Nobody Gets Me.

10

bey: would you like to come to lunch with the girls and i?

i read the message a good three times. beyoncé has been trying her luck with me. if she thinks that she's gonna be let back in so quickly, she may need to rethink herself. i'm not dumb, i know her and lauren are going back and forth right now. i heard her when she said i would eat her pussy if she wanted me to. which.....i would.

of course i still love this woman, never stopped. she just broke my heart into several pieces when she did what she did. in all honesty i feel as though she's learned her lesson. i'm literally all beyoncé knows, and i'm sure my absence has affected her more than i think. but i also won't get back with her. that'll take a moment of building trust and loyalty.

but back to this lunch, i don't know if i wanna go. we haven't had a sit down together since the last time we went for mimosas and i kissed her. no i don't regret that but i do think it stirred some things up. since then, she's been coming hard. like every time she drops the girls off, she's coming in. not too long ago was her first time ever meeting at my home.

i always catch her flirting but i act like it's nothing. especially when lauren is here. they don't say she's crazy and aggressive for nothing, she really is. we'll be in this bitch fighting for real. it's very toxic and we aren't even together for real. but she has amazing pussy so whatever. and she fucks me good. like me being slumped afterwards type amazing.

for me to not be a penis person, she makes it work. her on the other hand can swallow a whole dildo. love that for her.

bey: i see you read the message. it would be really cool if you came. kelly already thinks that i fucked things up between us....please?

:and what does that have to do with me?

bey: a lot actually. i want her to see that we're okay with being around each other. that you aren't as upset with me anymore.

:i might be busy.

bey: you told me you wouldn't be busy this weekend because rumi wanted to come over. stop lying.

:what time?

bey: in like two hours. it's last minute. you must have the chat on mute?

:y'all talk too much, so yes. give me time to get ready.

bey: can i come by and we go together?

now she's pushing it. lauren is right next to me naked. if beyoncé were to come by, she would be down my back about it. ever since that day, lauren has been questioning me about bey so much. if my phone goes off too many times, she's saying something. then i have to remind her that we aren't together. never will be honestly.

i know that probably hurts her, but she's really possessive as if her parents never loved her. but that may be the case...oh well, that still doesn't have shit to do with me.

:no. not right now.

bey: but it would be a good look. plus i want you to do something to my hair for me. please nika?

:beyoncé

bey: please? that's all i want.

i sighed heavily before glancing over at lauren. she was knocked out with her leg around me and her face on her pillow. weird position to lay in but whatever. i let bey know she could come but to give me an hour before she did. i'm gonna have to get lauren to go home. and no i'm not doing this because i want bey to come over. i just know how annoying she can get. i'm not telling lo where i'm going either, that'll really cause something. she thinks that she controls me.