We Are All Fucked Up /bangchan ff

01. the skatepark

maybe it's the meaninglessness of existence that scares people
-demaskiert

Translated from German

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Its Saturday and I'm sitting listless on my bed staring at the cartoons right in front of me, cartons filled with my stuff. We just moved from busan to Seoul because of my moms husband but that's nothing new.

When I was 6 we lived in berlin with my dad, my mom and my siblings but my mom cheated on my dad with that man. After one year he asked my mom to go live in Korea with him and she said yes.

So we moved to busan where they married and got one of my brothers but a month ago my step-dad got a job offer in Seoul so they decided to move to Seoul.

Now I'm sitting here in a new house a new city and no people that I know.

I'm just going to sleep and unpack the important things tomorrow. I changed into some comfy clothes, put my phone on the charger and lay down in my bed.

While I think about how it will go when I go to the new school my eyelids are becoming heavy and I drift into a dreamless sleep.

The next morning I woke up because my sister walked into my room. "What do you want" I groaned. "Mom said you should go down in the kitchen." "Mhm tell her I'm coming"

I changed into black sweatpants with a random oversized pullover I found in one of the cartoons. Downstairs at the kitchen I saw my mom sitting at the table.

"Ahh there you are here are the information you need for your school tomorrow and this is your uniform." My mom says while she hands me some papers and a plastic bag with a uniform in it.

"Thanks" I say and go upstairs into my room again "I'm gonna read that shit later first of all I'm going to unpack a few cartoons."

The first thing I'm going to unpack are my clothes, my books, my mangas and my things to draw. The rest isn't that important means that I can unpack them on another day.

It was 3pm so I decided to look on my phone if there is something cool near me and I found out that only a few minutes away is a skatepark. I changed into a baggy jeans a white tshirt and a black zipper. I asked my mom where they put my skateboard after she said it's in the garage I took my headphones and my cigarettes put them in my bag. And walked into the garage.

I walked to the skatepark with my skateboard in my hand listening to music over my headphones. After a few minutes I saw the skatepark when I got there a few people stared at me probably because they never saw me here and I'm in fact a foreigner.

I sat on the concrete floor on the side with my skateboard and lit me a cigarette. After I took my first puff of that cigarette I saw a boy stare at me. Not gonna lie he was mad handsome he had black shoulder length hair, a lip piercing and many tattoos.

After half of my cigarettes he came to me. "Hey girl can I have a cigarettes I forgot mine." He asked and sat besides me. I nod and gave him a cigarette and my lighter. "Thanks what your name by the way never saw you here?" He mumbled with the zigarette between his lips.

"I'm y/n, you?" "Just call me hanse" we smoked in silence till my cigarette was gone. He asked me if I have social media so I gave him my insta.

"I like your piercings" He remarked while pointing to my side labret and my septum. "Thanks I like your piercings and your tattoos too" he sends a kindly smile to me and stands up "I'm gonna head home now but I'm gonna write you on insta." I nod and stand up too. I grab my board and walk over to the ramps and started skating.

I came home at 6pm when I looked at my insta I saw a message

Dxhxnxe started following you

So I followed him back I layed my phone on my bed and walked down into the kitchen to take something to drink. I saw Sidney in the kitchen making herself food. I found a bottle of f/d and walked to my room again

I sat on my bed and watched some Netflix till I saw an insta message.

Dxhxnxe
Hey its me hanse just wanted to ask on what school you will go to

Y/n/i
Hey im going to yongsan why?

Dxhxnxe
Yoo that's cool we're at the same school. If you want I can show you everything tomorrow.

Y/n/I
Ohh cool and yeah thank you that would be a lot easier

Dxhxnxe
No problem girl but I need to go ttyl

Y/n/I
bye

I put my phone away and changed in some comfy clothes after that I took my headphones my cigarettes and my phone and opened my window to climb on the roof. (You live on the attic btw)

It was already dark outside and the moon was really pretty. I laid myself down on the roof and lit my cigarette.
'I just want to disappear' I thought while smoking and looking at the sky. I let the cigarette burn down between my fingers.

I was laying on the roof till I got cold. After I got inside I put my phone on the charger and went to bed.

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