Trust yourself

CHAPTER 11

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 When Li Chi left the therapist's office and returned to his apartment, he was upset regarding the last comment the therapist made and began to say out loud,

"Are you upset because no family has adopted you from the shelter?" Why do I bother? What's the point? you fool. Do strangers become your family just because they take you to live in their house? Strangers will continue to be strangers. idiot. I don't know why I go to this therapist; he asks stupid questions. What does this have to do with my disturbing nightmares? This loser is unable to solve my problem.

Li Chi sat in the dark, staring at the camera screen, watching Mandolin's closed window, and all he could see was darkness, and then he remembered something: a five-year-old boy sitting in a chair in a police station, and in front of him stood a policeman, a policewoman, and four other people; Two men, two women

The policeman asked these people to decide which of them would take the child home with them, but one of the two women said,

"No, I do not want this boy; he reminds me of the criminal who killed my daughter."

A man said, emphasising her words,

"He bears the features of his father." "Whenever I look at him, I see the despicable killer's face."

The other woman replied,

"No, he bears the features of your daughter, and we also do not want him." If not for your daughter's behaviour and her way of dealing with my son, he would not have been reckless and done this crime. She was the one who made him angry to the point of killing her. "She was the one who provoked him."

Then everyone argued, and the voices raised accusations among everyone. The policewoman hugged the young child, whose wide eyes were watching what was happening right in front of him in silence. The policeman intervened and took them away from the child; then, when he returned back to the policewoman,

She asked him, "What's going to happen to this poor child?"

The policeman replied,

"He's going to the orphanage; no one wants to take him; maybe this is better for him than to live with these people who might abuse him as long as they have this sick mentality."

The policewoman kissed the child's head and said,

"Poor boy, he has seen horrors, and what a pity he is silent and does not even cry." "I feel bad for him."

Li Chi stood up and wiped a tear that had fallen on his cheek, then went to take a warm bath, and after that he went to sleep.

While he was sleeping, Li Chi had a dream: that he hugged Mandolin and kissed her head, promising her that he would change for her and that he would be a new person who would never again commit murder; he would be a good human being. He begged her to believe him and accept him, and then he cried and fell to the ground, kneeling in front of her and repeating, "Believe me; I will change; I love you." Mandolin replies to him, "How can I believe you and trust you?" Isn't it possible for you to feel jealous and kill everyone around me? or you may try to kill me again. How can I trust you when you are violent and criminal? How can I trust your reactions? Is it possible for me to trust you? Li Chi collapsed on the ground sobbing and awoke from his sleep sobbing.

Li Chi returned to the therapist on time, angry and reproaching the therapist, saying:

"From the beginning, I came to you because of the crying problem, and you couldn't help me; then, because of the nightmares, and you couldn't help me; and now I'm crying inside the nightmares; what are you going to do?" "Can't you do something to help me stop all this nonsense?"