Shameless (Jalex Fanfic)

Chapter 6: I'm Not Interested Girl

Alex POV:

She removed her lips from mine and stepped back before I could push her off myself.

"Alex, I missed you so much! How was the tour babe?" Babe? Really?

"I, um, it was..." I couldn't make my mouth form the right words. What the fuck is this? Why is she doing this?

"Well come on, tell me all the awesome details," she smiled at me. I just looked at her confused, "Oh! I'm sorry. You probably want to come in and get unpacked right? Where's your stuff?"

"Um," I couldn't speak.

"Your stuff is in the car," Jack looked down at his shoes while he spoke.

"Well you guys can go get it. I'll make some food for you guys, I'm sure you're starving," Lisa grinned, pecking me on the cheek and turning to enter the house, "It's so good to see you again. And you too Jack."

Jack awkwardly nodded at her and we silently made our way to the car. He popped the trunk and pulled out half of my bags.

He broke the silence, "So, she obviously thinks you're still together."

I flinched, "I, um, we kind of are... technically."

"What?" Jack looked at me with pain shining in his eyes.

"W-We never officially broke up. She said if I left we'd be done so I just thought we were. She didn't call me or anything," I explained as quickly as possible. It kind of felt like, I don't know, I'd cheated on him. We'd had our moments and it didn't feel right, but that was stupid. I mean Jack and I weren't a thing...

"Oh, so when we... you were still with her?" Jack asked sadly. I couldn't understand why he was so upset. He didn't want us to happen anyways.

"Yeah, I guess so," I whispered.

"I'm sorry," he said walking back into the house.

"Don't be," I said following closely behind him, "It's not your fault."

Lisa had some food set out for us in the kitchen after we set down the bags in the living room. She smiled as we took our seats at the island counter.

"Now tell me all the details," Lisa said, "I'm ready."

"Well, um," I stuttered, "We played shows."

"Really?" Lisa asked sarcastically, she smiled nervously, "Alex, honey, are you okay? You've been acting weird since you've been here."

"I-I'm just tired I guess," I looked down at my plate, food untouched.

"What's wrong with him?" Lisa turned to Jack for answers.

He glared at her for the tiniest moment, I could almost hear him daring himself to say you, but then it was gone, "Um, he hasn't slept much."

"You two are always sticking up for each other, I'll never get a straight answer will I?" She grinned crossing her arms, "Well either way I hope you had fun. I'm gonna go upstairs and unpack some of your stuff, babe."

With that she walked off to the stairs. I could hear her quietly going up them in the background. Jack sighed next to me, "I should probably go."

"No!" My heart jumped in my chest, "I mean, you don't have to go Jack."

"I should leave you to catch up with Lisa," he gave me a half smile, "I'll text you later."

"Okay..." he started off to the door, I went after him and grabbed his hand, "We should hang out soon though."

"We've been hanging out all tour," he muttered.

I shrugged, "So, that doesn't mean we can't. Let's go out for drinks tomorrow."

"Yeah, maybe," his eyes met mine, "I'll see you later Alex."

I nodded, letting him go this time, "Yeah, see you." I closed the door only after he drove off. Leaning back against the door and sliding down I bit my lip. What in the world am I going to do now?

"Alex? Are you guys finished eating?" Lisa asked, seeing me on the floor as she came down the stairs, "Why're you on the floor? Where's Jack?"

I quickly stood up, "He, uh, had to go."

She smiled, "Oh okay. Now we can catch up." She walked forward and pressed her lips to mine again. Why did this feel so weird? I was in love with her 2 months ago. Was.

I stiffened as she retreated from the kiss. I could tell she was trying not to notice how weird and stiff I was acting.

"I put away your clothes," she said.

"Thanks," I muttered walking away from her and up the stairs.

"Alex are you absolutely sure you're ok?" She asked once more.

"I'm fine, Lisa. I'm fine." I went into the room Lisa and I shared. It looked the same, big fluffy pillows on the bed that matched the comforter. A huge rug on the floor covering the tan carpet. I pulled the matching curtains shut, preventing the sunlight from getting into the room.

I pulled off my shirt and shoes. Then, plugging my earbuds in and laying on the bed, I soon drifted into a much needed dreamless sleep.

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I was awoken by a door shutting, I looked over at the bathroom. Sure enough Lisa was in there, I could see light streaming into the dark room from the bottom of the door. I looked at my phone and it read 11:30 pm. Great. My limbs still heavy with sleep, I pulled my earbuds out and laid my phone down next to me on the night stand.

I could hear water running in the bathroom. I stretched and sat back against my pillow. I knew I needed to do some serious thinking. I had so many questions.

What's going to happen now? Am I back with Lisa? She obviously thinks so... What is going through Jack's head right now? What about Lisa's? What's even going through my head right now?

My rush of questions were interrupted by the bathroom door opening again. Lisa stood in the doorway with some black lace lingerie on. I bit my lip. I loved Jack, but she was really hot.

Ugh shut up, you dick. Don't be so shallow, I told myself as she walked over.

"I thought you were up," she said seductively crawling onto the bed next to me.

"Yeah," I muttered, avoiding eye contact.

She put her hand on my cheek turning my head so our eyes would meet, "Alex I really missed you a lot."

"Mmhm," I muttered.

She crawled on top of me so she was straddling me. She leaned down and pressed her lips to my bare chest. She placed kissed all up my torso and shoulders, moving along my neck and jawline next.

The kisses that would've had me moaning 2 months ago I couldn't feel over the hurt in my chest. This wasn't right anymore. I didn't want this.

I coughed, "Um, Lisa?"

"Hm?" She mumbled against my skin.

"Can I go back to sleep?"

Her head popped up, "What?"

"I just... I'm really tired," I muttered, avoiding eye contact.

"Are fucking kidding me?" She sounded kinda pissed.

"No, I just want to get some sleep. I'm sorry," I said awkwardly, she was still straddling me.

"Alex are you really ok? What the hell happened on this tour, babe?" She asked finally climbing off me.

"N-Nothing," I turned away from her and closed my eyes, hoping sleep would overcome me again.

"You're lying to me Alex," she muttered into the darkness.

I frowned with my eyes still closed, "Don't act like you've never lied to me."