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It has officially been a full week and some days since we've been here and It's finally time for me to go to high school, for the first time ever

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It has officially been a full week and some days since we've been here and It's finally time for me to go to high school, for the first time ever.

My nerves were at an all-time high at the moment and I didn't know how to handle it.

I was so excited but so nervous at the same time. I didn't know what to expect. I haven't been to a school since I was in middle school.

What if I embarrassed them on accident? I didn't want them to hate me. Especially Athena. I've hurt and embarrassed her enough already.

These thoughts had me contemplating on if I should be going to the same school as her. I knew if I asked Donatello to switch schools he'd wonder why. I didn't want him to know about my self deprecating thoughts just yet.

I had been ready for the past hour just sitting in my room trying to gain the courage to leave my room. I was ready early so I wasn't late or anything, but the nerves were making me feel sick.

I didn't know what I should do or what to expect.

I would've asked Athena or the boys but Athena hated me too much to ever help me with anything, not that I blamed her, and I could tell the boys were hesitant to talk to me.

I don't necessarily know why at the moment, but I'll try to figure it out.

A knock at my door pulled me from my anxiety as my body tensed up in anticipation before I forced myself to relax.

I cleared my throat a bit before shouting "come in." I hadn't spoken at all this morning and the rasp in my voice proved it.

The door slowly opened revealing Donatello standing at the door. He left the door open as he stepped through and I couldn't help but wonder if that was just something he did with everyone or if he picked up that I didn't like having the door closed whenever I was with someone new.

Deciding on leaving that thought for later me's problem I put my focus towards him.

"Hey Aphie, I see you're dressed and ready, are you excited?" He sat in the same chair at my desk like always and turned to face me.

There was a silence surrounding us for a second before I decided I should try and break it.

I opened my mouth hesitantly only to close it again when the words wouldn't leave my mouth.

"Hey it's okay. You can say anything you want, I won't judge you. I promise." His eyes softened as he looked at me and I couldn't help the feeling of safety that enveloped me whenever his gaze softened like that.

It was a feeling I wasn't used to and just thinking about that has made me emotional many times before.

My eyes shift around the room for a second before settling back onto him and this time I'm actually able to get the words out.

"I don't want to embarrass her or the boys." I could feel my cheeks heat up in embarrassment as I said the words out loud. I couldn't even look at him as I just confessed that to him.

"Is it okay if I come closer?" His gaze was steady and still had that softened look to them. Having that feeling of safety still I give a slight nod for him to get closer.

As he approached me my body filled with surprise as I didn't tense up like I usually do when someone, specifically a man, gets close to me.

"Now I want you to look at me, and I don't want you to look away." He says softly.

Listening to what he said. I turn my gaze to him and look at him as he talks to me.

"You can never embarrass any of us. I don't know the situation with you and Athena, but I know you love her, and I know you would never purposefully do anything to cause her harm or anxiety. You should have more faith in yourself. I know you haven't been to a real school in a long time but you'll do great and if you really don't like it or feel uncomfortable you come to me and you can go back to online immediately, okay?" He spoke so soft, like he was talking to a child or something, but I guess that in a way he was.

Taking his words in I give him a small nod.

"Alright now, are you going to eat breakfast?" Sensing my hesitation, he sits in silence for a second before looking back up at me.

"Well, if you do decide to eat can I have a few bites of yours?" My heart is immediately filled with warmth as I take in his question and I couldn't stop my eyes from watering if I wanted.

"Won't you be having the same thing anyways?" I whispered turning my burning eyes away from him.

"Yup. But I want to taste yours too." A tear slips down my cheek before I could stop it and I discretely try to wipe it away as fast as I could.

"Okay. I can eat a little bit then." I say still having my face turned away from him.

"Great! Let's go make our plates then." I could feel myself smiling a little as I could feel his smile without even having to look at him.

I guess this is what it feels like to have a dad that loves you?

(A/N): Can anyone tell me why she was so emotional about him offering to eat a few bites of her food?

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