Sempiternal: •D.E.A(live).D• || BOOK 4#

12. Strong angst

"You shouldn't have let him go."

Namjoon drops his head, about to hit the table. Hongjoong gathers what he needs and storms off, leaving Jin and Namjoon alone. This conversation has nothing to do with him. Every day it becomes more evident the marital dynamic that Jin and Namjoon hold, not to deny the clear romance between Hoseok and Yoongi, that Jin and Taehyung have something strange hanging around; not to mention Namjoon's almost unhealthy care for Jungkook.

There are many signs that no one dares to point out. Somehow they want to respect the privacy they have. It's the same thing they can do for them in return for everything they do on a daily basis. Jin rests his hands on the table and Namjoon his elbow, his jaw in the palm of his hand. Hair tied in a small ponytail where a few hairs are sticking out.

"What do you propose I do?"

"Tell him no! Not fulfill him whim!" chides Jin with annoyance. "He might not even be out there right now!" he mumbles, upset. His anxious, paranoid look only makes Namjoon more tired.

"I know."

"And yet you let him go!"

"Jin" He stops with exhaustion and the other bites his lips, expecting any kind of nonsense from him," tell me in all honesty what do you intend for us to do with Jungkook?" Jin says nothing. "We can't pretend that we're going to control him or that he's going to understand us. He's going to follow the path, he'll do whatever he feels like and whatever he feels necessary. We prefer to stay inside to hide what hurts us and...well, his decision is to come out."

"It's a terrible decision-"

"That he made it himself and we have to start respecting it. Maybe if we did, Yoongi wouldn't be as he is, maybe it would be Jungkook, maybe neither; maybe Seojoon would have died and neither of us would be hurt or Jungkook would have made it this far with Seojoon unharmed" he lays out each possibility and Jin bites his lips. "We have to... we have to let him live as he prefers. We should have done it from the beginning. He knows we care about him, but what he doesn't feel is that we respect him."

"I'm not interested in that. I'm interested in him being okay," Jin states in an almost dangerous hiss. "And if anything happens to him" He leans closer to Namjoon. "It will be your fault for allowing it."

He leaves abruptly, angry and on edge. Namjoon rubs his brow, if only it were easier to deal with the moods of everyone in this place.

~ * * * ~

Yoongi stifles a groan, very barely. He was given the injection a short while ago, the one that soothes the pain in his body. However, he does not feel any effect. He is unaware that little by little, the drugs will stop working on him. Hoseok notices that he is sore from walking.

"Do you want to rest? I could carry you on my back.

"I can walk on my own." grumbles Yoongi, a little tired of being treated like glass. At every slightest extra breath, they think he needs to go to the infirmary.

When it's more than enough that they take him by the hand and bring him back to there's no Yagtalja around.

"Where is Jungkook? I haven't seen him for a long time." muses Yoongi with a saddened leave. He misses him. They were fine, or did something change? Jungkook hates him? Doesn't he like the way he looks? He still doesn't know how he looks. He hasn't been allowed any mirrors and is far from windows that might reflect him.

"Oh, he came out," Hoseok notifies. "You know how he gets, he gets so overwhelmed. He needs a little time alone" he explains roughly. "Maybe we can-"

"Alone?"