We Are All Fucked Up /bangchan ff

06. are you high?!

사는 게 왜 이럴까?
Why is my life like that?

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After korean and English we walked to our table like we sat last break. "We have something for you." all of us put something in their bag so it fits we all threw the bags of snacks on the table. All of the boys get a big smile on their faces and open some of the snacks. We just chatted and ate the snacks.

-after school-

I walk with seungmin back home. "Do you like the others?" I look at him "I mean I know them since 2 days but from what I say they are OK." "Well they are a bit chaotic but they are really nice and probably the only reason why I still leave the house. What about your friends didn't you had some before you moved here?" "Not really I always liked to be alone and I didn't wanted people around me that was also the my mission when I go to this school but ig it didn't worked." Seungmin giggled "okay Then goodbye See you tomorrow." We wave and went to our houses.

I take of my shoes and my mother walks to me. "Y/n tomorrow I need to go to the hospital again so please bring your siblings to school before you go." I just nod and walk upstairs 'it's that day again ugh how much I hate it she is gonna be so mad again.'

I change into a jogger and a oversize hoddie. I take my rolling stuff and climb up to the roof. I sit where i always sit when i need to be by myself. I take out my rolling stuff of my pocket and start rolling two joints. I take my grinder and put my weed in it while listening to music. After i was done i pick out a lighter and lit up one of the joints. I take a big hit and lay myself on the roof still having the smoke in my lungs I exhale the smoke and close my eyes. I hear my mother argue with my stepdad again so i turn the music on my headphones louder and take another drag. After probably an hour I climb back into my room. Because of me being high I almost fall on my knees when I climbed in my room again (idk how windows look at your house but in my attic room are The windows pretty high I can't even look out of them so when I climb in my room I need to hang myself on the window💀)

-Wednesday 4.30am-

I need to wake up earlier today because I also need to get my siblings done. My mom gets picked up at 6am so she can't take care of them. I feel so weak and everything Is kind of blurry. I walk to the shower in my bathroom. When I take of my hoodie from yesterday I know why I feel so weak. My arm is full of dry blood. I ran a hand trought my hair and get into the shower. I gasped when the hot water hit my arms full of new cuts. 'It burns but it feels so good' I gripped into the wall after I thought I would pass out only 2 hours of sleep, probably not enough food and selfharm are not a good combo I sat on the showers ground because I thought if I would stand any longer I would pass out. After I felt a little better I finished my shower and good into my school uniform. I walk down into the kitchen and make my siblings something to eat for school. I walk into my room and check my phone.

Skz🔥🔥

*you got added to skz🔥🔥*
Y/n
What group is that?

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Hey y/n it's me felix and the others

Y/n
Ohh okay can you all say your names so I can save your contacts?

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Changbin

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Jisung

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Minho