Nothing like starting over (Hunter hayes fan fiction)

Chapter 4/Getting back to work

I was out of the hospital and back at home. It had been a few days since I went to the hospital. Betsy told me that starting next week I was going to get back into music. I wasn't looking forward to it. I felt so lost. I didn't know how I was going to write anything. I couldn't even think straight. It was Friday so I had two more days of self pity before I had to go back to work. And I was stressing out. They told me not to drink for at least two to three days after getting out of the hospital.It was harder than I thought not to drink but it was the forth day out so I was defiantly going to drink. Even if it was just a little. I still smoked to. David was right when he said it would help calm me down and relax me. I didn't touch anymore pills though. I knew better than that. I kept my head down and tried to stay out of media. I didn't want to talk about anything. Maybe when I am in a better place I will explain everything I've been going through. I poured and drink a sat on my couch. I looked at my guitar case that was still dusty. I walked over a wiped it off and opened it. I looked at my custom Martin that hasn't been played in months. I used to pick it up at least once a day, I plucked one of the strings just the sound gave me goosebumps. I picked it up and tried to play a few cords. I could already tell it was going to be hard to get back into the swing of things. I heard my phone going off and it was sam. I hesitated for a moment but answered it anyway.

"Hello ?" he asked

"Hey" I answered

"Hunter is it ok if I come over ? I thought we could try writing a little something" he asked again.

"Sam I don't think I'm up to it tonight. It's just not there. We can try on Monday" I said

"Oh ok. You alright ?" he questioned me

"Fine. Well I mean I'm not fine but you get it" I slightly smiled

"Yeah. Ok well I guess I'll see you Monday. Rest up alright ? and stay positive hunter,monday won't be as bad as you think." He said.

"I'll try. Talk to you later sam" I said before hanging up.
I put my guitar back in it's case and sat back on the couch and turned on the TV. big mistake.

Reporter - country singer hunter hayes out of the hospital after his attempted suicide. The news broke early Tuesday that the singer had been rushed to the hospital after being revived in his downtown Nashville apartment. Hayes has reportedly been in a slump since the release of his newest album. The young and up coming star had it all but just in this past year we've seen his decline. Fans have noted that he drinks more and has disappeared and that they don't like this new hunter,His rep tells us that hayes has been depressed lately but he is working through it with a positive attitude. We have footage of hunter leaving the hospital with his manager. He looks pale and weak in the few photos that were taken before he entered the car. We have tried to reach out to hayes but we have gotten no response. It is still unclear why the country singer tried to kill himself in the first place. We do know that he took a lethal dose of trazodone. A sleeping/ anti depressant pill. Rumors have speculated that hunter has been in a depression and that on Tuesday the young star tried to take his own life by consuming an over dose of his medication. We questioned his doctors and there statement was that they never prescribed the pills to hayes. Making us wonder what the troubled singer has been up to for the past year. That's all the news we have on the story but keep on with us as we try to get more information.

I almost got sick hearing the news. People were talking about me everywhere. I just wanted it to stop. I wish I could explain myself but honestly I was to scared to face the public.

~Monday~

"Hey ! hunter your back" Matt said smiling as I walked into the studio

"Yeah" I tried to laugh and smile back

All the guys greeted me and seemed really happy. I tried my best to act happy but it was so hard. Betsy reminded me again that the record label was going to drop me by the end of the year. I didn't want that to happen but writing and recording was going to be a challenge. I wouldn't have ever imagined that singing would ever be a problem for me.but it was just the first few hours we frustrating.

"Can we take a break ?" I groaned angrily

"No c'mon just another hour" sam encouraged

"No ! we've been here all day and we don't have shit !" I pushed papers containing our attempts at writing a new song off the table.

"We just have to focus a little hunter" Matt said.

"I'm trying. It's hard. I just want a break" I grew annoyed

"Ok alright let's give him a break" Betsy came up from behind me patting my shoulders.

"I'll be back in ten" I huffed while walking out

"Where are you going ?" Andy questioned

"Outside. For a break." I said with some degree of attitude

I walked off and went outside around the building and took out a cigarette. I needed one. This whole day has been stressful. The guys were telling me to just write how I felt but I was so depressed that it was almost impossible to do anything. Especially pour all my emotions out in front of everyone. I just wanted to go home. I took another hit from my cigarette and blew out the smoke. I took a deep breathe. If I was going to get to a better place in my life I was going to have to work on it. I couldn't give up. I had to go back in and try. I puffed out more and more smoke until my cigarette was through and I tossed it to the ground and stepped on it and went back inside.

"Alright you ready ?" sam smiled

"Yeah I am." I smiled genuinely back.

Just the short cigarette break made me feel tons better. I'll have to remember to do that when I I'm feeling stressed.
We played around for a couple hours but didn't turn anything out. I couldn't think of anything to write and I couldn't even play any good melodies or cords.

"Let's call it a day." Betsy smiled

"Yeah let's try again tomorrow" Matt smiled

"Ok. I'm sorry I suck you guys" I frowned

"You don't suck hunter. It's just been awhile and you've had it ruff." Devo said.

"I guess. I'll see you guys tomorrow" I left and went to my car it was weird driving because I hardly went anywhere anymore. And if I did it was usually a walk down the street to a liquor store.

BETSY'S POV

"well he did better than I thought" sam said

"He did. He got a little upset but we have to remember not to push him." I told them

"We've got to work a little faster though. We don't have that long to submit demos before the end of the year." Andy said concerned

"I know. He needs to write something. The music playing isn't a problem. He knows how to do that but if he doesn't come up with ideas for songs we're screwed." Matt shook his head.

"Guys I wouldn't worry. I've got a little something in mind but I need to talk to a few people first. We will see how hunter is doing tomorrow and then decide if he needs a little extra help" I gave them a smile.

"What do you mean a little extra help ?" Steve asked me.

"I've been thinking about something that might help hunter out. I'm not going to say anymore because it's not set in stone. We will just have to wait and see" I told him.

"Oh alright don't tell us I see how it is" Matt laughed.

"Just stay positive for hunter's sake. I'll see you all tomorrow" I said goodbye to them.

HUNTER'S POV

I couldn't believe it ! I was horrible today ! how am I supposed to go back there tomorrow ? with out realizing it I had already gotten a drink out of the fridge. I guess it was just habit to drink when I was upset. "Tomorrow is going to be hell." I thought while I slumped on my couch. Why does my life have to be so shity ? Even though it's my own fault. I guess it's me not my life. I'm the shity one.