Finding your destiny (God given destiny #1)

Chapter 7

"I can't see them!" I search everywhere around me. My eyes don't stop moving for even one second. "Where are they?"

"I can't tell you. You have to learn to do it yourself." Uriël tells me.
He's casually standing against a tree, arms crossed and one foot over the other. Training me. His words, not mine. To me it feels like he is barking orders while doing nothing nothing. I don't call that training. It's laziness, that's what it is. Yesterday they trained me on angel radio. After a few hours Michael said he needed a break from me. Today he let Uriël do the training. I don't know which one is worse. Yesterday they attacked my mind, causing me to pass out several times and today it's my body. Thank God I heal fast because those stupid ass Hellhounds already took several bites out off me.

That's what we're doing now. Trying to kill Hellhounds. The problem is, it's not easy to kill something that's invisable. Concentrate, he says. Listen, he says. Relax. As if it's that easy. Easy for him, maybe. He's no Hellhound food in their eyes.

"Close your eyes and relax. Tap deep into those powers of yours and you will know what to do."

Okay, I can do this. I close my eyes and try to relax like he says. Easier said than done when they are ready to devour you at any moment but I finally make it work. All sound disappears. All I hear is my own breathing, slow and calm. Then I hear them. Their growling. I smell them. They smell like death. I hear one coming at me from the front qnd manage to pierce him through it's chest. He whimpers before falling dead to the ground. The second one comes at me from behind. I back salto and land behind it. It turns around but my blade whooshes through the air and cuts clean through it's neck. I hear his head bounce twice before it rolls a bit and then stops.

I open my eyes, looking to Uriël whi slowly claps. "That's how you do that. I knew you had it in you." He starts walking and passes me. I follow him but he's hard to keep up with. He's so samn fast. I don't know if this is a good time to ask but I am desperate for some answers and since Michael refuses to give me anything, Uriël has to do. "Do you know why my parents sent me away?" He falters walking but continues on.

"They didn't have a choice in the matter. It was done for the greater good."

"Do you know them?"

"I do, but I can't tell you who they are, I'm sorry. That's not for me to tell." He pauzes. "What I can tell you is you look exactly like your mother. Everytime I look at you, I think I see her instead of you. You're as beautiful as she is. Your father." Another pause, this one a bit longer. "It broke him to send you away. He has not been the same since then. But he is a warrior and he knows one day he will see you again."

So much and so little information at the same time.

"Yes. One I fulfill my destiny." I say with bitterness. "When I kill Killian. If I don't, I'll die and never see them. And if I do." I can't even say it. Why? He should mean nothing to me. Get it in your thick skull, Maria.

"If you do, he dies. But I am sensing you don't want that."

"I know. I know I'm not suppose to care. But, for some reason, I do." I end my sentence whispering.

"You're in love with him." He puts an arm around my shoulders. "It's only natural if you think about it. You're exact opposites." I frown at that. I am not in love with him. "Don't look at me like that, little angel. All I am saying is, have a little fun while you still can"

Later in bed I'm having trouble falling asleep. How dare he say I am in love with Killian. I don't fall in love. I always keep my emotions behind closed doors. But maybe some got through somehow? I can't explain what I feel for him. I have never felt like this before. I know it's something, but love? I don't know. Not that matters. We're destined to kill each other, so I don't exactly see a happy ending for us.

Before I even open my eyes I feel something soft under me. I'm not in my own bed. My bed doesn't have satin sheets. I don't think I'm awake. It feels different. Like I'm here but at the same time I'm not.

"So you have guardian angels now? Am I that dangerous?"

Killian. It's been a month since I heard his voice. I didn't realize how much I missed it until now.

"I don't know. Is what they are saying true?" Eyes still closed, I know he's nowhere near the bed. I feel him close but his voice seems further away.

"Depends. Did they use words like attractive? Handsome? If so, then yes."

At this I open my eyes. "I'm serious, Killian." I sit up straight in bed and find him by the window.

"I am serious." He slowly walks toward me, the lust clear in his eyes. He pushes my back flat on the bed and comes on top of me before stroking my cheeck. "All I can think about is giving you pleasure." I close my eyes at this. I know I should resist him but it's so difficult. "I've missed you. I've missed your perfect body." He says while feathering his fingers down my neck and down my body. I only now realize I only have a bra and panties on.

"This isn't a good idea." Though I don't sound very convincing.

"Because your bodyguards don't like me? They kept you from me long enough." He smells my neck, leaving goosebumps in it's wake.

"Because I should kill you."

He kisses me sweetly and pushes his body into mine, making me feel how hard he is. "So make your move, beautiful." I put my hands in his hair and bring his mouth to mine. His lips on mine is all I need right now. I've tried but his pull to me is too strong. "Fuck, I wish this was real." He's grinding his hips into mine. Dryhumping me and making me even more crazed for him. "But it will give me plenty more reason to make sure you can still feel me when you wake up." He kisses my necķ and ghosts his fingers over my soaking panties. I moan loud. I want him so much.

"You should leave her alone."

I push Killian away superfast making him fall on on the floor while I sit up in bed. "Are you fucking kidding me? Who do you think you are and what the fuck are you doing here?"

Michael turns to me but averts his eyes quickly when he sees I'm just in my lingerie. So he's uncomfortable? Well, I don't give a shit. "I sensed evil nearby."

"Are you for real? Get the hell out of here, right now."

"I am not leaving you alone with him."

"I said get out." I yell this time. He sighs but decides to leave. He's gone in an instant.

"What a cockblocker." I turn to Killian who's standing now.

"Just leave, Killian. I'm not in the mood."

"You were five minutes ago, sweetheart."

"I mean it, Killian. Just leave me alone."

He sighs but relents. "Fine. But I'm not waiting that long this time." He puts his hands on the bed before leaning towards me and looking in my eyes. "I will be coming for you, beautiful." He kisses me hard before disappearing too.

When I wake up, Michael is standing at the window looking outside. Off course he's here when I wake up. What did I expect? That he would leave me to make my own choices? I am their weapon. They are never going to leave me alone. They need to train me to make sure I will win, so that they will win. What I want or feel doesn't matter.

"Are you in love with him?" He asks me but doesn't turn around. He keeps looking out the window.

"Why does everybody keep asking me that? No, I'm not in love with him."

"And yet you continue to defy me and see him. Defy your destiny, to be precise. You can't see him here so you dreamwalk to him? Why, if not for love? Tell me so I can stop it."

What? Who does he think he is? He has no control over me. Asshole. "First of all, I didn't realize I could dreamwalk and second, I didn't mean to. It just happened. And who I love or don't love is of no concern to you. I don't need you to stop anything."

He finally turns to me before speaking. "It is my duty to help you fulfill your destiny, Maria. And I will do everything in my power to make that happen. Continue seeing him and you risk everything. Is that what you want? He's just one guy, Maria. It's either him or the rest of the world. It's your choice."