Before You (BY: Book 1)

Get Out!

Stef's POV

Diner last night with Lena was wonderful, Brandon was enjoying talking about piano and some art that I didn't even know he knew about. And since that's Lena's thing they were having they little conversation as I was watching them with loving eyes, it was almost too mushy for me, but I couldn't help it. I love them both so much and to see that they get along so well and have common interests was very nice to know.

When she left, Brandon was almost disappointed -so was I- and he even ask her if we could do it another time as we couldn't stop smiling. It was very important to me that my son was comfortable with the person I love, for it couldn't have work otherwise. Both Lena and I knew that and that's why we were so happy to see that Brandon seems to appreciate spending time with her.

I was at my desk at the precinct, and I couldn't stop thinking about my girlfriend, I was daydreaming -which wasn't like me at all- I was thinking about how sexy she was, how beautiful and attentive she always is, and I was wondering when I could finally make love to her.

I'm ready now. I mean I'm comfortable when she touches me, and we all know that touching her is not a problem at all for me. The problem is that I don't know how to actually do it with a woman, and my ego is keeping me from asking her, which I know is silly for she never ever judges me or makes fun of me.

Maybe I should find a book or do some research on the internet, but I admit that just the idea of typing the thing on a computer is making me blush. I thought of lesbian porn, but well, I know porn is not really realistic so it wouldn't be helpful I think, or maybe the...

"Nice to see that you're not dead, Stefanie!" I heard my mother said abruptly making me jump and instantly annoyed.

"What are you doing here Ma?" I said looking dead into her eyes.

"Well, since you don't seem to know how to pick up the phone, I figure that I'll come see if your hands were fine." She said sarcastically.

"I don't have time for this, I'm at work." I said trying to stay calm for I just wanted her to go away. I have nothing to say to her, and that's why I don't bother answering the damn phone when she calls.

"Then wait here, I'll ask Captain Robert to give you a break, she likes me just fine." She said walking towards the captain office. Fuck she's annoying.

"No, you're not going in there. Just tell me what you want." I said as she had a satisfied smile on her face.

"I want to know if you're finish with being selfish. Mike came home last night saying that you send him the divorce papers. The poor guy was crying his eyes out on our couch for God's sake." She said, without a little bit of consideration for me, not one bit. But again, what could I expect from a woman that never stood up for me. Besides, the divorce papers have been sent to Mike way before yesterday.

"If you're finish, you can get out, you know the way." I said, not blinking for I wasn't making a scene here at work, that wasn't happening. Besides, I don't give a fuck of her fucking opinion about this. This is not her life.

"Stefanie, I love you, you know, but you're doing a terrible mistake."

"Yeah, of course you love me, I can see that by how supportive you are. I should even thank you for that, right?" I said sarcastically as well, for I didn't get like that by myself after all.

"Come on Stefanie, go home, go see your father, he's devastated." She said, like it was all my fault, but I'm not this young girl anymore, I know that this is not my fault now.

"Oh yeah, well he just disowned me, so he can be devasted. Besides, I don't think you want to talk about how devasted I was my entire life because of the shamed you both made me feel, so you better get out of here before I do it myself." I said standing up and getting in her face as her face fell, she wasn't so provocative all of the sudden.