Finding your destiny (God given destiny #1)

Chapter 9

I've been alone for a few weeks now. Uriël tried to talk to me through angel radio but I ignored him. He betrayed me. He and Michael both did.
I also haven't seen or heard Killian since that night. Since he told me my mother is dead. And that my father is an archangel. He is still alive so why hasn't he come to see me? Michael and Uriël are archangels too and they go everywhere they like. Maybe he doesn't want to. He did give me away, after all. And I guess Killian finally gave up. Though he told me he would be coming for me.

I talk to father Gabriel almost every other day to let him know I'm okay. You could say all is back to normal. But that's not exactly true. Since a few days ago I've started hearing voices in my head. They're faint but I can hear them. And it's nothing like angel radio, I can't turn this off. I hear them all the time, day and night, saying things I don't want to hear. Things I already know, but don't want to. They whisper to me constantly, telling me to kill him.
It's in a bar where I'm drinking to drown the away that they suddenly become so much louder.

"Long time no see, beautiful."

I slowly turn my head and my breath gets stuck in my throath. I've forgotten how good he looks. And those eyes. I have the sudden urge to rip off all his clothes and have my wicked way with him. But by now the voices in my head are yelling at me. I get up without speaking and leave the bar as fast as possible. I need to get away from him. I turn in an alley and follow it, but then a hand wraps around my wrist and stops me.

"What's wrong?" Killian asks.

I look into his eyes, seeing his concern for me but they're just too damn loud. Strike now! Kill him! End it! I want it to end so I yank my wrist free and punch him in the stomach. He gets trown away from the force and lands on his back. When he's back on his two feet he is scowling fiercely.

"What the fuck, Maria?"

I run to him and punch his face before he can react. "Fuck." He rubs his nose, blood leaking, looking seriously pissed now. Yes! Fight! When I come at him he's prepaired. He dodges my blow and manages to tackle me to the ground. He comes over me and blocks my body with his own. He grabs my hands and secures them above my head. "Stop." And I do. I glare at him, breathing hard. From wanting to kill him. Kiss him. To fuck him. I want it all.

"Fight me, Killian. It will happen. Might as well be now so this can be over."

"Why? Why the rush all of a sudden?"

"It's my destiny."

I headshot him in the nose making his grip loosen enough to pull my hands free. I push him off of me but he doesn't go far. I gather light in my hand and throw the lightball at him but he turns it around, making it a fireball. Luckily for me, I'm fast so I dodge it with ease. Yes! He's finally fighting back now. Kill him! I can feel my powers coursing through my veins, the air feels static around me. Looking at Killian's face I see shock, wonder, curiosity. But above all, lust. It's clear as day he wants me. I want him too, but I can't have him. I know I'm glowing again, just like in the vision. I hover above the ground before I launch myself at him. He braces himself just before I crash into him. We spin and roll around each other, breaking the ground with our fall. But Killian is on top of me again. He pins my hands above my head and grinds his hips into mine. I moan, feeling the static go away, and arch my back.

"You looked hot as fuck, but I'm glad you stopped."

Tears form in my eyes. The voices don't leave me, they want me to kill him. My whole body is shaking from fighting against it.

"Maria, what's wrong?"

"They won't stop." I whisper. "They won't go away. They want me to do it."

Confusion fills his handsome face. "What are you talking about? Do what?"