My Happily Never After (On Going)

Chapter 21 - Now and Forever

"Forgiveness doesn't excuse their behaviour. Forgiveness prevents their behaviour from destroying your heart."

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Steph's POV

Hindi na sya ulit nagpakita... o tumawag man lang... siguro kasi hindi nya talaga ako mahal at yung summer na yun na ang mahal nya.

I guess this is it.

My first heart break! ang sakit pala. ang lakas ng loob kong sabihing tanga ang lahat ng umiiyak ng dahil sa pag ibig. but look at where I am now, in the exact same spot. Hindi ko talaga maintindihan ang mga lalaki! how can they promise to love you, cherish you, and be with you forever samantalang di naman nila kayang panindigan! eto ba ang kapalit ng lahat ng pagmamahal na binigay ko?

pakiramdam ko hinihiwa ang puso ko. ang hirap naman pala magmove on. tang ina! Pinunasan ko ang luhang naglandas sa mukha ko. shit! ang pangit ko na!!!!!!!!!

"oh, umiiyak ka nanaman. princess..."

"Gago! sinong iiyakan ko ikaw??? bakit patay ka na ba?! napuwing lang ako umiiyak agad?!" hindi ko alam kung bakit ang defensive ko. sobrang nakakatawa kung iisipin mo pero ayaw kong makita ng ibang nasasaktan ako. ayaw kong maawa siya sakin.

"Joke lang. eto naman galit agad. Ice cream?" He gave me a hopefull look. I touched Dash's face.

"Buti ka pa di mo ako iniiwan..." I blurt out of nothing. he hugged me and I cried hard. so hard I was almost shouting burying my face to his chest on every sob. walang kapantay na sakit ang bawat pag tangis ko parang hindi nababawasan kahit anong sigaw ko. parang mawawasak ang buong pag katao ko tagos hanggang kaluluwa halos mawalan ako ng ulirat. ganoon pala talaga pag nag mahal. I want to be brave and tell myself this will be over soon, that I will come out of this stronger and wiser. but, for now my sorrow is just too great I don't even know what to do or where to start. A part of me wants to crawl back to him, kahit mag makaawa ako tanggapin nya lang ako. Masakit isiping may mahal na syang iba pero mas masakit palang hindi mo nya sya makakasama.

"Tama na please. Stephanie tama na." garalgal ang boses nya. his chest was shaking too. nakayakap sya sakin ng mahigpit at namdaman kong basa ang aking ulo. umiiyak ba sya? nilayo nya ako sa kanya dibdib, he made me face him and I was shocked to see him crying too. As I stared in hiI dont understand how he can look like......me.

"Let me fix this. Let me fix you. I Lo..."

"Whenever I'm weary

From the battles that raged in my head

You made sense of madness

When my sanity hangs by a thread

I lose my way, but still you

Seem to understand

Now & Forever,

I will be your man"

Sabay kaming napatingin sa labas. Sino yun?

"ayusin mo nga kuya! ang bano mong kumanta! hindi talaga ako noon papatawarin!" kilala ko ang boses na yun!!!

"Sometimes I just hold you

Too caught up in me to see

I'm holding a fortune

That Heaven has given to me

I'll try to show you

Each and every way I can

Now & Forever,

I will be your man"

I ran towards the door. hinaharana nya ba ako? Mahal pa nya ako? he wants me back!!!! As I opened the main door I saw the reason for my tears and his brother with acoustic guitars and strapped with a wireless microphone. They're at the bottom of the stairs. hindi naman to romatic! dapat umakyat ako sa terrace! I think I'm going insane.