MewGulf ONE SHOTS By Phinutz

I will Protect You

What if:

       The busy streets buzz like a bee behind his head on top of the noisy clattering of utensils inside the restaurant where he is eating his lunch.

New York.

Concrete jungles where dreams are made of...
There's nothing you can't do.

But despite the noice of the surrounding, Mew can't take his eyes off his cellphone screen and the texts that is on display.

"Phi, I don't know what to do. Fans are bombarding me with comments about you even tho I am with Phi Janie on the live stream. The sponsors are not happy about it."

Mew felt the sadness and frustration of those few words and it wrings his guts not to be able to do anything. He knew that this day will come, where everything that has made them happy will bring them equal sadness.

That everyone who brings life to their then well-loved couple ship will now bring destruction to their solo careers. Mew knew from the start that  everything he has said and done before will one day come crashing at him like a wild fire. And he thinks the day has finally come.

He knew how those tweets and comments can be distracting in their line of personal work but he couldn't stop them. His fans are so cute,how could he stop them? That even if they are saying something out of context of the show or the live stream, Mew still loves his fans so much.

What he couldn't handle is the way those same words that comforts and reminds him of happy memories, is now haunting and ruining his Nong's mood. He doesn't like how Gulf's words of whining and frustration settles at the pit of his stomach.

He has said it before, the road will be rough, but he still chooses to stay. His Nong chooses to be with him despite the odds of his career being jeopardized by their fans who believes in them.

And he also has said it before that he will do anything to protect him. Anything, even if it was at stake of his own career.

"I'm sorry Nong, don't worry I will fix this. Remember the promise?"
He texted back quickly before dialing his manager's phone number.

"Hello, I am going back to Thailand tomorrow. Please process my documents right away."
He drops the call without waiting for an answer. His mind too occupied of the impending decision. It was not a spur of the moment. He has it all planned and thought about. He has laid everything on his Nong's path like a red carpet. Because he promised him that their decision to separate from the couple ship is correct.

He promised Gulf he would handle the consequences. No matter what it takes.

Mew jolts when he felt his phone vibrated in his hands. A text from Gulf.

"Phi, what are you going to do? please don't do anything rash. I know how stubborn you are sometimes but please dont do anything that could affect your work too. You know how I could be whiny at times, but I don't hate it. You know I can't hate something that constantly reminds me of you. I just wish you are here beside me tonight."

The small crying emojie makes Mew smile despite the storm that is slowly forming inside his chest. His little love is still so cute even when upset. And how he wish to be indeed with him at this moment. He just wants to wrap his arms around him and coo his pouty faen until he sleeps like a baby in a cradle.

So his decision is final. He will stop this madness.

Two weeks later, twitter world was shattered by the news of Mew Suppasit getting back everything that he has said before.

We are phi-nong that loves each other. And is serious.

Everything you see is just 10%

We don't do fan service

He took all the hate like a maniac. He smiles despite the harsh words thrown at him. He stood strong. He watched how his fandom turns their back at him and stab him in the chest.

All it takes is a few tweets, and boom! The news spread like a wild fire.

As he looks teary-eyed at his screen, a call broke the silence of dawn.

"Phi, what did you do?"
Gulf's voice heavy with sleep but worried startles him.

He didn't expect he would catch up right away.

"I told you, I will protect you. Didn't I?"
He said wearily. His voice cracks despite his efforts to keep it calm.

"I'm coming over."
Is what he heard before the line got cut off. And softly, like a river, his tears came streaming down his face.

He did the right thing.
Is what he keeps repeating to himself, but it still pains him so bad.

To lie, and hurt those people he didnt know personally but inspired him for the last three years. It pains him to see them get broken in shambles, confused, and felt cheated on.

But he has to do it. He don't even think he is worthy to say he's sorry. Because Mew knows he is not.

He choose to love, and he choose to protect that love until the end.

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Just a drabble.
Feels like wanting to write angst.
should I write this?