A lost star

What happened!?

Y/n's Pov:

I woke up trying to sit up but something stoped me, something was restricting me? I looked over seeing Severus and immediately felt happy, I curled up into his chest taking in his scent. I felt his grip around me tighten, he must be awake now I looked up at him smiling but he wasn't, he looked...pissed? I quickly looked down scared what he might say, he sat us both up still not letting me go. "Can you tell me what the hell happened yesterday!?" He said clearly not happy, I tilted my head trying to remember but everything was a blur "what happened..yesterday?" I said feeling blurry, "yes, yesterday." He said, I tried focusing really hard then it hit me. I kept my eyes shut scared of what he might say, "it was nothing Severus..I just needed a distraction." I said, I felt his hands grip my back tighten, he looked...sad now? I looked at him confused, he placed his hand on my arm lifting it. "This was way more then a distraction Y/n." He said and I could tell he looked heartbroken, I was confused as to what he was talking about tell I looked down at my arm, my eyes widen when I remembered everything, it was to much and I grabbed my head. "No no no no-" I said, I felt him hold me as my head screamed at me, "Y/n..why would you do that..please tell me.." he said, I bit in my lip hard to try to calm down and focus but it felt like everyone was screaming at me "No no no no!" I said, I felt Severus get up and within seconds he came back rubbing my back handing me a cup of tea. "This should help you calm down darling." He said, I nodded gulping the drink and feeling calmer instantly, I wiped my tears away as Severus sits down next to me, I lean against his side as he wraps a arm around my waist. "I-I'm sorry about...last night.." I said feeling horrible, he just gently rubbed my arm, "you have nothing to apologize for Y/n, I was just worried it might lose you." He said kissing my head making me feel better, I took a deep breath in and out. "Everything's just felt..overwhelming the last week and I..needed a distraction. Then before I knew it I found myself in a bathroom on the ground with broken glass...I didn't even remember leaving the bathroom.." I said biting down on my lip, Severus pulled me into a hug, "I'm sorry you felt that way darling, you know you can talk to me whenever you need." He said, I took in his scent calming me, I knew I couldn't tell him about the bullying but it was getting to much. "I just feel guilty about getting Mason kicked out..I know it's my fault.." I said as I felt tears build up, Severus pulled us apart but still holding me looking at me..mad? "Why would you even think about him, it was his FAULT, if I could I would have killed him as a punishments." He said making me smile but I still felt bad, I turned away. "I..I just don't know Sev.." I felt him place a hand on my face making me face him. "You have nothing to feel guilty for Y/n, he's the one that did something wrong." He said making me feel a bit better, I hugged him again and leaned up kissing him. He wraps his arms around my waist pulling me closer to deepen the kiss making me feel warm, we then pulled apart for air. "Um, do you remember what happened last night, after I brought you to my room?" He said, I tried to remember but all I could remember was feeling weird? I shook my head. "N-no..?" I said nervously, he placed a hand on my face rubbing it, "it was quite..interesting actually, but I had to stop you because you were clearly intoxicated." He said, I looked at him confused. "What did I do?" I asked, he just smirked, "I think I'll keep that to myself." He said while smirking making me blush. "Severus!" I said while wining and putting my head on his chest, "you were quite persistent." He said making me more flustered, I just wined into his chest feeling more emotions. He wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me tight to his body, I curled up into his embrace biting my lip as my mind wonders. "Severus?" I said, he rubbed my back placing his chin on top of my head, "yes dear?" He said, I took a deep breath in. "Do...do you think..things will get better?" I said in a whisper, I felt his grip on me tighten. "Yes I do Y/n." He said kissing the top of my head, I felt a tear roll down my cheek, I just wiped it away with Severuses shirt hugging him back. "Thank you Severus." I said as he squeezed me, "of course Y/n...I'm always going to be here for you." He said making me feel safer.

I stayed in Severus room all weekend and he tried feeding me but I tried to refuse but he wasn't happy, I ended up eating small portions every now and then to get him to leave me alone but he still isn't happy with how much I'm eating. Tomorrow class started and I didn't want to leave, I stayed curled up in his bed all day refusing to move tell I had to leave tonight to my room. I was trying to think all day how to be able to sleep tonight without Severus next to me, I haven't slept this good in..probably forever. He stayed next to me all day once he realized why I wasn't moving, "you'll be ok Y/n, you can come get me anytime you need me ok?" He kept saying to try and make me feel better as I curled up against his side scared to face those kids again. I still haven't told him and I don't want to but I also don't want to deal with them. "I'm just scared about not being able to stay with you.." I said trying to get comfort without revealing the truth, he rubbed my back while also grading paper. "Like I said darling, you can come get me at any time of the day if somethings bothering you." He said making me feel slightly better but still worried. "Thank you Severus" I said as I cuddle him and he kissed the top of my head, I realized there was only a hour left tell I had to leave. I sat up letting Severuses arm fall but still holding onto me, I leaned forward kissing him deeply because who knows when I'll be able to do that again. He pushes his paper soft his lap pulling me onto it as I wrap my arms around his neck as he holds me tight as we kiss deeply scared to let go of each other. After a while of kissing I pulled away feeling tears build up again, "I'm going to miss you so much Sev.." I said looking down, he pushed a strand of lose hair behind my ear, "I'm still going to be here for you Y/n...you know where to find me." He said making me smile, "I'm still going to come get you for meals ok?" My smile dropped remembering that, I looked away trying to not think about it. "No no you're right, I can come find you!" I said awkwardly smiling trying to distract him, but failed when he tighten his grip on me. "Y/n, I know it's hard for you but trust me, I'm doing this to help you." He said making me feel guilty, I kept looking down still not wanting to look at him. "Ok.." I said, I felt him rub my cheek, "it'll get better, I promise darling." I loved when he called me darling, it always made me smile, I looked up at him feeling better but still guilty. "Ok" I said as we kissed again over and over, he kissed me so lovingly it made me feel warm. We pulled apart to breath, "I should probably walk you back now." He said as I nod, he stands up and grabs my hand as I stand up, as we begin walking I could feel my anxiety build up. As we walked out of him classroom I froze, I couldn't move out of fear, Severus turns to me but I couldn't even speak, I looked at him then back down scared to see what he'd say. He places a hand on my cheek and squeezes my hand, "breath Y/n...as long as I'm with you nothing will be able to even look at you." He said making me feel like I can breath at least, I looked up at him to see him smiling with such a loving look that made me smile. We begin walking, I walked close to him so we could hide our hands in his robe. We walked up to my door, I opened it and he followed me in. "So will you be ok on your own tonight?" He asked, I sat down on my bed taking a deep breath, I looked up to Severus giving him a smile. "I'll be fine Sev.." I said, he stood for a second then walked over to me placing a hand on my face rubbing his thumb over my cheek. I leaned into his hand smiling at his touch, I looked up at him and he was looking at me examining me making me blush. He leans down kissing me deeply and lovingly making my whole body warm as I place my hands on his chest. We pulled apart to breath, we stared at each other for a second. "Come get me is you need ANYTHING." Severus said, I looked at him, then down nodding. He kisses me one more time then walked to the door, he turns back looking at me, I tilted my head wondering what he was going to say. "I'll see you tomorrow." He said, he stood there for a minute then walked away. I couldn't help but think about what he said, he didn't say it in a question...it was more like a demand. I fell back onto on bed whining out about how tired I am. I sat up groaning and walked over to my bathroom, I turned on my shower and let the room fill with steam as I strip out of my clothes. I stepped into the shower letting the hot water run down my body making me groan at the amazing feeling. I looked down seeing red run down the drain, I stood there remembering my injuries. I couldn't help but start crying, I curled up in the shower on the ground letting the tears all come out. I started crying, no sobbing, remembering all the pain in my life, how could Severus like me!?? I cried and cried tell there was nothing left, I stood up ringing everything off, I turned off the shower and wrapped the towel around my body stepping out. I dried off and walked over to my closet changing into some lose clothes, I looked through the bag Severus left me with my stuff in it remembering I snuck one of his shirts in and grabbed it putting it on. I crawled into bed feeling exhausted, I pulled part of the shirt up to my face, it smelt just like him making me calm down. The scent of Severus took over me causing me to feel warm and calm instantly letting darkness to take over.