Sempiternal: •D.E.A(live).D• || BOOK 4#

36. Bear in the paradise

"Are you disgusted with me now?"

Taehyung sits down in front of Jimin, who barely pulled part of his face out from between his arms. The model pulls him a little by the arms, slightly forcing him to come closer and be as close as possible without making him uncomfortable. Taehyung grabs his face, caressing the cheeks red and wet from crying. Jimin winces, not knowing what that look on Taehyung's face is. He has never seen it on him before.

"I just... I can't help but wonder" Taehyung speaks in a deeper voice than usual, having a stuffy nose from crying not too long ago. "Why would anyone do something like that?" repeats in a broken whisper. "Why would anyone want to hurt someone as beautiful as you? I don't understand and it just lets me know that there are too many monsters out there."

Jimin sniffles again, pressing his forehead together with Taehyung who strokes his face and hums softly. It's reassuring to Jimin that none of the reactions he feared, happened. Even amidst the anger and disappointment at his claim, he saw no disgust in any of them.

None of them seemed to judge him, only surprise and annoyance. A sort of attempt to deny that this was true, but ultimately, to no avail. Jimin eventually climbs all the way up to Taehyung, wanting to take refuge in him as he always did. Taehyung hugs him with all his might.

"When Jungkook was saying anything about you, thinking that you would be alive... I wanted to believe otherwise," Taehyung admits, unashamed of that fact. "And I think it would have been much better. Then you wouldn't have suffered more; you wouldn't have been hurt so much and you wouldn't cry so much."

Jimin sobs, rubbing his face on Taehyung's shoulder. He'd like that too and even if it's a bit rude or cruel of Taehyung... The reality is that at the very least, he wished his a rest, a way out and lack of pain. The last thing Taehyung would want is for Jimin to suffer and he is alive, agonizing as no one should.

He has this little creature more fragile, wounded and weak than he has ever been.

And if he cried so much, it was not only from feeling sadness, but anger.

Too much pent up anger and helplessness that maybe at some point, he would have a way to get out.

If it really is Gimpo who is stalking them now, Taehyung is happy. He could avenge him. It's no use, really, but he wants at least in the balance of existence to be fair. They don't deserve to have a quiet life, to move on in triumph or to pretend nothing happened. They must suffer, they must see how little by little everything they have disappears.

And murder the last of them, the one who had the brilliant idea of using his Soulmate as a prostitute.

For the first time, Taehyung feels the same aggressive impulse as Jungkook. Because frankly, this is the first time he feels angry to this sick point.

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"Namjoon-"

"I'm fine, I'm fine."

He wipes his chin, having had a sudden urge to vomit along with a horrible dizziness. It was as if his heart was about to stop. Jin waits for Namjoon to normalize his breathing a bit and having a bit of calmness on top, Namjoon turns to Jin.

"You should let things flow...maybe...maybe.... Talk it over?" he proposes uneasily. "I-I can talk about my time with.... that group" Jin offers, uneasy and unsure of the topic, "so you feel a little more comfortable. They'll understand you. We can all understand you."

"It's not about that. I'm fine. It's okay."

Jin watches him leave and knows perfectly well that Namjoon is lying. He is sensitive to know that Jimin went through the same thing as him, even worse. The only difference here, is that it hurts Namjoon much more. He hasn't decided to talk about it, admitting that scares and hurts him even more. Jimin on the other hand, as broken and destroyed as he is, seems to be indifferent to letting it out.