Shameless (Jalex Fanfic)

Chapter 25: Put An End To All This Madness

Alex POV:

In the next few days we were kinda stiff towards each other. He didn't want to do anything to make me uncomfortable because I'd told him that me breaking up with Will didn't mean anything for us.

At the time I thought that maybe it was true, that I was really done with him, and that's what sent me off the edge. He helped me through it. I don't know what in the world I would've done if he wasn't there.

It made me kinda realize that no matter how much I was mad at him, I needed and loved him just the same. I forgave him when he apologized because he looked really genuine. The truth was, I'd already forgiven him.

I didn't like that we were stiff but it couldn't just go back to normal. I mean, we weren't even together... yet...

I was going to take him back, if that's what he wanted. We loved each other so why keep hurting ourselves?

I didn't want to be the one to make the move but I was afraid I was going to have to be. Maybe if I just made him feel like we were okay then he'd do it.

I tried my best to smile at him a lot, like I would've before. After a while I didn't have to try, I was just smiling because he was really cute. I laughed at all his jokes and made ones in return.

Soon enough it was just normal again. The awkward tension slowly went away. Although he hadn't made any moves romantically, that didn't mean they weren't going to happen. As much as I loved being friends with Jack, I really wanted to kiss him and cuddle him.

Sometimes at night I'd get so lonely and I would just stare over at Jack, but not in a creepy way. I dared myself so many times to walk over and slip into his bunk with him but I couldn't get up enough courage. That is, until Zack caught me staring one night.

"You love him don't you?" Zack said softly.

I shot him a closed mouth smile and nodded, "Yeah, I do."

"So what are you waiting for then?"

"Him." I shrugged, "Did anyone tell you we dated a month or two back?"

Zack blushed a little and nodded, "Ri told me. What happened?"

"Just a bunch of stupid," I muttered, looking back at Jack. I felt a pang in my chest that I knew only he could fix.

"He loves you too," Zack said turning over in his bunk, which was under Jack's, "Night Alex."

"Night," I muttered as he softly began to snore. I sighed. I knew I was either going to really be glad I did what I was about to do next, or I was going to regret it. I crawled out of my bunk and went over to Jack's.

I moved a bit of hair from his face and caressed his cheek a little. I moved my fingers over his lips lightly, making his face scrunch up for a moment. I almost flipped my shit because it was so cute. I smiled down at him and climbed into his bunk with him, closing the curtain after me.

Jack wrapped his arms around me instantly, even in his sleep. His breathing stops being so even and deep, which tells me he was awake. His arms tightened around me, I nuzzled my head into his chest.

"I have to tell you something," he whispered into my hair.

I tilted my head up and looked at him, "Go ahead." I was calm even though I was scared to death of what he was about to say.

"I actually really like your hair a lot."

I smiled and blushed uncontrollably, "Thank you."

"Also," he put his forehead on mine, "I love you." Our lips were so close. I wanted to close the gap but I didn't. I wanted him to do it, and he didn't fail me. He closed his eyes and I did the same. I could feel his breath on my skin. Then I felt his lips brush against mine.

It was such a feathery little kiss. He was so unsure of himself. I smiled when he pulled away. I missed kissing him so much.

"I'm sorry," Jack mumbled.

My eyes shot open, "For what?"

"You said that just because you broke up with Will doesn't mean I get another chance..." he said quietly, looking down.

I touched my hand to his stubbly cheek and made him look at me, "I love you, too. I've been trying to get you to make a move for days, Jack. Of course I love you."

A smile played across his lips, "Really?"

I nodded, "Really. I've been waiting for you to do that."

"What?" he asked, smirking, "This?" He leaned in and connected our lips again. I smiled into the kiss.

"Yes, that," I mumbled against his lips.

He smiled, "So are we like? Together again?"

"Are you asking me to be your boyfriend, Jack Barakat?" I teased.

"Maybe," he replied kissing me again, "I really like kissing you a lot."

"I like to kiss you too," I said pecking him on the lips, "I'll be your boyfriend again."

"We can tell whoever you want, whenever you want, as long as you never leave me again," He said looking into my eyes. I knew he was serious.

"I won't ever leave you, baby," I said softly touching my mouth to his.

"Good," he whispered, leaning his head down on the pillow, his eyes glimmered in the darkness, "Can I tell you a secret?"

"Yes."

"Do you remember on the last tour, the night before we almost kissed?"

I frowned slightly. I didn't really remember...

"It was quiet, really quiet. You couldn't sleep and I couldn't either. I don't think you knew I was awake."

I sucked in some air. I knew exactly what he was talking about.

"You asked if anyone was awake, and then you called out to me. I don't know why I didn't reply. I was going to. And you said you loved me, Alex."

I looked at him dead in the eyes, my heart was pounding.

"I'm pretty sure you fell asleep after that," smiling, he nuzzled his head into my neck and place a kiss there lightly. He closed his eyes, "It took me a minute, but I said it back."