Behind the Scenes

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Beck's POV

I always try to not get affected by what I see on social media. And most times it's easy, but lately the rumors have become too much.

All these people assuming things because of coincidences. I tried to casually address it on a live video but certain people just don't get it.

Freen tried to console me by saying she's not bothered by those rumors but I know her. She's just trying to protect me, as always. It's just been really hard.

Sometimes I just really want to come out and publicly announce that Freen is the only person I'm in love with but of course I also want to respect her decision to just keep it between us at the moment.

I always knew that these type of issues come with being a celebrity but you can't really prepare yourself when you're in that situation.

The worst part for me is when those rumors of me dating different guys finally died down, it was Freen's turn next. It just never ends really.

I don't think I'll ever be able to admit it to Freen but sometimes I wonder, what if there's some truth behind those rumors? It would be easier for her to just fall in love with someone that the general public accepts.

What am I saying? This is stupid.

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Freen's POV

I think something's been bothering Becky lately. She's usually so cheerful but sometimes she's just been staring blankly and when I ask what's wrong, she just avoids the question and returns to being cheerful.

"Honeymoon's phase over?" I look at the person speaking and see Nam. We were currently at an event and Becky wasn't able to attend.

"Ha-Ha no, it's nothing" I answered.

"Last time I saw you that confused was when you were so clueless that you're 100% gay for Becky" she teased.

I punched her lightly in the arm.

"What? It's true" she said laughing.

"Don't you have anything to do? Stop teasing me" I said.

"Okay fine, but really. Is something wrong?"

I sighed. "It's Becky, I think she's hiding something from me. I just know that something's bothering her".

"Hmm can't you think of anything you might've done?"

"No, I can't think of anything I did"

"You know, one thing I've always told you guys from the start is to be honest. Be direct, so why not just get this over with and talk to her?"

"You're right, overthinking things won't do us any good." I answered. "You know I still can't get used to you actually giving good advice" I joked.

"Well I am the captain of your ship so it's only natural"

After that, we were called to proceed with the event.

When it was done, I hurried to get changed and left immediately to meet Becky. I already messaged her that I'll go straight to her house.

Once I got there, I knocked two times and opened the door since she gave me spare keys.

"Bb, I'm here" I shouted.

She walked out of her room and greeted me with a hug.

"That was fast, I missed you so much" she said.

"I missed you too bb" I said and gave her a quick kiss.

She was in her pajamas, hair tied and was wearing glasses. Probably been studying all day.

"So, what was so urgent for you to come straight here? Besides from the fact that you wanted to see me so bad, obviously" she teased.

I laughed at her comment,"Flirting with me again? Is that what you learned hanging out with Nam?"

"Maybeee" she said. "So, what's up?"

We sat down on the couch then Becky put my arm around her and proceeded to lean in and hug me.

"Comfy?" I asked.

"Yep, very much"

"Becky"

"Yes?"

"Is there something bothering you lately? I feel like sometimes you just become so distant" I said, straight to the point.

She went quiet for a second.

"I just have a lot on my mind, it's stupid" she said.

"Don't say that. Whatever's bothering you, you can talk to me about it. No matter how stupid you may think it is, I'll always listen"

"Promise you won't laugh?"

"Of course"

"Well it's just that, I don't know, it's been bothering me a lot even though I know it shouldn't"

"What is it?"

"I've been seeing all these rumors on tiktok saying you're dating someone and it just irritates me how I'm so bothered. I keep thinking all these what ifs that you might want to change your mind about us because that's easier"

By this time, she was already sitting a few inches away from me. We sat quietly for a moment.

"Freen, say something please"

I didn't notice that tears were already forming in my eyes. I brushed them off and faced Becky who looks very concerned and worried.

"Freen" she said.

"Do you think so little of my feelings for you to feel that way? I get where you're coming from but it actually really hurts that you'd think I'd just change my mind like that. Do you not think that I'm serious when I say I love you?" I said

I'm not usually the emotional one between us but maybe I've just been too tired lately. Maybe we both are. Maybe it's the stress or the pressure from everyone around us.

"Babe, it's not like that, I'm sorry. I just feel so insecure sometimes and overthink too much. I know I told you that it's okay to just keep whatever we are right now, between us but sometimes I just want the world to know so they can stop with all these rumors. I'm really sorry." she said, crying.

"Becky" I said.

I reached out to wipe the tears on her face.

"I'm sorry too for the way I'm acting and for making you feel like that."

I engulfed her in a hug "Going forward, we'll be facing more challenges. You know it's just the start for us and our careers, right? But I just want you to know, whatever happens, I'll always be here for you. Whenever something's bothering you, tell me immediately so that we can solve it together, and vice versa. It's you and me, okay?"

"Okay, thank you" she said, still sobbing a little.

I break away from the hug to look at her. "You feel a little better?"

"Yes, all thanks to you. I'm really grateful to have you."

"Same here, baby"