Secret Letters

Secret Letters Ch.9

9.

After leaving Scarlet's get together, Landon and I left for the hotel. It had been awkward since last night when I left him at the party. I tried to make things better with us because I didn't want to lose Landon. He was such a great guy.

We were in the hotel now. Landon sat at one of the chairs, staring into blank space. I sighed and went to the room. I looked at the invitation that Aly gave us. It was in a town house near our hotel. There was a small picture of her with her ad with the perfume. She really was beautiful. I could see why she was a Cali girl model. I put away the invite on the table and laid in bed. I was exhausted. I instantly fell asleep.

I woke up to the sound of something banging the wall. I sat up and saw Landon with his luggage packed and standing at the doorway. I was confused. "what's going on?" I said.

I checked the time and it was 6pm. "jayla. We need to talk." I frowned. I knew that line. It wasn't good. "Okay." I said and sat up. "Jayla do you love me?" he said, straight faced. "yes I do. I really do Landon." I said. "that's good to know." he said. "what's this about" I frowned. "Nothing. Let's just get ready for the party." he gave a small smile. I furrowed my eyebrows. Something was wrong. I didnt press him. I freshened up and threw on a simple dress. I wasn't in the mood to get dressy. Landon silently got ready.

I was suddenly getting annoyed by his silence. I kept silent as well.

We were at Aly's big bash. There were many people. Girls who were stick thin and guys who were dressy and sophisticated looking. Landon didn't hold my hand. We just entered the crowded room. Music was blaring and there were people dancing and taking pictures. Aly greeted us at the door. She wore a short dress and looked pretty. "so glad you guys made it." she smiled and hugged us. "yea we wouldn't miss it" Landon said. "nice! So just make your selves comfy. And enjoy!" she smiled one last time then turned to greet her guests.

Landon finally took my hand and led me to the stair case. We sat down on the stairs. I rested my head on his shoulder. He hugged me to him. We watched the party goers for a while till Landon stood and took me with him upstairs.

Aly's place was large. We found ourselves on a balcony that out looked the city lights. "this is a beautiful view" I said. Landon hugged me to him. "yes it is" he said. Landon then let go of me suddenly, facing the view. "what's wrong?" I said. I stood next to him. He remained silent. "why are you with me?" he said suddenly. "because I care for you." I said. "I know but you're not satisfied with me. I'm not dumb jayla. I know I remind you of Sebastian. I can see how we're similar, but I'm not him." he said. "Landon you don't have to be him." I said and took his hand, but he pulled away as if I stung him. "to be with you I do. You say you love me and I believe you but you love him more. I can see it in your eyes. I can feel it." he looked away from me. I couldn't Believe this was happening. "Landon I'm sorry if I'm hurting you. But I choose you. And I hope that you can see that." I said. "no jayla. I don't want to be with you knowing that I'm only second best. I rather you be happy. Even if it's not with me then that's okay. I do love you, don't get me wrong but I just can't do this anymore. Pretending that we are 100% in love with each other. Just go to him.I know you want to." he finally faced me. His face neutral.

"Landon I-" I began but he cut me off. "I won't hear it. Just go."he said opening the balcony door. "don't worry. We'll still be friends" he smiled. I didn't have time to respond cause he was pushing me out the door. "I'll see you at the hotel. I'll be here." he shut the door and held it shut.

I didn't know what to think. I didn't know what to do. Did I really only love him cause he reminded me of Sebastian? That was harsh. I was just dumped at a high class party on a balcony. I sighed.

I eased out of the town house and sat at the steps. Did I want Sebastian back. I knew that I did but. I stopped my self. I wanted him back and I was gonna fix everything. I stood up and hailed a cab. I gave directions and we were off. My heart was racing and I was nervous. I didn't know what expect. What if he didn't want me back. I did ignore him. I started to feel sick.

I had to push it aside because we were outside his home. I paid the cabby and slowly walked to his front door. The living room light was on. I took a deep breath and rang the door bell. My heart was racing. A few seconds past and a woman opened the door.

It was sebastian's mom. "oh.Jayla. What are you doing here? It's been a long time." she smiled. "hello mrs. Sinclare. I was looking for Sebastian." I said nervously. She frowned. "dear you just missed him." she said. "oh do you mind if I wait for him till he gets back? It's important." I said. "sweetie. He's gone to italy. I don't know how long he'll be gone. Said something about a workshop or schooling. He left about an hour ago. Im so sorry." she was still frowning. My heart dropped. I was too late. "I could call him if you want" she said. I frowned. "nah it's alright. I'll just see you later. Thanks again." I said and eased away. "nice seeing you Jayla. I'm so sorry" she said. I just nodded and walked down the street. Tears blurring my vision.

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Sorry I haven't written In sooo long. I was not in the writing mood and I had a lot of school work and for some reason I felt like writing again. Let me know what you think:) thanks for reading.