Lights /Stranger Things\

~the infamous sofa~

"I've been takin' on a new direction, but I have to say; I've been thinkin' about my own protection, it scares me to feel this way."

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Mike's pov:

Murray served us his nasty risotto for dinner and we went to get ready for bed, Murray left somewhere upstairs, probably to his own room. Nothing much changed between me and Will, I kinda expected it to after what Murray said, but I guess not. Holly forced me and Erica to tell her a bedtime story or she wouldn't fall asleep, but now both girls were sleeping peacefully while my mind was still racing with thoughts of Will and El, I never felt the same way about them, but how do I know which of them I really love, I was dating El after all, but that was because I wanted a girlfriend, so no one would laugh at me, but no one knew about El.

I let out a sigh, turning to the side with my back towards sleeping Holly. My mind wandered to the first time I saw Will and the first time I saw El, I told El I knew I loved her from that moment, but the truth is I was disappointed she wasn't Will. Then she was gone for a year and Max appeared, but I didn't like Max, she kept staring at Will, like the girl on the Snow Ball, the Snow Ball, I wished she didn't ask Will to dance and he could dance with me... as friends, of course. And when El broke up with me last summer, I was kinda.. relieved and I really wanted to play D&D with Will, but Lucas would be mad at me for that, he would maybe laugh at me for it. And when they were leaving and Will said he's never gonna join another party.. that actually made me way happier than El saying she loves me.

I quickly sat up, my eyes widening at the sudden realization. Damn you, Murray! I carefully got out of bed and walked out of the room, I saw Will on the other side, he gave me a small smile.

"What are you doing up?" I asked, he just shrugged.

"Couldn't sleep, you?" Will replied.

"Same," I said, giving him a soft smile, Will smiled back.

"About what Murray said," Will started.

"He doesn't know what he's talking about. I think he just thought that about us because of Jonathan and Nancy," I said with a shrug.

"Yeah, probably," Will let out a little laugh. Gosh, I love that sound... wait!

"So, good night, Mike," Will said with a smile, walking back towards his room.

"Night," I said, turning to leave back as well, but I didn't take a single step. I came here to tell him something, and that something wasn't that Murray confused us with our older siblings.

I turned back towards Will, but he was already in his room with the door closed. I guess that today it's now or never. I took a breath before walking towards the door, raising my hand to knock. I stopped myself, do I really want to ruin what we have? Well, I nearly ruined it more than once and Will deserves to know that there's someone who loves him, if what I think is true and in the van he was talking about his feelings and not El's, I owe him at least a confession.

I finally knocked on the door, in a few seconds Will opened, giving me a surprised smile.

"Hey, you need something?" Will asked, still with that smile. How I love that smile of his, and Will's eyes look adorable in this light, I could stare into them for hours, but he'd probably get freaked out.

"Mike?" Will asked, sounding a little anxious. I should probably say something, it must look creepy when I just stand here, but it seems I forgot how talking works.

"Mike, is everything okay?" Will asked again. I can just say I wanted to see if he was okay, am I really gonna chicken out again. Fuck it!

I slowly leaned over and kissed Will, his lips were way softer than El's. I could feel him kiss me back, his hands grabbing my collar as mine made their way around Will's waist. I can't believe I did it, I can't believe I'm kissing Will Byers right now, and it feels right, not like those countless times I kissed El. Will suddenly broke apart, pushing me away slightly.

"We shouldn't be doing this," he let out breathlessly.

"I know," I replied, resting my forehead on his.

"It's a really, really bad idea," Will replied, looking into my eyes.

"The worst," I said, kissing him again, and he let me. I felt Will pull me inside his room by my collar and I closed the door behind us just to be slammed against them a moment later. Kissing Will felt right and I never want this moment to end, just me and him, nothing and no one else.

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