The Creation of a Poly Relationship

Aftermath of the Drama

After all of the drama went down, I stopped talking to the people who were against me during the drama.

I ditched Monochrome as an uncle and thought of him as an asshole who didn't deserve to be talked to but still tried to be nice when he was around as he was still friends with Keith, being one of his brothers.

I stopped being on amino or discord as often in the places where the drama took place.

I got closer to Shadow & Keith.

I, unfortunately, went into a state where my emotions were not like how they were before (they still are fucked up and not 100% back to normal).

I started to think differently and behave differently.

I wouldn't eat as much as before and wouldn't sleep well either.

I had a lot of thoughts of suicide and self-harm.

I hated myself and my life.

My enemies wouldn't leave me alone for a long, long time after the drama happened but eventually stopped attacking me after I decided to completely stay away from them.

I wanted to end everything.

I did some self-harm too.

Tried ending my life.

I didn't do anything too drastic only thanks to having Keith & Shadow by my side.

Especially Shadow.

She was there helping me to feel better and to stop me from hurting myself or killing myself multiple times.

If she hadn't been with me through the time when I was going through that stuff, I would've been dead over 10x over.

She was my lifeline practically back then and still is to an extent.

Keith helped keep me going as well.

Much later on after the drama, everything was going smoothly and I had only the occasional bad experience but mostly good things going down - both online and irl (there was also drama irl while the drama online was going down) - and I ended up getting with Keith's brother Lefty after he told me he had loved me (in a lover's way) since he met me and asked if we could be together.

I've happily been having a good time with Shadow, Keith, and Lefty since and hope to continue to have good times with them and others in the future.

̶(̶S̶i̶d̶e̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶e̶:̶ ̶I̶ ̶m̶a̶y̶ ̶b̶e̶ ̶c̶r̶u̶s̶h̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶n̶o̶w̶ ̶o̶n̶ ̶a̶n̶o̶t̶h̶e̶r̶ ̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶K̶e̶i̶t̶h̶'̶s̶ ̶b̶r̶o̶t̶h̶e̶r̶s̶ ̶t̶h̶a̶n̶k̶s̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶K̶e̶i̶t̶h̶ ̶m̶e̶n̶t̶i̶o̶n̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶i̶t̶.̶)̶