Sweet Talker

Third year II

(Kassopoeia's POV)

Hindi na ako makatulog sa pag iisip. Hindi ko alam kung ano bang nangyayari sa akin, I told myself not be involved with Mickiel in that kind of relationship but where am I now? Ngayon ay iniisip ko pa rin kung bakit ganoon ang reaksiyon ko sa aking nalaman.

Ano naman kung merong sila? Why does my heart feels tight. Am I jealous? NO NO!

For almost an hour, I kept looking at the ceiling, I can't accept it. Hinayaan ko ang sarili kong mahulog kay Mickiel na dapat ay hindi dahil nga sabi ni dadd

"Having a boyfriend will just mess your academic performances"

And I believe it because that's what happened to me and my ex boyfriend two years ago. I don't want it to happen again.

Just as I thought of ignoring and probably leave Mickiel alone, a message made my phone ring and vibrate.

Mickiel sent you a message.

Now what?

Natulala ako sa message niya. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin, rereplyan ko ba o huwag na?

I want to make myself believe that he likes me because he chats me most of the time, he even wait for me outside our room para sabay kaming umuwi at paminsan minsan ay nililibre niya ako. He knows my favorites. But he never said anything. Hindi dapat ako mag assume.

Nalilito ako. A part of me wants to obey dadd but there's also a part of me that wants my relationship with him to enter another level like being a friend with him isn't enough because he makes me feel something, pagkakagusto? I don't know.

Gusto ko ba siya? siguro? Maybe? Pwedeng oo? pero bawal, hindi papayag si dadd.

Mickiel Santos: Kita tayo bukas. I have to tell you something.

It sent my heart to beat fast.

"TANGA HANAP KA" sabi ni Dindy malapit sa tenga ko.

"Bwesit ka, masakit sa tenga! Pwede ba kung kausapin mo ako ay huwag naman sa tenga ka magsisigaw jan? Naririnig kita ha. Anlapit lapit mo pero kung makasigaw ka sa tenga ko ay akala mo naman e anlayo layo mo sa akin" pagrereklamo ko.

"Oo na bes, sorry na. Lumabas ka na, hanap ka ni Mickiel"

Tumingin ako sa labas ng pinto. Lalabas ba ako? but I am ignoring him. I sigh, last na 'to. Dump him and go back to where you were before.

I walk towards him and he held my hand, hindi na ako nakatanong kung bakit basta napatitig na lang ako sa kamay niyang nakahawak sa aking kamay. He never did this, not even once.

Huminto siya ng nakapasok na kami sa canteen, mayroon doon na lamesa at chairs kaya inaya niya akong umupo doon.