As high as you can go

Chapter thirteen

Kitty has always been an optimist. She has believed that everything, despite all the bad signs, would be good. Perhaps it was side effect of being raise by Penny Benjamin and living with Maverick for a while. But in the day when Rooster and Mav went on their mission She couldn't eliminate the bad feelings about this. She woke up before sunrise and couldn't sleep anymore. Finally, annoyed by the unsuccesfull attempts to fall asleep, Kitty got out of bed. She got dressed and left room. She stepped kitchen Quietly so as not to wake anyone up only to found Penny with cup if coffee in her hand.

-I made one for you too-Mother said instead of greeting.

-How do you know I'm awake? - Kitty asked grabbing a cup.

-You forget I was a wife of one soldier and I-Penny hesitated- love another one. He is on mission so I'm sick with worry - Kitty sat down next to her. - You are worried too because your beloved one is in danger.

-I'm not in love. -  She objected.

-Oh course you are. The question is when you will confess that.

For a while they watched through the window as the pink dawn rose over the bay. Kitty heart Shuddered when she imagined Jets flying through the same sky towards hostile shores.

-You 're right - She finally admitted - I think I can tell that i' m hoplessly in love.

-What a coincidence, me too-Penny said sarcastically.

Kitty snorted.

-How many times already?

-I'm starting to regret making you coffee. Give it back.

-No-Kitty grabbed a cup harder-I take back everything I said.

-Very comfortable.

Kitty smiled for a brief moment.

-I believe It does not matter right now.

- She said quietly. - He is angry at me and if I've to be honest, He's right.

-Why you say so?

-I-Kitty cleared her throat nervously. - I tried to make them become reconciled before this mission. Maverick and Rooster. And Bradley... He didn't take it well.- She nodded to herself. - I shouldn't do that. I shouldn't have interfered-She glanced at her mother-Should I?

-Do you really ask me that? - Penny told her.

-Mom!

-You made your choice Kitty. And you did what you think was the best.

-Well... But now I think I'm not the best person to tell anyone what to do with their father. I'm not the best example.

-Rooster told you that?

Kitty frowned.

-Yes-She said and had hope mother will be as angry as her.

-He shouldn't tell that but he has some point.

-Mom?!

-You know why your father have never stop calling you? - Kitty looked at mother with suprise.

- Mom...

Mother ignored her. She opened her mouth to protest but mother raised a finger.

-Hush, I didn't finished yet. - Penny looked straight into her eyes. - And you know why Pete've never stop trying make up with Bradley?

Because when you love someone you never give up. Never. Never ever. No matter how hard it would be. Yours situation is the same? Yours and Bradley. Person who loved you made a terrible mistake but is doing everything to make it up. - Mother felt silent for a moment-When will you finally understand that the only way to have a future and hapiness is let the past die? And The Best way for this is to forgive? Maybe it's time to give up an forgive your father? He loves you as your sister.

Kitty blinked.

-I... - She didn't know what to say. Penny 've never been so serious.

-Babe, he loves you. It' s hardly not to see this. But you won't be happy togheter or on your own if you won't come to terms with the past. Bradley took some steps in that direction. And what about you?

Kitty felt burning tears under the eyelids. Penny reached and grabed her hand.

-I can't tell you what to do - she said gently. - You're grown woman now. And God knows I made several terrible mistakes in my life too. But take my advice; ask yourself what is more important and stick to it. Fuck pride and stubbornness.

Penny smiled at her.

-And about your fly-boy... He has to decide what to do on his own. And you have to decide what you can do.

-Sometimes I prefer you wouldn't be so clever. - Kitty muttered under her breath.

-Fortunately for you because you have that cleverness from me.- tapped her fingernail on the phone screen. - And the most important thing is you don't have to wait a call. You have mobile. Use it. Penny smiled.-I'm going to wake up your sister and you... think about it.

When mother left Kitty took her mobile and left home. She opened the phone book and dialed her father's number. She stood with her finger over the keyboard and hesitated. The problem was deep down she knew mother is right but she didn't want to do this.
She closed her eyes and brought back memories. She remembered father standing exactly in the same place and telling her that he leaves. She remembered mother crying at night and Amelia asking about dad. But she remembered good things too. She thought about playing baseball on the beach. And about A tickle fight. And toasts dad was doimg every morning.
It was They were little things but still they were the most important.
Kitty pursed her eyes. She couldn't help Rooster or Mav but there were something she could do. And she was going to do this.
She opened her eyes and tapped on the keyboard with determination.

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Autor's note:
I am not satisfied with this chapter... I tried to rewrite this couple of times and this happened. I hope someone will like it :)