My Happily Never After (On Going)

After all

Hi Tim,

It's been a while...
How long has it been?
It's been 10 long agonizing year.
I should be okay by now right?
Why do I feel like it all happened yesterday?
I miss you so much love.
I still long for the moment when I can see you again.
See that sunny smile that lights up my day.

Remember when I asked you until when is this going to last?
You answered "until the end of time."
I believed you then...
I still believe you now.

For so long I tried to push you away.
Our memories and the glaring fact that you are gone.
Infact I tried to pretend you never existed.
I'm sorry...
I couldn't do the one thing you asked of me....
I couldn't let go...

I cannot express how I truly feel,
In fear of tears that fall so easily.
The art of letting go is so hard for me to start.
I've never been so lost as I am now.
Without you...
Loving you was what my life's all about.

I've been preparing all my life for you.
I've always thought I breath to be your better half..
Now I'm left with no purpose.
Trying to get by...

If I ever see you in my dreams tonight
I'm going to ask you one more time...
To save me...
Heal me...
And help me get over you...

Cause after all this time,

You're still the one I love...

Yours eternally,

Stephanie