Ice cream

C15. Neglected

LISA

A couple of months past since I started living with Jennie. A lot of things happened within those months,Jennie keeps going in and out of the country for some bussiness trips which I can't go with her for I am still studying. The final exams is just around the corner,leaving me no choice but to stay and focus on my studies. A month ago,Jennie and I celebrated our first year anniversarry of being together,and we spent it on italy,the place is lovely,so as our moments. It was one of my memorable moments with her,she was such a sweet girlfriend and all.

All of those passed by with love,happiness and of course,arguements,that's normal for all of the couples. We argue and fix it before going off to sleep,we can't just bear to sleep with misunderstandings so we would really fix it at the end of the day,but this month,our arguements have been consistent,unbearable and actually turned into a fight...

Our first fight,all for one reason...

Kim Jongin...

Kim jongin,also known as kai. He's the son of Kim Jinyoung. He's one of jennie's suitors since then,and this month,he keeps showing up,proposing a lot of things to jennie,mostly bussiness but once jennie reject one,he would come up with another which made it obvious,he's probably doing this to get close to jennie. Well,that isn't really the reason of our arguements but... This week,Jennie started entertaining that dog,listening to whatever shits he has on his sleeves,she started to give him attention which was the opposite of what she did weeks ago,and I have no idea why.

Well,it's fine. I mean,I know how professional jennie is,probably doing this for her company's sake,afterall,kai is also a big influence in the industry,I understand,really. But it's just becoming unbreable as days go by.. Jennie started accepting and going out to dinner with him,it could be a meeting,yes,I've come to the tought of that,but... She mostly neglected me for it,I'm not complaining but... tonight,it's unbearable and I just can't hold it in anymore...

I am here,sitting alone in this big couch here in my girlfriend's penthouse. Today,is halmeoni's(the ice cream seller in the park if you remember) birthday and jennie actually planned to go to the park and celebrate it with halmeoni,saying we owe her a lot for she's the reason we got closer,we decided to go to the park and eat dinner with her which is by the way,the food was delivered here by her own chef. Jennie even canceled her afternoon appointments so we could go out early. But Where is she now?

I sighed for the nth time as I took a glance at the wall clock.

'10:30pm'

Guess the celebration's never going to happen now.

I felt bad tho,I wanted to go to halmeoni,well,I actually did when the clock hits Six and jennie is still nowhere,I visited her and she was celebrating her birthday with some of her regular customers on the park,with somee kids and even invited me for dinner which I accepted but I never dared to open up our plan to her,I was afraid. Afraid that Jennie might come and I already spilled the surprise,and also afraid that I would disappoint halmeoni.

Just as I was about to stand up with my phone on my hand which had ran out of battery after waiting for Jennie's call for hours now. The door made a sound before opening and revealing a smiling jennie with her formal attire and her purse on her hand,she entered the house all smiley while taking her time slipping her heels off. I crossed my arms as I watched her,waiting for her to look at me and she did. Her eyes showing shock,fear,sadness,and disappointment as it all conveyed an expression that shows she had come to realize something. psh.

"B-babe." She called as she quickly walked my way and tiptoed as she was about to kiss my lips,I look away making her kiss my cheek instead.

"Where have you been?" I ask with my plain voice. Looking away from her. I heard her sigh shakily as I watch her with my pheripheral view and saw her looking down. Fidgeting.

"I-i went out to eat with k-kai and talk about bussiness with h-him." She stuttered while I scoffed at her words. Really??

"Bussiness?? Really?? At this hour??" I ask,looking as curious as my face could convey.

"Babe,he panned to-I don't care about his or your plans together,Jennie! Do you know what time is it?! It's ten pm! I want to understand you and hear your side... but... Didn't you even thought of messaging me? Did I even cross your mind while you were out there having dinner with that man,when you were just so excited earlier with your plan of surprising that old woman you're so thankful of?! Did you even think about me?!  Was I fine? Was I eating?! Because I did jennie! All I did was worry about you for the whole fucking day!" I bursted out as I felt tears running down my cheeks,I wanted to stop the anger,to push it in,but I can't. All of those tought of being neglecgted by her for that man had me.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry,baby. Please don't cry." She hugged me,her tears are flowing inevitably too.

"You don't know how much I tried to understand you,Jennie. I did,I tried my best,I swear. But all of those neglections,those canceled dates just for him,those forgotten friday cuddles just because of him,all of those ignorance made me feel so mad,Jennie. I thought it was all fine,but it had me and it hurts." I cried and sobbed hardly as I sat down and hugged my knees. Jennie is my first ever true love,and the thought that she might find that guy better than me is scaring and eating me alive. I'm scared.

"Shh,I'm sorry,please forgive me,baby. Please." She hugged my shoulders as she kissed my head repeatedly.

"I'm scared,Jennieyah. I'm scared,Kai has been your suitor for years already,he was there longer than I was,he stayed by your side since then,he's good looking,rich and more capable of having you than I am-shhh,don't think of yourself like that. I love you and you are more than enough,besides,I would never see Kai the way je sees me,baby. I only want you,I don't need those rich men,I only need my Lalisa Manoban. I'm sorry for neglecting you,baby. I'm so sorry,I promise I won't do it again. okay? I'm sorry." She comforted me while rubbing back and kissing my face nonstop.

When I was finally able to calm down,she helped me stand up and sit properly on the couch,she wiped my tears and kissed my forehead while whispering her sorries. I nodded my head,telling her I would be fine and I just need some rest,she wanted to refuse and talk but she chose to understand me and send me off to bed before going off to clean herself.

I guess I'll have my first ever sleep without fixing things with her. Aish...