Breaking point

Drowned

As you woke up, it took you a few moments to realize that you were in your bed, alone.

You head was a bit misty, but you felt rest for the first time of the week. You didn't sleep more than 2 hours a night since this contract.

The weather was grey and the air a bit cold, giving the room a gloomy light.

How did I even get there again?

But your hazy thinking was cut by the sound of the door opening. And what wasn't your surprise when Levi and Erwin enter the room with a breakfast and a beautiful tulip on the side.

« Hi boys... » you mumble in a yawn.

They came to site down, each on both sides.

« Feeling better? » Levi asks before putting a peck on your lips.

« Much better, I really needed the rest » you yawn again.

« Good » Erwin replies, putting a kiss on your cheek.

« What do we have here? » you ask playfully toward the tray.

"Well, we got a bit too excited here and do way too much food but bon appétit" Erwin laughs and yes, they made enough food for an all family.

"Thank you" you smile to them grateful. "Let's share then" and that's what you did.

The three of you eat and talked as you always did, expect that you were fully dressed the others time.

After a moment, the rain started to pour outside, clouding out the windows.

"Someone going to be happy" Levi says. He was right, you love rainy day when you have absolutely nothing to do. "Do you want to watch a movie?" he asks.

"You know me so well" you smile softly, kissing him before hearing Erwin clear his throat.

"Well, I'll go" he says, starting to leave the bed. You quickly exchange a look with Levi before you both nodded.

"Shut up Erwin, I know you want to stay" Levi spats.

"No don't worry I-"

"Erwin" you warn with an arched brow, an obvious mockery on your face.

"Thanks god, I really wanted to stay" he sighs sitting back down and at that you laughed. "What are we watching?" he adds.

You installed yourself between them under the cover, your head on Levi's chest and your legs intertwined with Erwin's, his hand endlessly drawing gentle patterns on your skin.

This should feel odd, you thought but what was really odd, was that it felt not.

As the movie began, the nice melody of the rain and the sweet warm of the two men lulled you into a comfort that you didn't realize that was so needed. You've been full of stress and tension for the whole week, always on edge as the pressure got bigger and the time slimer, but you finally did it.

The movie was kind of boring actually, but you didn't care; this was good.

"I don't deserve this" you hear Erwin whispers after a while. The room was kind of dim, but you still catch the exhaustion and despair in his eyes. You quickly stopped the movie, and both turned to him concerned.

"What's the matter with you?" Levi asks confused.

"Yes, what's wrong?" you demand worried.

You saw his jaws clench, his eyes still on the screen that were not animated anymore.

"I just..." he stammers before taking a deep breath. When his eyes finally looked at you both, the expression in it broke your heart a little. " Am I a bad person ?"