Secret Letters

Secret Letters CH. 15

15. 

"Jayla, are you happy?" Jasmine said. We were sitting on the beach. She was staring at me intensely. 

"yes. Why do you ask?" her question had surprised me. Why would she think I was unhappy. 

"Its just you don't seem as happy as before." she said. 

"I guess. I just- it's hard for me. I thought I'd be happier with having Sebastian back. I mean I am happy, it's just Landon isn't." I choked out. 

"jay, you need to decide who you truly want to be with. You can't be running back and forth. Who's face do you see most. Who do you constantly think about?" she stared at me. 

"I don't know." I said.

"yes, you do. Look. I'm not saying this because I don't like Sebastian, I do like him but I don't think it feels right." 

"what are you trying to say? That I shouldn't date him cause it doesn't feel right to you?" I said. I was a little annoyed. 

"look at it this way. Giving someone a second chance is like giving them another bullet for their gun, because they missed you the first time." she said. 

"I-"my phone rang before I could respond to her. I pulled it out of my pocket. It was Sebastian. I looked at Jasmine and she raised her eyebrow. 

I answered the phone. "hey." I said simply.

"hey. How are you?" I miss you." he said. 

I frowned. It's been a while since we actually had a real good conversation. "I'm good. Enjoying the sun. I miss you too. What are you up to?" I said, trying to calm down. 

"nothing much. Just staying home." he said. 

"aw that's too bad. I feel horrible. I'm here having a blast and you're at home. Why don't you go have fun." I said. 

"I will occupy myself for the time being I guess." 

"okay, well. I need to go."

"of course you do" he said exasperated. 

I furrowed my eyebrows. My temper rising. "what's that suppose to mean. I'm sick and tired of everyone getting on my case" I snapped and shut the phone. Jasmine stared at me wide eyed as I stood and headed back to the car. She didn't follow. 

I didn't know what was wrong with my emotions. Maybe it was my time Of the month. I leaned against the car and sighed. I was exhausted. Sebastian constantly called and when he did it was always in the middle of the night and Id quickly hang up cause I'd be too tired to talk.  I noticed that he was becoming less patient with her and a little obsessive. Now that she thought about it, the week she spent here, he had been calling to check up on her. At times he'd ask me about Landon and if we had spoken with each other. Which we hadn't. I missed him. I started to wonder what he was up to when Jasmine snuck up behind me. 

"I'm sorry" she startled me. I quickly turned. 

"it's alright Jas. I know you're just looking out for me." I smiled sincerely. 

"I am Jayla. I really want you to be happy. I wont pester you about Sebastian. I promise." she gave a small smile.

"it's okay Jas. Really. And thank you. Now let's get out of here. I need a good shower." I dusted the sand from my feet and got into the car. I had one more week in Miami and then I was off to Cali to visit Sebastian. It would be good for us. I hope. 

We drove back to the house. Jasmines parents were working and we had the house to ourselves. It was nice to be in an actual home than a dorm. I took a quick shower and went to lie in bed. I wanted to take a short nap. My eyes began to close when Jasmine bursted in my room. I sighed. This girl had way too much energy.