A lost star

Slowly getting better

Y/n's Pov:
I walked into Sevs room, I wanted to put the dress somewhere so I could surprise him. When I walked in he was sitting at the table sipping on tea while grading papers. I walked past him to go put the bag somewhere. "Hi darling~" Sev says making my body heat up already. "H-hi Sev.." I said as I quickly placed the bag under the bed, he walked over raising a eyebrow at me. "You're not going to show me the dress you got?" He asked clearly offended, I stood up fiddling with my hair. "Not yet..." I said, which made his smirk grow as he wrapped his arms around my waist making me blush. "It's time for dinner." He said making me annoyed but I knew I needed to eat so I nodded, he kissed me making me feel better at his loving embrace. We held hands as usual as we walked to the dinning hall making me feel warm without anyone even knowing. As we walked up to the dinning hall I waved & smiled to him goodbye & quickly walked over to the Hufflepuff table to find something small to eat. As I was eating some noodles I thought about the dance, I didn't want to worry about accidentally flashing anyone with my injuries so I knew I needed to stay clean before the dance. It's been a while sense I've hurt myself but that was because I was drinking & now that I'm sober it's going to be hard, the dance is on Friday & it is currently the end of Monday...it was only 4 days but I knew I'd still get the strong urges sense before I'd use to hurt myself daily or every other day. Hm, I needed to come up with ways to cope that aren't self harming...fuck this is going to be hard. Either way I needed to learn better habits anyways so I can stop hurting the people around me & it hurts me more seeing the look on Sevs face every time I get hurt & I don't like seeing him sad. I could write! I haven't written in a long time! Jeez I wonder what happened to my old notebooks...I should ask Sev if he has any spare books I could borrow. I used to also write songs which helped with my over imagination, wait does Hogwarts have a music room? I should ask Sev that too...before I knew it I was done eating & got up to walk back to Sevs room. Thankfully I beat him this time & walked over to one of the bags I brought with me from my room, I took out my little baggy with all my self harm things, my razors, glass, & lighter, I forgot about the lighter. I sprawled them all out in front of me just staring at them, it felt weird thinking I used these things to hurt myself, thinking if I found these in someone's bag I cared about would crush me. I needed to start fresh & that meant getting rid of any possible triggers, I went through all my bags I had dumping out all the razors & glass I had in each bag worried to run out. While I was dumping out the last bag Sev came in, he looked down & when he saw what was all over the floor a look of terror came across his face. "What the hell are you doing!?" He asked looking at me which made me know what I was doing was the right thing because I never want to see him look at me like that, I just stood there not reacting kinda scared too. "I took everything out that I've used to hurt myself." I said, he just looked more upset. "I-I mean for you to dispose of, I want to get rid of everything." I said, I saw a small look of happiness come across his face as he walked over to me placing both hands on my face making me feel warm. "I'm so glad you're doing this Y/n, you don't know how happy this makes me. I'm so proud of you sweetheart." He said smiling making the reason grow more, I couldn't help but smile sense he was & it was very contagious, I nuzzled my face into his chest feeling happy in his embrace. "Can I ask why you are doing this?" He said in his low calming voice, I thought about what I wanted to admit, I moved my face to look up at him but still in his embrace. "I didn't want to hurt myself & make you sad anymore." I said, he rested his forehead on top of mine with a small smile on his face. "Then I'll get ride of those immediately." He said making me smile, as he was grabbing everything to put in a bag I noticed he was thinking about when I used them. I sat down on his bed swinging my legs. "Oh do you have a spear notebook I can use to write in? Also do you know if we have a music room here?" I asked quietly, I felt like I was asking a lot of questions but I needed to, without turning to look at me Sev spoke immediately. "Yes, & yes, why do you want a notebook for & what do you want to go to the music room for?" He asked with the same amount of questions as me making me smile as I looked down. "I want to get back into writing & music makes me happy." I said, with the last item he set the bag in his desk then walked over to his shelf flipping through some books then I assume found one completely empty then walked over to me handing it to me making me feel warm. I grabbed it looking at it's beautiful swirls it had all over it, I could feel Sev smirking. "You write & play music?" He asked sitting down next to me leaning forward making me feel warmer at how close he was, I nodded as I held the book on my lap. "I used to write all the time as a kid & write songs that kept me entertained because I had a big imagination, & in elementary I taught myself how to play a lot of instruments." I said looking down at the book feeling like a nerd as I heard Sev chuckle. "You amaze me everyday, what instruments do you play?" He asked in a calm voice making me feel warm again, I looked up trying to remember which ones. "When I can I play the guitar, electric guitar, piano, and Ukulele.." I said, he just kept smiling at me making me feel warm. "Wow, so you're really smart." He said making me chuckle at his silly words, I shook my head no. "No Sev it's really easy, do you know how to play any instruments?" I asked him giggling, I couldn't help because he started glaring at me. "You don't!?" I asked a bit shocked, not that I expected him to be playing music on his spare time but I would have assumed someone taught him how to play something as a kid. "I can teach you!!" I said smiling at the thought of helping Sev, he just glared at me more & got up not facing me as he crossed his arms. "Why would I do such a silly thing!?" He said clearly offended making me giggle at his child attitude. I got up warping my arms around his waist sense I was a lot shorter then him. "Because it would be a good distraction & would be fun!!" I said trying to convince him, he just huffed. "Ugh fine, only for you." He said still not looking at me, I couldn't help but jump up & down exited at the thought of teaching Sev how to play a instrument. "We can go tomorrow after class!!" I said very excited as I saw Sev making a half annoyed half happy look making me giggle. I moved to his side wrapping my arms around his torso. "Don't worry, you'll have fun!!" I said smiling as he looked down at me with a soft smile. "Fine, but you need to get some rest first." He said, I smiled at him. "Ok" I said, he picked me up making me gasp at his sudden action as he places me on the bed climbing in & pulling the cover over us as he holds me close to him making me feel extremely warm at his action. I snuggled into his chest as he kissed the top of my head. "Goodnight, I love you Y/n." He said making me blush. "I love you too Sev." I said as I felt complete happiness took me over as I dozed off into a deep sleep in Sevs deep embrace.