Beau Babies / h.s

I Dreamed...

   With a yawn, I sat up in my bed and stretched my arms up, checking the time, I jumped out of bed taking advantage of the fact that the girls weren’t awake yet and quickly snuck into the bathroom to take my regular morning shower. Strangely, I felt better this morning, refreshed and revived,

   Pulling on my blue jeans and white jumper, I tied my hair up and then poked my head into the girls’ room, I made absolutely no noise. All three were sound asleep, so with a smile, I shut the door,

   Last night, Eleanor was the one to leave first with baby Jake. Actually, she was the only one to leave, the others stayed over, they simple said their boyfriends wouldn’t mind and slept in their beds,

   I went to go down the stairs, “What the fuck and I going to do?” Hearing the frantic voice from downstairs, I pulled my leg back and moved to stand behind the banisters to listen,

   “I don’t know Haz, I really don’t,” That was Zayn’s voice, “I still can’t…I just…How the fuck could you do this?” He yelled,

   “Ssh,” Danielle hushed, “You’ll wake her and the girls,” Even her voice sounded shaky and nervous, what was going on?

   “Oh god,” Harry muttered, “Oh god,” I wanted to go down to comfort him, but I wanted to hear, what had he done?

   “You are such an idiot!” Niall cried in his distinct Irish accent, Danielle tried to quieten him, but Niall wasn’t having it, “No!” He shouted, “I cannot believe you. After she’s been through! I…Ugh…” I could imagine it, Niall running his hand through his blond hair with pure frustration,

   “I know,” Now Harry was crying, sobbing in fact, “I can’t believe I’ve…”

   “I can’t believe it either,” Zayn growled,

   “What should I tell her?” Harry asked, I began to walk silently down the stairs,

   It was Liam who replied, “Well,” He sighed, “Just tell her the truth, tell her you made a mistake with that other woman. Just, tell…Her…” Liam spotted me down the hallway and slowed down his end sentence,

   Everyone who stood in the kitchen turned to look at me, even Bailey who stood at Nialls' feet turned her head. A lump formed in my throat. Salty tears in my eyes. I felt sick and plainly horrible. Last night, Harry had cheated on me? He didn’t need to say the words. I’m not an idiot. Or maybe I was? For ever thinking he was different to any other human being on this earth.

   As quickly as I could, I slipped on my shoes and stormed out of the house slamming the door behind me,

   Outside was freezing, bumps rose on my skin. But I didn’t care about the cold. Tears rolled frantically down my cheeks and I wrapped my arms around myself protectively,

   I walked and walked and walked. Until I heard footsteps approaching fast behind me,

   “Bobbie!” Harry yelled, “Wait!” I didn’t stop, “Please just wait!” He sprinted up behind me and grabbed my shoulders,

   Harry walked in front of me keeping his hands firmly on my shoulders to stop me from moving any further. I didn’t look at him instead I kept my arms locked in the position they were already in.

   Harry looked down at me, that was when I noticed he was wearing the same clothes as he left in yesterday. His hair was tousled and eyes red rimed and watery, just like mine,

   “Bobbie, I’m so sorry,” He apologised and that just made me feel even worse, I burst into sobs that painfully wracked my chest, Harry pulled me closer to him, but I pushed him away before he could get me to hug his chest and compel me to forgive him,

   “No,” I stepped back, “Don’t…Just don’t…”

   “Bobbie, I’m so sorry…It was an accident, I was drunk and she…”

   “I really don’t want to hear any more about her,”

   Harry gulped and doing a thing that most boys did when they were, he ran his hand through his curly hair, “I don’t know what to say, what can I do to make it up to you?”

   I shrugged and wiped my eyes, “Nothing,” I breathed, “There’s nothing,”

   “Bobbie, please,” Harry grabbed my arm, “There has to be something. Anything,”

   Shaking my head, I looked down at my feet, “You know Harry. I’ve done my fair share of sleeping around behind boyfriend’s backs, but I never thought you would…” I couldn’t complete my sentence, “You know maybe this was my fault, I suppose karma really does exist,”

   “I didn’t do this to teach you a lesson Bobbie,” Harry sighed, “I would never do this to hurt you,”

  “Then why?” My voice rose in volume making me sound so much angrier, but then again, I guess I was. Really angry,

   “I don’t know!” Harry exclaimed, “I was pissed, really pissed and I didn’t know what I was doing…” He slammed himself on the forehead with his palm, “I…I didn’t mean to Bobbie. You know how much I love you!”

   Tears streamed down his face and Harry looked as if he were near to sinking to his knees and begging for forgiveness,

   “I’m sorry Harry,” I softly, but firmly pulled my arm away from him, “But I need to be alone right now,”

   “Fine,” Harry breathed and backed up, “But you know Bobbie, everybody makes mistakes and I promise you that I will never ever, make one as stupid as this again. Ever,” He continued walking backwards not paying attention to the oncoming traffic,

   I watched as a car going way above the speed limit came racing around the corner directly toward him. I twisted my head, Harry was still staring at me with wide, sorry eyes. And so, without any hesitation whatsoever, I launched myself at him.

   Slamming hard into his body, I didn’t even hear the squeal of brakes. Before everything around me crumpled into lapping darkness.