I will Love You through Thick and Thin

Chapter 41- Why?

continuing..

jake pov.
i giggled as i enjoyed the mother and son bickering

they're so adorable, i wish i have my mom be like that

oh no, my eyes, it's getting teary

i looked up to prevent it from falling, i just can't cry anymore, i'm independent and strong

i gaslight myself to make myself feel better

however it didn't work this time

so i sprinted out of the scene

i made way to find the bathroom

as i walked fast i saw sunghoon approaching me

"jake? why are you crying?"

he asked as he stopped me on my tracks

"ah-it's just the smoke from the barbecue got in my eyes hehe"

i lied while i maintained my gaize either in sides not just directly in his gaze

"jake please look at me"

he said softly

i shook my head in denial again

"jake?"

he called again softly

i looked at him up when he used his hand to turn my face slowly to face him

when i met his gaze, there was an ache in my heart that i felt

and i just couldn't bring myself to let it out

i just couldn't cry.

"tell me what's wrong hm?"

he softly putted his hands down to my shoulders

"hoonie this is just another episode of my breakdowns okay?"

he didn't buy that

"are you okay jake? do you wanna get some fresh air?"

he recommended me

i want to get some fresh air but this doesn't feel right at all

i don't know why..

i shook my head and smiled at him softly despite my face being all red and a stuffy nose

"i need to go to the bathroom I'll be right back"

he nodded as he pierced his lips

"comeback quick ok? we will start the party in a few minutes now"

he reminded me

as i slowly walked away nodding my head in approval

i swear to god this mansion is getting me dizzy

i literally walked here since i was little but i still get confused and lost

i sniffed and dried my tears as i am still finding the bathroom

slowly getting teary again

this shit makes me frustrate

i wiped my tears when a tear crept

then i bumped into someone

shit is it a ghost!?

i looked up as i sniffed again

"hon?"

suddenly i cried like a baby

like my lollipop was taken away from me

"shh"

he hugged me and comforted me

i know he was confused

but let me tell you, despite my nose being stuffy i managed to sniff his scent

it gaved me comfort

he cupped my face and he let me looked up at him

"do you wanna go get some fresh air?"

he asked and i

nodded instantly.

he smiled and grabbed my waist as we were finding the exit

i feel so secure

but why does my feeling for sunghoon doesn't?

...
to be continued

a/n: heh 👹