the book of heartbreak

day 22

Today I saw you in class, and we were taking a test. I sat right in front of you.

And the whole time the only thing I could smell was you. Your sweet cologne and the smell that I used to cuddle against and breathe in so deeply that it would get caged in my small lungs. The smell that I yearned for and have willed myself to get over, and just one smell brought back thousands of memories.

You were wearing the cologne that I got for you for Valentine's Day. On Valentine's Day you also gave me a bracelet with an infinity sign on it. The description said that it meant eternal love, and I'm afraid that's what I got.

But you wouldn't look at me. You wouldn't dare breathe in my direction in fear that my eyes would kill you and my face would make you cry.

This made me cry.