Nobody Gets Me.

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rumi is gonna be the death of me. i just can't get a good day with her without her bragging about onika being her mommy too. she's been telling me how much she loves her and all this. then she'll say she loves me; i guess to make me feel good or something. i don't know. but i'm so close to dropping her ass off on onikas porch and running away.

i love her though.

"your grandma wanna see you today mimi. are you gonna go?" i pulled her hair into a messy bun. onikas mom texted me about bringing rumi over because there's an event going on at her church. i'm sure rumi will wanna go with because she's such a child and i love it.

"i go wif her?!"

"you want to?"

"mmhm!"

"come on let's go get dressed."

i have to take her to onikas. they must be doing their random pop up on her if she's telling me to meet her there. poor nic. i just know she's yelling and crying by now. that's all she does when they're over because they piss her off. sometimes it be dumb stuff she be mad at. like girl is really easily angered.

after showering rumi, i got her dressed and actually did her hair. she was on her ipad the whole time. all i did was put some pajama pants on and a crop top, throwing my hair in a bun. i'm not going anywhere today.

lyric is with miles and won't be back until later so...that's that. she's always gone now. it breaks my heart but i'm trying to accept the fact that she's a teenager. sometimes i feel like i give her too much lead way. but whatever. as long as she doesn't give me a reason to not trust her.

she's such a good kid. i can't stop thinking about the day she was drunk and came right to the bed with onika and i. didn't even try too hard to hide it. i love that.

"ok mommy we go see my mommy!" rumi threw her arms in the air with a smile like it was a surprise. i chuckled opening the back door for her and buckling her in. she was smiling and rocking in her seat the whole ride. her level of excitement is so cute to me.

hearing her try to rap the songs on the radio was funny too. she swear she know what she be talking about.

"what he say baby?!" i started recording her while driving. i'm a pro!

"i no wanna knooowwwww! you play me keep it lowwww!! ohhhhh!"

i laughed at her while rewatching the video. she was feeling it, had her eyes closed and all. swear i love my baby so much. always reminding me so much of onika, she could've been her child. seriously. not gonna lie they lowkey look alike. rumi even has a dimple coming in that's deep as hell. my dimple isn't even that deep.

pulling up to onikas house i saw mama carols car. yep. i knew it. rumi was so excited to get out, i let her run up to the door and do her thing. by her thing i mean kicking the door and screaming for onika.

it didn't take long for the door to open and when it did, rumi shot in there. i said hello to carol, giving her a hug and we went inside. rumi was sitting on onikas lap as she sat on the couch looking upset.

"bruh thank you. make her leave bb."

"i can't make your mother leave onika." i chuckled sitting next to her. carol raised her eyebrow at onika making her pout even more. lord.

"she getting on my nerves man. apparently i'm wrong for letting kehlani work with me."

"oop." i looked away and got off the couch grabbing rumi. "continue momma." i started up the stairs. i'm not even gonna protest against this because i'm not against it.

would've tried to save her but nope.

"mommy you have boobies."

"girl what?" i laughed at rumi as she poked my titty. shes sitting on my stomach on her ipad and just started to mess around with my skin. she was pinching and smacking while watching whatever she was looking at. now she wanna talk about my boobs?