You Were My Everything (Human!Karkat x Reader Homestuck Fanfiction)

Chapter 9: Le dream/flashback/nightmare

I got in the back an sat next to Karkat.

"Where's the others?" I asked.

"Oh they're taking Roses car." John smiled.

"Cool."

I looked over at Karkat and he was looking out the window listening to music.

Why does he look so depressed..? I wondered.

I wonder what's wrong. There is so many things in life that suck. So many people have similar or different problems and go through the same things.

I looked at my wrist and examined the faded scars. I noticed a couple new ones. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get better...

I sighed and looked out the window. Dave and John were getting lost in their conversation.

I started to feel my eyes get a little heavy and I fell asleep.

•le dream TW maybe o-o•

I was self harming again and watched as my blood streamed down my hand as I cried.

Why. Why does life suck? Why does everyone hate You? Why are you so fucking stupid? Why are you so ugly? Why do you have hardly any friends? Oh yea. Because your a fucking failure that's why (Y/n). The voice in my head repeated over and over again.

Just one more slash?

No two more.

Three more?

No how about ten more.

You deserve it.

"(Y/n)? You ok? Can I come in?" I heard a voice behind the bathroom door.

"H-hold on a sec. Lemme d-do something really q-quick!" I replied as I dabbed the blood on my wrist and wiped my tears and threw away the bloody toilet paper (shuddup).

I pulled down my sleeve and wiped my eyes once more.

I opened the door to see Drake.

"What's wrong (Y/n)? You look like you've cried for the past hour! You ok?!" Drake looked really worried.

"I-I'm fine.." I looked away.

I heard a dripping noise and so did Drake and he looked down at the floor and his eyes trailed from the floor to my arm.

What he saw was blood and he pulled up my sleeve. His eyes widened and started to water.

"(Y-y/n)... Why are you doing this to yourself..?" Drake started to cry.

"I-I'm sorry.." I burst into tears and collapsed onto the floor and he sat down next to me.

"Shhh (Y/n)... It's gonna be ok. Your alright." Drake was calming me down and all I could do was cry.

"Why?" I sobbed.

"Why what..?" Drake was asked.

"Why am I a failure? Why am I alive? Why do I have to exist?..." I went on and on with things that have ruined my life.

"Your not a failure (Y/n). Your gonna do something amazing in life!" Drake smiled.

"No."

•end o' dream•

I was woken up by something.

"Yo (Y/n)! You ok?" I heard a voice.

"Huh? Oh yea I'm fine." I smiled.

"You sure because your crying..?" I stared to see clearly and we were close to the theater and Dave was looking at me concerned.

I wiped my eyes and hold mother of fuck I was crying.

"Oh shit I am." I laughed a bit.

"We're almost to the movie theater so I decided to wake you up." Dave said.

"Oh well I'm awake now." I smiled.

"Are you sure your ok? I heard you moving around a bit and then I saw you crying." Dave looked at me.

"Oh I just had a bad dream. That's all." I smiled weakly.

"Oh well I hope your ok I guess. I really don't know what to say to that." Dave sighed.

"We're here!" John said and stopped the car.

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hallo guys cx sorry I haven't updated in a while I just didn't have enough time haha.

well I guess this chapter is kinda depressing I dunno I suck at that kind of stuff xD

welp I hope you enjoyed and I'll try to update soon!

P.S: summer is almost here so you should expect a little more updates then..