Nothing like starting over (Hunter hayes fan fiction)

Chapter 28/Whats next

I sat there with my knees to my chin looking at the counter. I didn't want to look at Lucas. I was afraid of what he would say or do. I'm not sure why considering he had sex with someone else. And we were separated when hunter first kissed me. And the second time we kissed. And the third. I glanced at him and studied his facial expression. He didn't look mad, maybe a little upset but it mostly looked like he was thinking.

"you guys kissed ?" he suddenly asked confused

"Yes"

"Wait. Was this while we were still together ?" he looked right at me.

"No ! this was after we broke up." I answered

"Oh ok, well I can't be mad at you. I always thought there was something between you two though" he said sounding slightly upset

"There never was Lucas. I swear. I know I worked late with him most of the time but that's all we did. Work. I can't speak for hunter but I never thought about him that way once while I was with you. I promise. It was only until after he kissed me did I start to look at him differently. But even still, I'm not sure I like him. He's a mess right now. He doesn't even know who he is basically. And like I said I feel horrible. When I think about dating hunter all these problems rush into my head and it makes me overwhelmed. I don't know how to handle him when he gets upset. I just try to comfort him but Lucas I swear nothing ever happened while we together." I let out a breath hoping I had reassured Lucas that I never cheated on him.

"I know you wouldn't do anything with him but you really never thought about him like that at all ?" he asked accusingly

"No. When he kissed me it gave me mixed emotions. I missed you so it felt nice but then I looked at his position, and he has so much going on and so much to deal with. I don't know if I can't handle all that. Or if I would want to. And besides. He still has court. What if he goes to jail. He's dealing with a lot of drama and I don't know info want to be tossed in the middle of it." I told him

"That makes sense. It's just your wearing his hoodie."

"I told you I spilled soy sauce on me." I took a bite of cereal.

"I believe you. And you didn't do anything wrong. We were broken up."

"Were broken up ? we aren't still ?" I asked

"I don't want to be. I want to be back with you. That's why I want to make sure nothing is going on with you and him." He said.

I was surprised. But in complete honesty I was happy. Lucas was someone I could see a future with. Hunter ? I don't even know how he's gonna be tomorrow let alone how he's gonna be in the future. And I love Lucas. I've known him for so long.

"Do you want to get back together ?" he interrupted my thoughts

"I do. But I need to be more honest with you. You deserve it" I took another deep breathe

"Hunter kissed me first. In his apartment, then he leaned in when I gave him a ride home and, I leaned in to. I kissed him back, and then just earlier tonight we kissed again. I initiated the third one though hunter didn't. He was freaking out and breaking down and like I said I don't know how to handle him so I just grabbed his head and rubbed his back then have him a quick peck but I'm still not even sure why I really did it. All I know is that after I did he calmed down completely. " I said nervously.

"Oh. Well like I said. We were separated. I just want to make sure nothing happens again if we get back together." Lucas gave me a look, I could tell he was upset about me kissing hunter but I knew if we got back together that nothing was going to go on between me and hunter.

"I do want to be with you but I'm pretty sure hunter likes me. I don't know what to do ? I still have to work with him. and he is really sweet Lucas. You should hang out with him now that he's not all depressy and angry all the time."

"I'll be nice to the kid but I don't think I wanna hang out with someone who's been kissing my girl" he laughed

"Just give me a little while to figure out what to tell him. I feel bad for him. What if he really does like me and I hurt his feelings ?"

"I don't know but he's an adult. He'll have to understand. But do you think he'd fire you of he got upset ?" Lucas asked

I had never thought about that. Would hunter do that ? I'm sure the old one would but this one ? I don't know. He already thinks he's no good what if by me saying I don't want him he flips. Well I don't think I'm that amazing that a guy would flip out but hunter isn't stable, I'm worried I'll hurt his feelings.

"I don't know Lucas but I have to tell him ? what if he tries to kiss me again or ask me out ? I can't just make up excuses"

"True but you don't wanna lose your job either. I'm not saying he would do that I'm just saying, the guy isn't in his right mind." Lucas took my bowl and his and put them in the sink.

"I don't but how can I not tell him ?" I asked him

"You could always just tell him you don't want to be with him ? don't bring me into it. That way he doesn't feel like you ditched him for me." He said

"I didn't do that though ?" I said confused

"I know you didn't but in his mind he might see that you just messed with him then got back with me. I know you didn't do that babe. You had no idea I wanted to fix things until you came home tonight. But trying to explain all this to hunter while he's the way he is might upset him."

I hated what Lucas was saying but he was right. Hunter would totally think I just threw him aside. Which I didn't. I like hunter. He's sweet and nice and fun to be around but he's not himself right now ? he's all confused and messed up. He needs to be a good place in his life before he tries his hand at dating.

"So I'll be honest but leave the fact that I got back together with you a secret ? that still feels like lying to me." I said sadly

"Well hun,you know him better than me. Do whatever you feel is the right thing to do. Try to spare his feelings as best you can and just do what's best for both of you." Lucas walked around the counter and planted a kiss on my forehead. It made me smile.

"Thanks, I guess I'll just see how tomorrow goes. And go from there" I smiled at him.

"Sounds like a plan. Now you wanna go to bed ?" he asked cutely

I suddenly realized that the last time he was in there he had a girl with him.

"Um. Don't get mad but can we sleep separately tonight ? I just don't wanna go lay down where your former lady friend and you were doin it."

"Oh. Yeah, I forgot. That's fine. I'll wash the sheets and stuff tomorrow." He laughed

"I hope you mean you will wash them with fire ?" I giggled

"Yes that's what I meant to say." He laughed and then gave me a hug and then went back into our bedroom.

I sat on the barstool and just took a minute to take in all that just happened. It seemed to happen quickly but then again talking to Lucas has always need extremely easy. So to recap I came home and told my ex everything then got back together with him and now I have to decide how and what to tell hunter. Oh boy.