꧁Forest Girl꧂ // Aonung

꧁14꧂

I sat on the sand as I waited for my family to return. Silent tears were rushing down my cheeks and I felt numb. I barely have anything left now. I lost my Arokh. He was my best friend, my brother, my everything. I always knew, no matter what'll happen, he'd always be on my side.

I lost Neteyam, my brother, my protector, my comforter. He did everything he could to protect me, no matter what time, day or reason it was or had. He'd do anything for everyone of us, without hesitation. And now he's gone.

He is gone forever and I can do nothing to change that. It took me a few minutes to realize that but Aonung tried his best to be there for me. And I was sorry that I pushed him away from me. I told him I need time to think, Time alone.

And I felt sorry, because he wanted to comfort me but I couldn't let him. Not now. I lost people I loved the most and the worst part is, It was my fault. If I wouldn't have been caught, then I would've set Lo'ak, Tuk and Tsireya free and not Neteyam, he wouldn't been in danger.

If I just would've gone with Neteyam and Lo'ak, Arokh would live and Arokh would be here, with me. This is all my fault, what kind of person am I? I felt disgusted by myself and weak. Why am I like this?

I watched the waves move and just listened to the sound of the ocean to get away from my thoughts. My thoughts only were killing me more and more. „Vari?" I heard a voice say.

I closed my eyes and sighed. I stood up and spoke as I turned around „I said I want to be..." My jaw dropped and I felt like I was dreaming. „Neteyam?" I asked out of breath. He nod with a smile on his face and a chuckle escaped his lungs.

Is this real? This can't be real. I let out a laugher and rushed towards him. My arms were wrapped around him and he was quick to wrap his arms back around me. A slight groan out of pain escaped his lungs and I immediately moved away a little bit.

„You're real." I said with a laugher, catching for air because I felt like I was dying. I grabbed his cheeks in my hands and moved his head to see every inch of him. My heart started beating fast and I didn't felt as numb as before.

„Of course I'm real." he laughed as he put my hands down and wrapped his arms around me and I didn't hesitate to hug him back. I can't believe it. I can't believe he is alive. „What, but how?" I asked as I pulled away. And then it hit me, what if I'm at the spirit tree. What if this isn't real?

I backed a few steps away from him, this isn't real. „What?" He asked me as he frowned his eyebrows. „This is not real, I'm- I'm at the spirit tree, aren't it?" I asked him and he put his head down. A tear escaped my eyes and I let out a sob.

This isn't real. „You're not Vari." He told me as he walked towards me. „But, then how?!" I asked him, raising my voice. All the hope and joy I had got ripped away from me in 1 second. „I went trough the eye of eywa." he whispered at me.

My eyes widened „But to do that, you'd need to be..." „I know, but I went trough it and it was insane!" he said with a smile. „So, it's really you?" I asked and he nod with a smile. It's him, it's him.

Aonung appeared behind Neteyam a few meters away. „He woke up after you left." He told me as he approached us. A big smile hopped on my face and my heart beat fastened. „It's you." I said and he nod at me. I wrapped my arms around him and my eyes shut tight.

He's real, he's here. It worked! But Arokh is not. Arokh is gone, and he won't return, never. It broke my heart, into many pieces, he was always with me. And now I lost him. I lost him forever.

And no can understand my pain... wait, Neytiri can. She lost seze in war too. "And I'm not at the spirit tree." I asked and Neteyam let out a laugher. "No you're not." He said to me and I nod.