face. "No no, it's my fault, I didn't mean to scare you darling." I leaned into his hand feeling better now that he was touching me. He moved me to look at him, he kissed me softly and lovingly which made me feel warm. We pulled apart and looked at each other in the eyes for a while tell Severus spoke. "We should get going to dinner." I looked away "I'm not that hungry..I just want to go back to sleep." I said sitting back against my bed, he raised a eyebrow at me. "You need to eat, remember Y/n?" I looked at him then looked at my lap. "I'm just really tired Severus, getting through class was hard enough." I said fiddling with my fingers, he put his hand on top of mine. "Food is just as important as sleeping when healing Y/n." I looked at my arm, he was right but doesn't mean I still want to eat. I couldn't help but remember everyone calling me fat, I turned to be sitting away from Severus. "I just can't.." I said quietly, he moved near me placing a hand on my back. "I know it's hard Y/n...but you have to try, even if it's small." He said, I looked at him then back at my hands. "I don't know if I can." I said, Sev starts rubbing my back. "I know..is there anyway I can help?" He said, I looked over at him scanning his face, he looked genuine and concerned. I leaned against him wishing he could just scare off those students who'd comment on what I was eating. "Just hold me please.." I said he pulled me into his chest, I inhaled his scent making me calm down thinking about everything washing away. I looked up at Severus. "Ok I'm ready to go." I said, he kissed me then stood up offering his hand, I grabbed his hand standing in front of him, he moved his hand down to my waist pulling me closer to him and kissing me again. We pulled apart to catch our breath. "Ok, now let's go" he said smirking which made me blush. We walked to the dining room like always and I walked in and sat down. I looked around at everyone who was near me, I looked around at the food to try and find something that was less fattening. I landed on some soup and slowly sipped on that for a while tell I heard laughing, I turned to see a group of Slytherin girls laughing at me. I dropped my spoon feeling my gut turn, I quickly got up rushing to the closes bathroom I could find. I busted open a stall falling to the floor throwing up in the toilet, I wiped my mouth and leaned against the wall and started crying, I couldn't stop crying. I was just so tired of them, all their whispers and looks. I took off my jacket and unwrapped my bandages, I started scratching at my arm tell it bled. I felt better once the numbness took over and blood started falling from my arm. I heard a creak coming from the door and I quickly pulled my sleeve up shoving the bandages in my pocket and standing up flushing the toilet. Right as I turned around Severus appeared in front of me, I moved my arms to be behind me so he couldn't see what I had done. He rushed up to me placing a hand on my face rubbing my cheek. "Are you ok darling?" He asked, I gave him my best fake smile and nodded but of course he didn't believe me. He looked at me then down then looked back at me with anger. "What have you done Y/n?" He said moving his hands down my shoulders, I was confused how he knew and I looked down to see there was a puddle of blood, fuck. I quickly pushed past him trying to get to my room but he quickly grabbed my arm causing me to yelp, he moves his hand away looking at it. "Y/n...I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you." He said, I looked at his hand and it was covers lightly in my blood, I gulped and quickly ran to my room while he was distracted. I made it to my room this time shutting the door and ran into my bathroom locking the door as I feel to the floor. Like I thought my bedroom door opened and closed and I heard footsteps walk up to the bathroom door and knock. "Y/n?" A soft voice said that wasn't Severus, I was confused and got up wiping my face as I unlocked the door. It was a Slytheren girl, I looked at her confused, then I noticed her holding her wand pointing right at me. Before I could do anything she said, "this is for getting Mason kicked out you whore." Then she blasted me with a spell causing me to fly back crashing into my mirror hard, I could feel the warm blood trickle down my face and the glass stuck in my hair and all the cuts all over my body ache. Everything was blurry after that, then the darkness took over and the laughter went quiet.