Why am I the star?//tsukasa angst//[DISCONTINUED]

Bonus chapter

Not continuing story btw

Tsukasa POV:

I was sitting in my room staring at the glowing white screen of my computer. I was suppose to be reading a passage about American History or something (boring Tsukasa isn't even in America), but all I could see were words. It's like the time you realize that your reading something but you were focusing on the wrong thing.

It's not like my grades were dropping. I've kept them constant over the years, but time and time again it feels like it's not enough. Like I'm not enough.

I lean back on my chair and sigh. I stare at the pencil and paper in front of me and start drawing random lines to try and distract me from the fact that I have to summarize the passage by tomorrow, by hand, on paper.

I started getting angrier—no, more impatient. It's already so late at night, why can't this just be over with?! This is so pointless. I'm not even going to be in America anytime soon anyways. Nothing makes sense.

My pencil scribbles got darker as I put more pressure on them. I tried humming and creating my own song, but that made me feel like I was going crazy, so I stopped.

Ok, maybe I should actually try reading the passage.

"The American Rev....at started in April...775."  I hoarsely mumbled. The words flickered on and off as I struggled to stay focused.

The word got blurry on the screen.

This is a sentence. Your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and your reading a sentence and—

I banged by pencil against the paper, drawing a harsh line across it. Why couldn't I focus today? I have so much more work to do. Besides this, I still have to do a lot more.

Something was wrong with me. I need to stop running away. I need to start trying. I need to be okay. I need to stop disappointing others.

I pressed down on my pencil. Why couldn't I be good enough? Why?

*crack*

I looked down and saw that my pencil broke. I sighed. Guess I put too much pressure on it...I should just get a new pencil.

I heard a small sound of a chime coming from my phone. It was a message from the Wonderstage group chat:

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WONDAHOY TEAM! ! ! >.<
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Emu: WONDERHOY GUYS!!!!!!
Nene: what r u doing up so late
Emu: just found a song that reminded me of you guys heh heh
Nene: your kidding...and that doesn't answer me
Rui: shut up guys it's like 1am
Emu: do u wanna listen to the song😀
Nene: huh what song
Rui: no
Nene: just sleep
Emu: see u at Wonderstage! ! !
Rui: see ya ig
Nene: bye

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I stare at the text and smile. My friends were always so....you know what, I can't find a word for it.

I stare at the text a bit longer. Yea...there my friends. There on my side. Their not leaving any time soon.

I put down my phone and saw the broken pencil. I got up from my seat and jumped into my bed, not bothering to turn my computer off. Oh well, I could always finish the passage later.

And I could always sharpen the pencil again.

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This is last chapter probably cuz I ran out of motivation also if u see the pencil thing I did there congrats your smart and if u didn't ask someone else lol
Anyways I didn't just want to leave without u guys knowing so yea
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Also I'm not completely quitting. Just say that I'm on a really long hiatus. I'll prob come back out of the blue but yea

O I forgot to mention why I'm stopping rn is because actually the reason why I started writing was because I had a bunch of ideas in my head and I wanted to share them, but now I realize I don't really want to write fanfics and I want to focus on something else rn so ye

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