Behind the Scenes

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Freen's POV

In all honesty, Becky has been an integral part of my life ever since we met. Although I am close with many people, with her, it's different.

Meeting her was my turning point. I never thought that someone could actually embody everything I like in a person.

First of all, when I saw her, I thought, how can someone be this beautiful? Can I even be close to her? Be friends?

I tried my best to get close to her. I'm very much an extrovert but when I talk to her, I sometimes find myself at a loss for words. She has that kind of effect on me where I want to stare at her and listen to her talk about anything she wants.

I've always thought that she was the closest thing I have to a sister. And that everything I do for her is because I see her as someone I need and want to take care of.

Of course, playing as a couple for two series made it even easier for us to get close.

I don't know exactly when things started to change. Or even how things changed.

The only thing I know is that, one day, Becky just started to get awkward around me. We used to talk about everything, every random thing about us. It used to be so easy. We'd be together every time for work, and when we're free, we almost always choose to be together. And even at times that we hang out with other people, we used to constantly message each other and update about the things we're doing.

This time though, I feel like she's starting to push herself away from me. She wouldn't talk about what's bothering her lately and I'm really starting to worry.

What if she suddenly realized that I'm not good enough for her? I don't want to doubt her but what if she was just forced to like me because of work?

These are all the things that's been on my mind lately. Of course, in front of others, I try to act normal, cheery and just plain cool. But in reality, this has been all I can think about.

I miss her so much. She said that she misses me too and I hope that's true.

It even got to the point that I tried to talk to Nam to see if I can even just get a hint on what's going on with Becky. Although I knew, from the start, that she won't tell me.

All that she said to me is this "Just stop acting so dense, be honest about what you really feel".

Does she mean that I need to open up to Becky about what I'm feeling right now?

Maybe I just need to make the first move.

That's why I offered to go to worl together so that we can maybe talk about things and I really just wanted to see her.

But being me, the moment I saw her, I just instantly went for a hug because I missed her so much.

I looked into her eyes.

'How can someone be this gorgeous?' I thought again.

It was clear that she was tired but she still managed to smile so beautifully that, for a moment, all my worries from before begun to disappear.

I really wanted to talk to her but I also knew that this wasn't the right time so we just sat in silence the whole way.

Once we got to the set, Noey and Irin were the first people we saw. Noey kept on teasing us so I just went with it. It's pretty normal because all of the staff literally ships Becky and me.

But then, Becky excused herself and I felt that she was kind of uncomfortable? That's why I just let her leave.

When she got back, even though she was being her usual cheerful self, i just knew that there was something wrong.

But I understand that she wanted to keep things professional because she doesn't want to affect the people around her. So I tried to act normally too.

After shooting, Becky excused herself immediately.

I wanted to go right after her but the director needed to talk to me first.

By the time I was able to go to the dressing room, I saw that she was already sleeping.

I didn't want anybody to wake her up so I talked to the staff and had them let us stay here for a while and to not let anybody in.

After that, I walked towards her and carefully placed her head on my lap so that she'd be more comfortable.

Becky looks so at peace right now.

She's so beautiful.

I can just look at her and not get bored.

Suddenly, I felt a pang of sadness. What can possibly be worrying her that's caused this much of exhaustion?

It really saddens me to think that this ray of sunshine is feeling so troubled that she has to fake being okay.

Is it because of me? Did I do something wrong?

I lost track of time overthinking about this and noticed that she was awake.

"Hey, got a good sleep?" I asked her.

She was silent for awhile and then said "Yes, but actually, the best part was waking up to this"

I smiled at that.

"Good"

She slowly got up and then maintained eye contact with me.

What's happening?

Suddenly, she held my cheek and I noticed that her face is getting close to mine.

I was only able to muster up saying "Becky" while blushing and panicking inside.

Then, our lips finally met.