A lost star

Bruises and Cuts

Y/n's Pov:

I heard knocking at my door, I sat up but pain shot through my whole body, fucking hell. I slowly crawled to my bathroom door shutting it and locking it, like always it was Severus, at least I hope it was this time. "Who's there!?" I cried out, I heard someone walk over to my bathroom door as I tried my best to keep it shut and not open it again. "Y/n, it's me Severus.." I heard, I sighed in relief resting my head against the door but pulled away in pain remembering all the glass stuck in my hair. "Y/n, you have to come out for breakfast." Fuck, I knew I couldn't because I still had to freshen up so nobody would know what happened, especially Severus, he'd be pissed. I took a deep breath trying to calm myself despite being in severe pain. "Severus..I can't go to breakfast today, I still need to get dressed.." I lied, well technically not fully lying. I could hear him sigh through the door. "Y/n, we talked about this yesterday, you need to eat." I felt tears begin to build up, I couldn't simply just say I can't go to breakfast because I was attacked and am injured. "Sev I know...I just can't today." I heard him try to open the door but failed. "Y/n we are not debating this, you can get dressed and still eat." I didn't want to fight with Severus but he wouldn't understand if I just opened the door. "Severus please...I just can't today and I swear it's not because I don't want to eat, I'd love to walk with you but I can't!" I said, I could hear him try to open the door again. "Then why don't you just come out?" He said, I looked down at my hands seeing the blood and glass all over them, I looked back seeing the blood trail I made while crawling to the door and all the broken glass all over the floor and the blood all over the glass. I could feel the hot tears begin to fall from my face. "I can't tell you Severus...please just let me stay.." I begged him, I could hear him try and force the door open but it wasn't working. "Y/n...if this is about last night and you did something...I'm sorry but please don't eat because of me..." he said softly through the door, I could hear the pain in his voice and that made me feel worse. "It's not about you Severus, I didn't do anything.." that student was the one to hurt me and became of them now I can't jump into your arms and inhale your scent that always calms me. "I promise to eat lunch and dinner today...I just can't do breakfast.." I said, I heard him breath out like he was holding his breath. "Ok..but I'll be back to come get you after my class.." he said. "Ok.." I said still crying. There was a pause of silence before he spoke. "I love you Y/n.." he said, my eyes widen when he said those words, those words that made me want to get up and run to him despite being covered in glass and blood. "I love you to Severus." I said and was met with silence then I heard his footsteps walk away, I cried once I heard my door shut, I cried hard, I cried everything I was holding in. I slowly stood up dragging myself to my shower turning it on, I stripped out of my ripped up and stained clothes using them as a towel to push all the blood and glass to the mirror sense I was going to toss my clothes anyways. I stepped into the slower flinching as the warm water hit my cut and bruised skin watching as small pieces of glass and blood, so much blood, fell from my body and went through the drain. I looked down to see a giant bruise on the top of my stomach, that's where the Slytherin used the spell on me. I carefully and slowly ran my hands through my hair trying to get all the glass pieces out. I couldn't help but yelp at the pain of the sharp pieces fall from my head. "Fuck!" I couldn't help but say every time a sharp piece of glass came out of my hair. After I was done in the shower I wrapped the towel around me that I had hanging in the bathroom. It was white stupidity but now it was a red towel. I slowly walked over to the mirror and I gasped at the sight of my damaged body. Not only could you see the bruise on my stomach but it was big, there were tiny little cuts all over my body from the glass, on my arms, neck, chest, and a few bruises on my temple with a couple cuts I could hide with my hair thankfully. I looked down at my hands and they where covered in cuts and bruises from carrying myself. I couldn't help but cry again, Severus was going to hate me, I put a gauze on the part of my head that smashed into the mirror and on my hands. I could easily hide the rest of my body with my clothes, I didn't know what to do with my hands or neck. I put on a beanie, which made me cry in pain but after a couple minutes felt slightly better, enough to stop the tears. I wore leggings which covered the bruising and cuts on my legs, I tired making my scarf cover as much of the bruises and cuts as I could but I had to be careful how I moved. I looked at my hands, my bloody hands, what the hell was I going to do? I remembered I had fingerless gloves so I walked over to my closet and put them on after bandaging my palms so the gloves wouldn't hurt as much which helped. I looked at the time and I hand enough time to still make it to my first class on time. I quickly put all the glass and bloody clothes in a bag carrying it to the closest trash can dumping it and rushing to class. When I got to class all I could think about was what would happen if I moved wrong and someone saw my bruises and cuts? Did I look weird with my hat and gloves? What the hell was Severus going to think!? When the lunch bell rung I didn't know if I should go or not, I promised Severus but I didn't know what to do. I stood up and as I turned around Severus was standing by the door waiting for me, I gulped, fuck he looked pissed, after all I practically told him to fuck off this morning. I grabbed my bag and slowly walked over to him, I looked up at him and he was glaring at me. "Ready to go L/N?" He said bluntly, I looked down nodding and we begin walking. I should have know he would have grabbed my hand, I couldn't help but stop in my tracks when he did so I wouldn't cry out in pain. He turned to me raising his eyebrow. "What's wrong?" He asked, I looked at him with a small smile trying to fight the tears. "N-nothing!" I said in a high pitch as I bit down on my lip. We begin walking again and I could feel him burn his eyes through me. "Are you cold?" He asked, at first I was confused. "N-no?" I said, then he raised a eyebrow at me. "Then why do you have a hat and gloves on?" He said, then I remembered fuck. "Oh yah! I means..my rooms a little cold but I'm fine!" I said, he glared at me but before he could say anything else we reach the dining hall so I waved at him and took off to my table. I couldn't run so I tried walking as fast as I could without limping. I sat down resting my head on the table taking a deep breath in finally able to sit again. I looked to see Severus glare at me, right I promise to eat. I signed and looked around landing on some soup, I know I had some last time but damn did that sound nice to help my sore body. I practically inhaled that soup, I also chugged a huge glass of water & immediately felt so much better. I moved my fingers over the cut hiding underneath my hair on the side of my face and flinched when a sharp pain shot through them. I looked down after the pain went away at my hand to see blood, fuck, I quickly got up and ran to the closest bathroom. I grabbed some napkins and dipped it in some water and wiped my face moving the hair out of my way and behind my ear revealing all the bruises and cuts on my face. I tossed the napkin after I was done and looked at myself long in the mirror, I looked at my tired and sad face that was bruised and hurt. I moved my hair back over my face to hide the bruises and cuts, I slowly sighed then turned around but froze when I saw Severus standing there with fear in his eyes. I felt tears begin to threaten to break out of fear of what he was going to say or do. "Severus i-"I tried speaking but before I could say anything he ran up to me grabbing my face and moving the hair back lifting my face up to look at him. "I'm sorry!! I'm sorry!!" I begin to cry out, he just looked at me confused. "What the hell happened Y/n!? I thought you said you didn't hurt yourself!" He said with fear and sadness still in his eyes, I tried to look away but he wouldn't let me. "I..I didn't Severus! I promise!" I cried out, he froze then anger took over him. "Someone..did this to you?" He asked, I couldn't speak, I just stood there crying. "I wanted to see you this morning Severus, you always make me feel better...but I couldn't.." I said, I saw his eyes begin to fill with tears making more tears come out of my eyes out of guilt. "Tell me everything Y/n." He said, I looked at him then at his hands. "Can we go somewhere more private?" I said, he nodded and let go of my face grabbing my hand causing me to flinch again. He looked at me confused, I just looked at him then back down. "I promise to tell you everything...just please don't touch me.." I said, he looked hurt, I bit down on my lip. "I'm just too sore Severus.." I said, he nodded and he walked me to his room. He helped me sit down which made me happy to finally be sitting again. He pulled a chair up so he could sit in front of me as I sat on the bed. "Now tell me Y/n.." he said, I looked at him deeply in his eyes then down at my hands. I fiddled with my fingers then pulled off my gloves revealing my bandages, Severus looked hurt as he carefully hovered his hands over mine. "You cut your hands?" He asked, I looked up at him for a seconds then looked down shaking my head. I then pulled off my hat causing me to hiss in pain, he carefully placed his hands on my face inspecting my head, I could see he was hurt that I was in so much pain. "Y/n.." I sighed, I slowly took off my scarf reviling more cuts and bruises and then took off my jacket all slowly. I looked up at him then I begin to unbutton my shirt, once I got to where the bruise was I thought for a moment, I looked up at Severus who was looking at me desperately. I closed my eyes then revealed where I had been hurt, I could hear Severus hold his breath. "Who did this to you?" He said in a deep pissed off voice, I put my shirt back down looking at him worried, he then stood up. "WHO did this to you Y/n!?" He said raising his voice causing me to feel tears build up, he took a deep breath then kneeled down placing his hand on my face and hip. "Y/n, whoever did this to you..deserve much worse" he said making me shake my head no, he moved his finger over my cheek almost touching my lips. "Y/n.." he stood up then walked away, I couldn't help but start crying, he was mad at me because I didn't tell him who did this to me when I didn't even know the girl. Then he walked back in holding a box, I looked at him shocked. "First, you need first aid." He said, I looked down feeling bad he has to bandage me again because someone hurt me again. He first treated my head, it was pretty bad and he had to use a healing spell on it to make sure it wouldn't split open again but still needed to be covered so he put a bandage around my head. After that he kissed my forehead making me feel better. Then he looked down at me, he started rubbing his neck as he cleared his throat, I tilted my head looking at him confused, his face turned a little red then spoke. "Um, you need to remove your shirt so I can treat you." He said, I froze when he said that, I mean he's seen me without my shirt before but that was only a glance..what was he going to think!? I nodded and looked away in embarrassment as I slid my button up off, he knelled down in front of me first putting ointment on my cuts, which went from my neck, to my chest, my cleavage, shoulders, a little on my upper arms, and deep cuts all over my back. "I'm sorry I have to do this." He said clearing his throat, I couldn't look at him but I so badly wanted to know what he thought, did he think I was ugly? I gulped and glanced at him and he was slightly red but trying hard to focus on treating me. "Do you think I'm ugly?" I said, then froze when I realized what I had just said. He looked at me blushing and I couldn't help but blush feeling embarrassed. "I-i mean I didn't mean to-" I tried speaking but he cut me off. "No Y/n, you are the most beautiful person I have ever met." He said trying to give me a reassuring smile, I looked down at my revealed arms. "Even with my scars?" I whispered hoping he didn't hear my question. He carefully placed a hand on one of my arms with no cuts at the bottom and rubbed it. "Of course I do, that's what makes you beautiful." He said kissing where he was rubbing, I couldn't help but blush and smile at what he said, it was such a relief that he didn't think I was ugly because of my scars. He kissed me then finished bandaging up my torso, he stood up grabbing all the supplies putting them back in the box and stood up then looked at me as I tried grabbing my shirt. "Did this happen in your room?" He asked, I stopped what I was doing and looked up at him then back down nodding. He set down the box and walked over to his dresser pulling out a shirt and walked back over to me. "You can wear this, I don't want you going back to your house tell we resolve this." He said, I bit my lip looking at the shirt then looked up at Severus and smiled. "Thank you Severus." I said grabbing the shirt. "I have some lotion I want to rub on your back that can help with the pain and healing process." He said as he grabbed the box and walked away. He then walked back over with some tea, he sat down next to me handing me the cup and some pills? I looked at him confused. "These are pain relievers." I nodded as I placed them on my tongue and took a sip of my tea to wash down the pills. He placed some lotion in his hands. "This might sting a little." He said, I nodded and he placed his hand on my back, some of the cuts where so deep when he moved his hand over them I could feel a sharp pain shoot deep through my whole body causing me to moan out in pain. "I'm sorry" Severus said, I leaned against him feeling my body give out from the pain. "It's..ok..." I said trying to use all my energy to speak, as he rubbed my back he shushed me. "I got you, don't use your energy to speak or move, I can take care of you." He said I tried looking up at him but it hurt to move my head, I had to thank him somehow. I realized I was leaning against his collarbone so I kissed it then darkness took over.