Behind the Scenes

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Beck's POV

I never thought I could cry even harder than before when Freen rushed to me and hugged me.

I subtly noticed that Nam and the others already left to give us some privacy.

Hugging her again was like every boundary, every wall I tried to put up to look strong just vanished.

At the same time, I felt relieved to be in her arms again.

My home.

That was what it felt like hugging her.

It was my comfort.

"Becky I'm so sorry that I just ran out like that. It was never my intention to leave you" Freen cried.

"I thought you hated me" I said, pulling away from the hug and trying to make eye contact with her. "Do you?" I added.

"What? No. Never. I can never hate you, okay?" she said reassuring me.

"It was just that, I panicked too much. I was shocked, I didn't know what to do. But please don't think I'm just making excuses. There's no excuse for me acting like that. I'm really sorry" she said.

"It's not your fault. I was the one that acted impulsively. I'm sorry, it's okay if you don't feel the same way" I said, still sobbing.

"Becky" she said while reaching out her hand to cup my cheek. "To be honest, I'm still trying to figure things out. I don't know what to do. But one thing I know for sure is that I don't ever want to live in a world without you. You're very important to me. It's just, at the moment, I don't know how to define what I really feel"

I looked at her eyes, full of sincerity.

This is good right?

This time, I hugged her first.

For a while, we just melted into each other's arms.

"I was so scared that you didn't want anything to do with me anymore" I said.

"No, it's not like that. I just wish we could've talked about this better. I should've noticed or something. It feels like I let you go through this alone"

I tried to stop myself from crying and be able to look at her again.

"Becky, from now on let's just be completely honest with each other like we've always been"

"I promise, I won't get scared anymore" I said.

"Same here, whatever it is I'm feeling, I'll let you know so that we can talk things through first. No secrets"

I think, I may be falling deeper. And although I'm not sure if Freen will be able to reciprocate the same feelings, I just know that she'll be there to catch me. Maybe not in a romantic sense, but I know, I'm sure that my heart is safe with her.

"I love you Becky, always"

"I love you too Freen" I said, hoping that soon, we might say it again, and then, our I love you's will bear the same feelings and mean the same way.

A/N

What do you guys think? Should I end it like this or still continue?

ps. Thank you for reading!